I hope for lasting happiness, I don't care what comes along to make that happen. 

I wish we were all more like a family instead of this.







Hello, the days get less and less exciting. Do you feel it?
I think we should change the spot we hang out at, I don't like it. It's dirty, we get hit by handballs, no nature and it's so damned bleak.
Anyways today went by okay I guess. I like my spending time in class a lot more now, idk why. And I think my class work pace is getting better. Next thing to work on is my stupid study/homework habits.
I feel like the PE assignment will stress me out and so will the SRP. I feel too calm, I really should be panicky, but I'm not, why hasn't it hit me yet, lolol. This always happens.
Also, I'm really disappointed in a lot of people lately for various reasons, but I'll let them fix themselves.
Hmmmm, and lately this weather is so annoying, hate it. I need cold weather in my lifeeee.
OK hope tomorrow will be better.
Goodnight!! ♡




Of catching my attention





I love Devon Aoki like so so much, she's so damn pretty omg

• Being ignored
• Losing family members
• Spiders
• Actually most bugs
• Supernatural things (eg. ghosts)
• Getting friend zoned
• Disgusting holey/lumpy/cratered patterns ugh ughgufhglufg
• Cancer
• Sleep paralysis
• the HSC...
• Getting nits
• Wasting my life when I'm older
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• Ugh a lot of things.... 

wth got 104 views yesterday on my old blog and I don't post shiz, what the heck???

Hello, today was a tuesday and I was more productive in class than normal. Also the weather was so hot, I didn't like it. Well it wasn't that hot but it was the kind of weather where you had to cool minded and calm.
We're going to make burgers for food tech and there is going to be pickles!!! Yes omg. And on the topic of pickles, miss rumble handed harry and linton the pickle jar for them to open and none of them could open it even when miss rumble jabbed the top and I told them to hand it to me and I opened it lolololol
Hmm today was such a dead day to be honest....
I didn't do homework when I got home....instead I tidied up my room. Also I kept dosing off at like 5ish.
Had a nice dinner and then more procrastination...
Now sleeeeep and soz for the crap post, goodnight ♡




At last I see the light

Ok so usually I don't really have wants like yeah... idk why but just like today my mum received a MYERone membership catalogue of makeup and omg (⊙‿⊙✿) I want it all~

1. 'Daisy' Eua De Toilette 50mL $79
2. Benefit Boutique They're Real! Mascara in Black $38
3. Benefit Browbar (like everything there ermergerd) 
4. Mimco Pouch $69.95
5. August Street bomber jacket *w*

Hello, today was another start to another week that will fly by me, I just know it and I'll regret wasting time again but I am just so distracted with particular things, it's just like omg I can't stahp.
Anyways, today was an okay day I guess, nothing really happened. I feel so useless in class. I don't feel smart at all, I just copy people's work..... ugh I'm so cbb these days.
Hmmm sport today was so sweaty like we played oztag in this damn weather, all sunny and that. Felt like I was melting..... I wish I could've played properly but yeah sweat drives me nuts, I can't take it.
And bloody Beryl got 1000 years by Christina Perri in my damn head and it stayed in my head for like the whole day. I couldn't stahp singing it!!!!
What else happened today???
Oh yeah, watched the start of Food Inc in food tech and it made me so sad...... Tony recommended me to watch it like last week or something and omg it's pretty graphic in some parts and we didn't even like finish it.
Also saw the new Sydenham station!!! It's so pretty now hehe and walking down the steps today was so so weird. It has been ages since we have done that!!! I couldn't shake the feels. And HAHA jeff reminded us all that time when Beryl fell down the sydenham steps lololololol.
But something sad is the hot chips shop is gone. The chips there used to save us when we were starving. Now, it's gone, 4evz.
Anyways, went home and I wasted a lot of time, I hate myself........... ugh
OK I'll be productive tmoz morning ok, goodnight!!♡





Charisma abundant










Wellllll, I used to have problems sleeping. I wouldn't call it insomnia but I was afraid of my dreams, so I would stay up really late and so I could knockout right away when I slept and be able to sleep really deep without the interference of disturbing dreams that would make me wake up either in tears or drenched cold sweat... yeah lololol ok moving on

Hello, soz for the lazy posts lately about my day. But it's because I always post them super duper late and I just can be bothered.
I slept at 3:30AM.....lollll and woke at 7:30AM-ish and then went for a jog at 7:45AM, felt surprisingly ok.
Went grocery shopping, blah blah the usual.
Went roselands again to eat lunch and it was yummy had a huge burger and damn I was so full after it.
And now it's 12:05AM and thinking about it is making me so hungry!!! Sad face.
Came home and did homework and that. My day was pretty boring haha. But yeah I don't really mind, I guess simple is good.
I'm going to watch some vlogs nao, goodnight!!!!! ♡




Captivate me so...

LOL CORINNE U R DEAD

LOOK AT THESE AVATARS I MADE ERMERGERD







Helllo, can I do dot points again??? Hehehehe soz but its 12:50 and ain't nobody got time for this.

• Slept at 2:30AM
• Woke up at 7:00AM
• Did homework yey
• Went somewhere
• Came back home
• Train woz so emptyyyyy
• Walked home in the light rain
• It was so refreshing
• Came home
• Downloaded PLL, Modern Family and the Carrie Diaries
• Ate pasta
• Watched things
• Did homework agenz
• Laughed at a curling iron video/gif thing for 10 minutes
• Ate dinner + daily watermelon
• OMG AT THIS SCARY RAIN!!!!!! 
• Was freaking out
• Typing in the dark is quite a challenge
• So it ends here

Something that I'm proud of.... lolllllllll nothing really to proud of goshies. LOL joking, I guess I'm proud of the person I have become. I like how clear my mind has come to be. I like how I have solutions to problems that I would have never had the ability to give 2 years ago. I'm proud of my choices and my mindset that I thought I would never achieve.
Another thing that I'm proud of is my last years blog, I'm pretty sure I've already posted about this but hehe but yeah, I'm so sad that I left it there, I kinda wish I didn't move blogs but I was in desperate need of a new start in terms of blogs.
Hmm what else am I proud of... I guess I'm proud of being able to cook now legitimately haha ok idk whatever this post was crap aswellllllll omg



Something that I always think "what if..." about is really just my future, I know I should just let things flow, but I'm always thinking negative what if's about my future. I've always had this morbid fear that I would waste my life as I got older and have all these regrets when I'm a elderly person.
I always think "what if my future children become criminals" or "have a bad life" or "if I might die young" idk I have a lot of worries but I usually don't have these thoughts anymore. I don't think these thoughts are necessary. But yeah idkkkkk stupid ass post, going to do the next challenge.



Hello, today was a friday but didn't feel like one.. weird huh.
I'm just going to do dot points today because I am being lazy and its 1:30AM right now, ok here goes:

• Got a PE assignment 
• Fell down the stairs and landed on my knees
• Expected it to rain but didn't 
• Made butter chicken in cooking with lisa
• Saw a cute dog that looked so funny 
• Why is there a white grey hound at our school all the time now???
• Saw Rachel Rutt on our way walking to sydenham station, she's looked so prettty omg
• Idk what to write
• Nothing really happened
• Train ride was funny 
• Walk home was hell
• I'm just going to end it here.....

My horoscope is Scorpio, and I really think I am a true scorpio. Like every personality trait that I read about scorpio, I think about it and it fits with me. A lot of the horoscope pages, I'm always like omg that is so me.













Hello!! Today was swimming carnival for tempe hehe. Anyways, went to school earlier than usual and then went to class to get names marked off then headed on a bus. First we went there and it was just like some of us sitting there, then I leave for a bit and come back...... AND EVERYONE WAS THERE... and I was like whut. That place was ours and a few other people's only like in previous years. I felt so flustered.
Anyways I did not take many photos which is sad.





Omg perfect that I am able to do this one today, cos today it was the swimming carnival for my school hehe. Ok so what I wore was really simple.

• White Lonsdale top with red print
• High waisted Levi's shorts
• Rabens
• Cat ears

• Bra
• Undies
• White socks

Oh dear this topic.

1. Joseph Gordon-Levitt
2. Ezra Miller
3. Jay Park
4. Austin Butler
5. Avan Jogia

Oh my god, I was just about to sleep when I realised that I did not daily blog for today like what the hell, how could I have forgotten?!?! Anyways, hello!!
Today's weather was being crazy. I liked today actually. Avoided so much homework checking, made me feel very relieved and with the thought of no school tomorrow just made it better.
We watched the Martin Luther King Jr. speech in English and I teared a little. And I cannot believe that Greg had never heard of it before.... what the hell. It's so famous....
Anyways maths is getting a bit confusing and ugh. I forgot all the 2 unit maths work we did at the end of year 9. I need to revise and do the homework.. Also need to catch up on subjects.........
Also I need to get my laptop checked and fixed because having nothing working is such a hassle.
My last period was PE and we played volleyball, badminton and table tennis. Table tennis was so fun but such a mistake because I was sweating so bad!! And I had to take off my tie. It was so funny to me because we were all like taking off clothing items as we played on and I was like "omg we are all going to be naked by the end of this" LOOOOL
I am so brown now like omg I stood next to my mum today and I looked so dark compared to her, damn this sunny weather.
Hope swimming carnival will be good. Goodnight!! ♡





All the time

So I don't even know what this is one is asking for but I'm assuming it is asking about my family and it's members??? Idk.
Ok so first of all, I am an only child of my mum and dad who both have a brother. My mum's brother is younger than her and my dad's brother is older than him by 23 months.
My uncle (dad's brother) was previously married and had a daughter by the name of Mickey lolol and yeah, I haven't seen her for a decade, none of us have. Neither have we seen her mother. It's this family drama thing that I rather not elaborate on. My uncle remarried and now resides in Brisbane.
My other uncle still lives in China, he was also previously married but his ex wife wasn't likeable and so that ended. He remarried early last year and I was there for the wedding dinner in Shanghai that Chinese people have lol. She's nice cos she bought me lashes and eyelid tape lolllllll. Though my mandarin is terrible and I can't speak to her too well.
My mum's parents are chillin' in Shanghai lollll and I lub them hehehe. Hopefully they can come visit this year.
My dad's parents; My grandpa passed away .. and my grandma resides in Shanghai for like 6 months of the year and the other 6 months in Brisbane/Sydney Australia.

My dad's side of the family has always been in the fashion industry (although my grandma was a highschool mathematics teacher for a while but then was in the fashion industry for the rest of her career). When I was small, I didn't need to buy clothes, I wore all the samples. If I were to do fashion, it wouldn't be hard because my dad has alot of knowledge on fashion hahah isn't that weird!!
My mum's family has always been in politics/government workers. My great grandfather was a quartermaster general and right now he is buried in a war memorial which is pretty amazing. My grandpa was a politician. My mum's uncle was a politician as well. And yeah my grandma was in the chinese equivalent of defence force army??? Idk forgot the actual name of it but she was related to military as well. She ended up being a doctor though.
My mum was a doctor in china and my dad a business man lolol, so I would've been pretty high class if I was to be born in china and that.
Anyways another further thing is that I have no 1st cousins, well one, but she doesn't count anymore. Isn't that weird..... But yeah my family is really small..
OK I bet no-one was bothered to read that///

1. Talk to me - George Nozuka
2. Cameo Lover - Kimbra
3. Tomorrowland 2012 (YouTube)
4. Breakfast in bed - Jori King
5. Love ya - SS501
6. Twenty Eight - The Weeknd
7. I'm lost without you (Electro)
8. Emily Browning - Asleep (Suckerpunch)
9. Paint - Travis Garland ft. Jojo
10. Lighters - Eminem ft. Bruno Mars

I think education is very important. I know a lot of people think that finishing high school and getting a degree is something that society has set us up with so then we can have a job and then we have children and the cycle goes on.. I guess it is important that society operates that way. But education is not just about your job. It's more about the knowledge gained. I know people sit in maths and think 'how in hell am i going to use this' or 'wth i never buy 30 watermelons' but its the problem solving and algebra in maths that exercise your mind to be able to apply things to actual solve problems. With your mind active that way, you can also be smart in life.
The things you learn in school aren't useless even if you think they are. The things we learn about require us to memorise, write responses to questions, compile notes, do presentations, engage in group work and etc.
These are all life skills.
So yes, education is very important, in order for an easy life ahead.

Hello, today was an aight day, wasn't anything too special. Just work here and there. I couldn't bring myself to write in my new school diary so I made shelley do it for me HAHA. Anyways beryl bore gifts with her today and she gave me lashes yay. On my road to be a lash hoarder srsly.
Today it rained out of nowhere but I guess it was pretty humid beforehand but omg it was just like whoosh and all this rain pounded down. Omg today was so gay actually now that I think about it, it wasn't an exciting day...... English was a disaster for me. I don't why suddenly I lost confidence in public speaking, usually I am great lolol well that made me look cocky.. but seriously today i was so bad that i cried. I need to stop crying in public, embarrassing~
Ms Di Ramio was like "are u ok" to me and then dominic answers out of nowhere "yeah, I'm fine" LOOOOL, idk I think it was him but yeah. M8, that woz 4 me.
Art was funny cos it was with corinne. I never call her cornz anymore, that phase is over!!!
Powerwalked to station and made the train, phewfy. And then yeah, normal routine when I got home.
I need to sleep in like 8 minutes cos it's this experiment I am trying out.
Ok goodnight babies ♡




It's given.




WHAT I ATE:
Breakfast: Fried rice with egg w/Chinese sausage and orange juice
Recess: A piece of fried chicken (lolllll) and an apple
Lunch: Half a slouvaki roll (The rest I took home)

THE FUTURE:
Dinner: Idk yet, probz rice and side dishes + soup
After dinner fruit: Watermelon




I basically recounted my day in that post in the 30 day challenge. I really do hope to finish this damn challenge unlike all those old ones on my old blogs that I never completed.....
Anyways today was a pretty okay day.... idk nothing really happened.
I felt kind of out of it today. I don't even know why I talk. The things I say to my friends don't make sense most of the time......
I was really bummed out in PE today though. I felt so useless. I don't know why I make myself look so bad when playing volleyball when I'm actually pretty good at it... I think the different classes and different faces threw me off my game idk.
I JUST WANT TO SLEEP OK
Goodnight lololol ♡




Or you can keep them and rot.

I haven't done any homework, crap.







Welllll I'm really not too big of a fan of mainstream music but I don't mind it, like I will gladly listen to it in the car on the way somewhere but you wouldn't find it in my iTunes  So I guess I tolerate it. But I really don't understand people who are like super anti-mainstream and that. Like come on!!! Everyone has their music tastes........ And knowing music that is really un-mainstream doesn't make you someone who is superior to others. Just because some people like listening to Lil-Wayne with lyrics like "Almost drowned in the pussy, so I swam to her butt" yeah that's weird but some people like that shiz. Then there's Lana Del Rey with beautiful lyrics about somewhat more important issues rather than sex and that.. But don't be some mainstream music hater that goes and writes hateful comments on YouTube videos that play the mainstream music and judge people if they listen/sing mainstream music. There are many many people with different tastes in this world so you listen to what you enjoy and they will too... Don't h8 on each other m8.




Ok but then my daily post will be bland.... oh wells, here I go:

Hello, my mum let me sleep in until 7:30AM today, omg heaven then went exercising in my new shoes and I am so foreign to proper running shoes, so used to wearing rabens for like everything, but they are so bad for my feet so my mum is trying to make me wear them less or not at all.
Anyways ate left over pasta from last night for breakfast and it was gooood, since all the flavours soaked into the pasta more. After breakfast, went grocery shopping. Grocery shopping is actually quite fun to me, used to be such a chore. But now that I cook dinner twice a week, I'm there to pick ingredients so yeah.
So I did all the carrying of the groceries up the stairs, watermelons, milk and all that heavy stuff. My mum didn't even help me omg. But I guess I didn't mind too much.
After putting everything away, we decided to have nandos for lunch... yeah it was my first time lolllll how sad. Anyways we had no idea what to order or how to. It was all stuttering and a mess... but in the end we had half a chicken (HOT) and peri peri chips on the side and we shared cos it was a lot.
The "hot" wasn't even hot wth lollllll going to eat extra hot next time. There wasn't a real satisfying burn......
Anyways my mum realised that I could take chilli on and she was full excited discussing all the chilli foods she's wanted to go to try at restaurants but never did because my dad doesn't eat chilli. Anyways had yogurberry..... And I figured out how to make the yogurt look pretty with the swirl and pointy part on top hehe yay!!
Then went home after that. You know what my mum told me that she picked up on? She said that she saw that whenever I see cats or dogs, a particular laugh comes out lolol. And she was imitating me, omg didn't even realised I did it and then I realised I did indeed do so, but omggggg why not??? they look so funny whilst cute.
Came home and then did homework, and I am still not finished and haven't read How to kill a mockingbird or rewritten my speech..... tmrw morning then I guess....
Ok, I'm going to catch some z's, goodnight ♡




Again and again and again
I will never get sick of it



That's an easy question but hard because I always seem to be cheating on my old favourites with new favourites, usually the book that was read prior are the ones that are my love. So I guess I would have to say "The fault in my stars" by John Green. It's so perfect. It encapsulates all that is important, how dreams do get fulfilled even when you're in hardly capable and how realities will always be realities. You just have to accept them, no matter how sadness will cripple you. And how even the most devastating choices, are worth it.



Something I definitely feel strongly about is why the plumbing in my unit is forever unfixable!!!! lollll just kidding, um... wow I just thought about this for quite a while and I can't pinpoint what things in life piss me off more lolll....
I think i have too many feels about life lolol, like I feel strongly for way too many things, I think I will just skip writing in detail about this one because I'm sure posts/rants of things that I feel strongly about will be on this blog when relevant to my situation.
So yah, not even going to do these in day order lolllll...

Hmmm to be honest, I think it's pretty easy to win my heart lololol. But I don't know exactly what. Like I don't know!!!
Okay I will just try my best.....

1. If you take care of me really well
2. Able to make me laugh when I'm mad (by the way, that one takes effort)
3. To have wit but not to outwit me.
4. If you trust me with things you wouldn't for others
5. Positivity??? 

• People who have oily and dandruff infested hair
• People who have thick yellow toe nails
• People that smell like an asshole
• People who burp meaty smells
• People that wear sneakers without socks
• People with dirty finger nails
• People who still follow the 5 second rule
• People who handle dead insects with guts and all, calmly.
• People with head lice
• People who inhale their own snot/mucus
• People who publicly pick their nose
• People who wear full body Skins on its own (NO!!!!!)
• People that don't shower properly
• People who don't shower at all
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• Maggots

Hello!!! I went for a walk instead today and I sweated almost just as much as jogging so that's good...right? Also I think waking up earlier has improved my face idk looks a teeny bit thinner. I hope to lose the double chin lolol. Anyways, spent my morning well. Went to get my shoes exchanged for a smaller size and now it's all good. Then came home and caught up with all my tv shows which right now is only 3 shows, the other 3 I am not bothered.
I ate veal tortellini and it was so nice with the peri peri sauce, ermergerd. I want to put chilli on all my foods. But then I'd get nigga lipsss lollll.
Anyways I really didn't do much today. I shall accomplish more tomorrow in terms of work.
Today I cooked dinner for my parents and I. Made wholemeal pasta and my parents enjoyed it I guess.
And after dinner, started to watch lion king and shrek simultaneously and that was tiring so I settled on Shrek  4 and it was so funny omg hahaha "do the roar".
And the Ogre chef had garlic bulbs infused in his beard lolol omg what were they thinking to put that there HAHAHA.
Then watched parts of How to Your Dragon and toothless is sho cute omg he's the cutest, i just can't contain how cute he is. And the ending was so happy, just what I like.
Anyways, I'm going to watch a few vlogs then sleeeeeep, cos my eyes are starting to burrrrrn.
OK goodnight, ♡




Why are you my remedy?

Hello, today was an easy day. I didn't feel too annoyed in the classes I had so that was good hehe. It rained out of nowhere after our parachute testing science class. Thank god the sky had threw it's tantrum early and not in the afternoon, didn't bring a jumper or umbrella. For some reason I was about to write "rainbow" in place of umbrella lolol wth. Anyways, the rest of the day was pretty chill. Also something embarrassing that happened to me, I went up to thucai after period one thinking it was recess lololol I am so retarded.
Miss tang was such a child today when she spotted up with parachutes, she was like can I throw it off the building??????? And we were all like running outside to see.
Anyways, had the real recess haha and ate an apple.

PDHPE was so boring, felt asleep multiple times and like tri was already dreaming, saw him unmoved from the finished video, the turned on light and even Ms O'Brien voice lolllll.
After we had English and omg Ms Di Ramio's criticism is good but scary lolol, so glad we didn't do it today though. Omg I need to start How to Kill a Mockingbird, tmoz for sure.
Lunch was stressful a little, because I was starving but the line was so big, so then I asked Jeff for help but then Tony.H helped me, and I was so grateful. I realise how sharing is so second nature to me now, I don't even pause to think about germs or anything. I used to be such a germaphobe. Is that even a word???
Anyways, had Commerce and I didn't finish my work lolol and Ms Riad had all these burns on her arm from a 300 degree curling iron, omg I felt so bad for her.

Food tech prac was the last class we had for the day and we decorated our cakes. Mine turned out pretty good I guess. I liked it, I should've ate it, but no-one did... so I was like ok, I'm chucking it. Felt so bad, wasting food... And OMG daniel is so funny. Never talked to him before this day and omg HAHAHAHA. He was full like "I feel like we're on masterchef" and he was full freaking out "I think I put on too much" for like every single ingredient!!!! And then he went to wash his plate and then we kept asking me what "SAUCE" to use for the sponge. SAUCE!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA. DANIEL U MEAN DISHWASHING LIQUID RIGHT??????? HAHAHAHAHA LOLLLLL omg ok, funny guy.
Anyways walked to station with beryl and corinne and it was funny cos I remember laughing... Oh and told corinne about my stories of me running into poles, fun lol.
Did a lot of work tonight so proud of myself, getting my shiz together yo.
OK I'm tired azzzzz, goodnight ♡





We go.







I treat you cold. Why? Because I want you to feel what they feel. When all a person wants is company, and you stop them in their tracks. Yeah well, I will never let you know me. I will torture you with a cold shoulder and see how you like it. Because no-one has ever said no to you, right?

Hello, and Happy Valentines Day!!!!! Hope you all received some love in any form. Today started off well I suppose, excitement in the air and that. With year 12's sending in roses and all that jazz. But the day slowly deflated and it was evident on everyone's faces and their posture.
I finally got my srp idea confirmed and also filled out the sheet of signatures, finally.
The music that played today on the loud speakers, the song dedications, really killed my mood.
I got 2 roses today though lolol...
I really have nothing much to say, but that I am so behind on homework and my sleeping patterns are worsening again.
I'm tired. Goodnight ♡





Makes me feel like I can't live without you - Rihanna (Stay)

"Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving
Cause when you never see the light it's hard to know which one of us is caving"
- Stay, Rihanna.

Worst valentines day ever lollllllllll

Hello, today I felt annoyed for the majority of the time. People are starting to get on my nerves. I guess I just won't mind those people too much tomorrow.
I really don't want to recount today because it was ordinary and annoying so what's the point in that?
Ugh I just... idk, I am so irritated at myself.
And right now I want to cry.
Because it was that kind of day.
Goodnight  ♡




Stable grounds all the time.

Hello, today was a gloomy day, i like. Waking up early is so easy for me now. But I guess I sleep way earlier than I used to. I sleep at 12:00AM nowadays compared to sleeping at 2:00-3:00AM. I still yawn alot and sleep in the car on the way to school though. I can't sleep at 10 though, I feel like I'm wasting time where I could be doing something productive or relatively productive lolol.
Anyways arrived at school just on time and for cooking, made some crap ass cake with homebrand cake mix, o m g i rather not even cook.
Had geography in P24, which is at the primary school so zzzz why is our school so small. There was this mosquito terrorising us and it was on me and then it flew away, while we were searching the skies, dennis spots a corncob on the pipe on the ceiling lollllll wth.
Anyways recess, I ate grapes, yum~ and I forgot what else really.
Had science after and I have never felt so frustrated while doing an experiement, I mean I was on the brink of human combustion. We had to freaking cut a small ass straw into 8 pieces (!!!) and then he suggested we make our own damned double sided tape which killed me because I have long nails at the moment and also the sticky tape kept sticking to ME and not the straw tip, I had mini rolled up sticky tapes all over my hands, in my hair and on my skirt like omg I wanted to kill someone. WHY. And then we realised we didn't need to do it at all, we could've just stuck it on like you would normally do. I was so pissed by then. U G H.
Lunch, just ate and talked, not much happened that is worth recounting except for my toilet trip. I was peeing yeah? Well obviously that would make a noise and some smart ass year 8 girl with her friend start commenting on how they hear pissing UM hello is this not a toilet??? What do you want to hear huh. Me playing a bloody xylophone???
Anyways went to library for english and I feel like the least productive person in my group but I did do my work already, just it was at home. I'm the only one who is not in possession of a school laptop. I cbb giving it to the mexican guy to fix it, zzz.
Last class was art and it was frustrating because seriously, no-one wants the ceramics like ermergerd, want to smash it already, it's so ugly.
Anyways walked to station super fast and I thought the train came early but really phone's time was wrong, so yeah, but we still made it, luckily.
Walking home is the worst part of the day imo. I hate it.
Got home, ate, showered, did homework, youtubed and twittered.
Dinner was okay, ate this extremely bitter vegetable :-(
Made a mango, banana and apple smoothie + ate watermelon. Yum~
And now I am currently doing maths homework, and I feel tired already. I want to sleep but no, it's too early, only 9:40PM...
Ok anyways, goodnight ♡





When you get back to where you're from






Oh my god, I am fangirling.

Invite a psycho-killer inside.

When I have children I want the girl to be named Bambi and the boy named Xavier like o m g, my dream children's names.






HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & hello.
According to chinese sayings and that, on the 1st day of the new year you cannot be forcibly woken up, and that you have to wake up naturally or the consequences would be that you would be at the beck and call of everyone all year and that means you will have no control for the rest of the year. Also you can't work, like don't put effort into anything but one thing you can do on the chinese new years day is spend mulla HAHA.
Anyways got my red pocket money and got a kiss each from my parents on the cheek lolol, why did I just share that with you.
Also we had to say the happy new year and that to relatives overseas and o m g, i hate doing it each year, never know what to say, it is so awkward. It's like "oh hi it's Chinese new year, we care about you again" lollllll
So after all the cringe phone calls, we went grocery shopping and I liked how things looked on the conveyor belt today at woolworths, everything we got looked really healthy and nice. And had a slurpee cos damn it was hot. Had mango and coke flavour~
Anyways went home and unpacked groceries. Then headed out for Roselands to pay foot locker a visit. Didn't find the running shoes I wanted so we ate there at the food court and damn............. the food was bangin'. We had a new york burger which I  shared with my mum also came with chunky fries, also bought 2 fishcakes, 3 specialty sushi things (freaking so yum), Italian BMT from subway and errrmergerd it was delish.
Today was the family cheat day hahaha. We've refrained from bad foods for a while now. But since it was CNY, we let go a bit. And omg when I was eating the burger I felt like Dannie Riel when she takes a bite of those huge tower burgers. Well that's what I had today and omg...
Anyways went to hurstville foot lockers and I found the runners I wanted, yeyyyy. They look big... hate having big feet... why can't I be size 6/7???? Why 8. I mean I fit 7 but my foot is wide-ish so yeah, sad life.
Anyways enuf on that. Got new flats for school, cos my old ones hurt my feet and they suffered on that crazy raining day. Also got 625 cotton buds HAHA for $2.
Anyways went home after dat and just chilled when I should've been more productive, zzzz.
I re-painted my nails and read a little.. then made quesadillas and they were yummerzzz. I love cooking at home.
Hmm and then spent the rest of the night doing nothing productive.
I will be productive now, so goodnight ♡




Be.



My singing voice at home doesn't sound bad to me lolol but what if it's actually super bad? LOOOOL




Hello omg I was about to write "To:" as my starting word lolol wth am I writing a card or something??? Anyways slept late last night so waking up this morning wasn't the most pleasant thing. Went for a run and yeah, don't know why I mentioned it when I told myself I wouldn't anymore but I know today's post will be boring so I wanted to write a little more.
Anyways I guess today's main focus is that today is Chinese New Year Eve hehehe, it used to be such a fun thing to me but now that my ox year went by in 2009, it isn't that exciting anymore. Though last year it was fun because I was in Shanghai, China celebrating it. So many firecrackers and fireworks that night, yet I still slept like a baby. Firecrackers are scary like omg one went off like 5m away from me and the impact was like woah, felt like I got shot but not really LOOOL well obviously not really but you know what i mean.
Ok enuf about cny 2012. So basically the whole day I did homework and caught up on YouTube videos. I am so happy to know that Emily, Nicky and Greg are PVP fans as well hehehe. Anyways also downloaded the episodes of the tv shows that I need catching up on. Idk why I didn't get around to watching it. Also watched the last episode of Victorious, sad life. It wasn't even that good, i expected like a 40 minute finale episode....WHY LEAVE ME SO UNSATISFIED GRRRR. But yeah guna start watching Sam and Cat.
I also tidied my room today and already it is slightly getting messy again, oh no~
Today I am not blogging chronological like I usually do, it's more my train of thought today lolol.
Anyways had a yummy chinese new year dinner hehe, took some pictures but they don't look so great so just imagine something chinese and it being scrumptious.
Made my mum a Sunkist spider drink. NOT literally spiders in the drink but you know when you put icecream in carbonated drinks; they froth up? Well with some cups they leave a spiderweb like pattern when the froth has been and that's why it's called a spider drink. LOL ok don't even know why I had to explain.
Anyways yeah HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & goodnight ♡





Then rip the brakes out of my car




Goal for next week: Finish all homework by friday night.

Hello, today was a rather exhausting day to be honest. I am so tired right now from emotional stress. The school part wasn't so bad though some parts of the day, wanted to smash my head in a car door.
Had an interesting conversation with year 9s and that. Also at recess, tracked down the rose people and helped Emily write the list of people for a certain someone. I am so glad we found the rose people.
Hmm the weather was not ideal for me today and my complexion is darkening, not good.
Also my homework pile is getting larger and I hate myself for that so much. Like why....
A lot of other things are stressing the helll out of me. But yeah don't want to talk about it.
I need to sleep or tmrw I will die.
Goodnight ♡




It simply reveals you.

Hello.... my excitement for school is dying down which is not good because I dread school now and wish I felt monotone but I don't. I don't know what I want.
Anyways, today had commerce first again. The birds outside my balcony right now are so noisy and I can't concentrate ugh. Also I am falling behind on homework again, I have no motivation to be honest, before I sort of did but now I just need a push... don't know from who or how but I just feel I need one.
After commerce, had science and we went over the SRP and my mind feels a hella lot clearer, still haven't done my background information ugh. Do it on the weekend I guess.
Umm then had recess and yeah... ate grapes and looked at the names on the houses sheets and talked to people...
Had geography with that short teacher again, don't even know her name lol.. but yeah, I got to read a whole sheet today hehehe. Hmmm then had art and my idea got accepted and I am happy hehehe. It's going to be an installation!! How fun sounding.
Lunch was after and yeah... i forgot what happened.
Then had history with cambridge and yahhhh. After history, our last period was Maths and me and beryl had an interesting conversation about china, peeing in public when we were small and other stuff LOL.
Walked to station alone, lol omg. Trained with emily and crew + greg haha and then yeah.
Normal arvo nothing much happened. Then drama happened and omg.
Anyways I'm excited to go to school tmoz lolol goodnight ♡




I just know better

I have problems with taking chances. I'm always too late...

People who walk right into me at school and people who don't walk to the left....
People who elbow me in the canteen.
People who have one strap of their bag limp on one shoulder or hanging off and not fixing it.
People who have the worst conversations and I hear them.
People who don't know which direction to take and make it look like I'm dancing with them
People who are 12 and tongue kiss at school.
People who wear bumbags and a backpack together
People who bring a guitar belonging to the music room around the school like they are john mayer.
People who walk at snail pace
People who have extreme dandruff
People who dye their hair blue and think its ok
People who use suitcase bags.
People who walk with their chest out like its inflated
People who take our sitting spot
People who think they are "independent black women who don't need no men"
People who read like retards
People who do the cups song from pitch perfect i will kill u





Hello. Once again I will start writing early so yeah I can publish it and go to sleep, no problem.
Anyways today started off as usual, I'm not going to repeat my morning routine anymore unless something out of the ordinary happens, so just assume I did my normal exercise and that. Anyways got to school kinda late and my first class was commerce so I just went there straight there. I waited there alone and then lisa came.
Class was alright idk, it was just work and that. Anyways after commerce I had art and like yeah, still didn't get to speak to Miss Rumble about my idea, yeah wth. Left my art book there. Funny story in art lolol, we were talking about dreams and michelle had one about her mowing a lawn LOL and dominic had one where he had a trail of blood behind him and someone in front of him was eating it and yeah well those weren't funny but the one Julie included was so funny i d k why.
She was like:
"I was in Mario's world. Everyone was looking for Mario and asking me where he was. Then I went into a room full of mirrors and I looked and I was mario" HAHAHAHA WTH LOOOOOOL and she full said it with her asian fobby accent. AND IF SHE WAS MARIO WHY WERE THEY ASKING HER WHERE HE WAS??!!?! HAHAHA ok I can't get over it but yeah LOL.
Recess was aight. Don't even remember what happened. I think I ate grapes... yeah.
After recess, had Cambridge for History and yeah. We just did more on the cold war and that. And he was confused about why we didn't have colour pencils. Yeah sorry, gave up bringing those in year 7 m8.
Anyways after that, we had English and I no longer look forward to English, because we do work now lolol. And getting an A will most likely be harder. We did research for our American 1930s topics (ours was American Politics) and yeah. Someone in my group is scaring me lolol y so perfect.
Lunch was next, yey. Canteen lady was annoying and so was the canteen line. Ugh. Ran away at lunch cos lol.
After a dull lunch, had maths and I answered 2 questions correctly when I volunteered, thank the lord no mistakes this time. And last was PE and I was pissed slightly that I brought uniform. Had a conversation about HSC. Like omg we talk about that daily now. I'm scared.
Walked to the station with Beryl and yeah.
Train with lisa and anna.
Walked home... showered. Read some and then accidentally fell asleep and my book fell out of my hand. Now I am doing maths homework yey.
I'll leave you with this reasonable sized post, goodnight ♡




If you get hurt in this world - Augustus Waters







The process of it all tires me. I give up.

Hello, today I am starting my blogpost early, it is 6:53PM right now and yeah, I usually start at 11:20PM or something and I want to finish it so I can get it out of the way and right now I really have no desire to do homework when I really should be. I wish I had Corinne's good habits.
Anyways today I woke up as usual but a little later, I woke at 6:40AM and yeah usually I wake at 6:15AM but that was because my dad woke late and he is usually the person who initiates all the wakeups. Yeah anyways, jogged, showered, did homework, ate breakfast, got dressed and headed to school. Got to school at a reasonable time I guess. Talked for a bit while I was playing candy crush. I love candy crush though it irritates me, and so does temple run 2, like wth so ugly.
Anyways first class was food tech with Miss Rumble demonstrated poached and scrambled eggs.... what a crappy prac for friday like wth.
So after cooking, it was geo and we were in P24... not a pleasant room, so cramped.
And then yeah, went back to tempe and had recess. I ate an apple and a chocolate from feli that was given to her by louis. Also, got my asos bag heheh yayyy.
After recess me and lisa got captured by ms white and had to help ms mcdonald or something?? That office lady? I think that's her name idk.
Then I had science and we discussed the SRP and I'm glad we don't have Mr Miller anymore because for some reason he hates like explaining or something. Mr Jennings on the other hand is planning to explain every aspect of the SRP and I am so happy he is doing that, because I need guidance in science!!!
And I was so excited during class just thinking that lunch was after hahah omg easily excited and amused when I'm in the right mood heheh.
Lunch was aightttt, got my train pass hehehe and I didn't need to wait long which is very odd. Every year it is massive lines.
After lunchhh I had english and we got this research task about American history. No books in the library catered for American history though, sad life.
So after it was Art and this was the class I was excited about but then it was such a waste of time.....
And lord, do I hate Tuesdays, I h8 running to catch a train.
Was all sweaty and shiz and I was alone. But then thucai appeared and lisa was being cute hehe with her significant other downstairs on the train LOL.
ANYWAYS walked home feeling flustered as. Got home & showered. Then I wasted time hmm..
Anyways I plan to get into better habits by tmrw.
I will sign off from here, even though I am not sleeping yet. So goodnight!! ♡




To a certain kind of sadness

I don’t know if I am dooming myself or helping myself. Because really right now I have the choice to go the run away and not fall. I clearly need it, though I am undoubtedly terrified.


Yeah idk.

Hello!! Today started off alright. Jogged, showered, did homework, eat breakfast and all dat. Came to school late today and accidentally sat in the year 12 section and realised my year was only like 5 metres away like o m g. And so many damned announcements today like oh my lord, stahp.
Anyways sport we did austag practice games? Idk it was fun imo. And I never knew I could catch a football!!! Yeyyy.
Changing was the hardest task of today like ermergerd, it was so hot as well.
Ate an apple at recess and talked.
Then had science which was particularly hard for me to keep up today. Mr Jennings explained things way too fast. Then had maths and that wasn't too bad and o...m g......... I just realised I forgot to do my maths homework, fml and it's 11:48 right now omg killl me :-(
Oh wells do it in the morning.
Anywaysss then it was lunch, no different to recess just different food eaten.
Then, it was english and thank the lord I wasn't chosen lolol but might be next lesson. Got the book, to kill a mocking bird. I wanted to read it but then...me, shelley, nicky and emily couldn't concentrate and kept laughing about random things. Abe saved our class from Di Ramio..... lolol.
Hmmm had food tech after and it was boring cos didn't do much. Yeah.... I don't like my mondays.
Yeah it was really bland and I do not wish to recite anymore of it.
I am looking forward to tomorrow. Goodnight. ♡




You are the secret ingredient.

Omg..... the idea I have for art is pretty disturbing, I hope Miss Rumble will let me. LOL while researching I scared myself at how many ideas I actually came up with omg lolololllll. I'm clearly a serial killer in the making.

omg u suk


Hello... let me just forewarn you that this is a very boring post. Anyways this morning I was so not in the mood to wake up and do anything, I slept later than 12:00AM so getting up at 6:00AM was definitely a challenge. It was so damn cold this morning, felt like winter air. Summer r u ok.
The air sliced through my lungs and it was so much harder to run. But I made it in the end and then went for walk. Anyways got home and some noodles for breakfast. And then tried to get dressed for grocery shopping but every outfit looked too dressy for a casual food buying trip. Ughsfbsdhfdsfn took me like 45 minutes lol, I never take that long and yet today I did o_o
Anyways headed out and yeah..... It was so colddddd once again.
Came home, packed things away. We were meant to go out but cbb so me and my mum made sushi. She stuffed the sushi up like omg, she doesn't press it properly.
Anyways I spent the rest of the day doing homework and whatnot. My parents went out for a walk without me lol sad life. Oh wells, I continued with homework...........
Then had dinner... and went on youtube.. yeah it's not that nothing happened today, it's just I have no words to describe it. Ok that makes it sound amazing but I literally just have no words to explain it.
Yeah I am making no sense. I need to sleep or I'll die tmrw, ugh sport in the morning, however looking foward to assembly for some reason lolol.
Yeah ok, sorry for boring post omg.
Writing and creative sector of my mind ain't working. Yeah goodnight. ♡




Of hope.




This is my favourite ariana grande/cat valentine moment from Victorious lolol

Hello!!! Today I woke up earlyyyy and exercised as per usual. Andddd yeah, didn't sweat as much because it was too cold to. So yeah, watched some Phineas and Phurb and it was funny today, forgot what was funny though lolol. Anywaysssss spent my morning welll I guess and then got home. Made my dad some food. I didn't eat much and I wasn't even hungry. Caught up with PLL and omg it was sad, cried. Then... I finished watching episode 3 of carrie diaries because I wasn't able to finish it last time. Hmmmm what else did i do... I tumblred? OMG i forgot to watch the encore of MKR, freaking hellllll h8 myself.
I cooked dinner today, made my parents a bolognse with wholemeal pasta and omg at first I was skeptical because with it plain and flavourless, wholemeal pasta tasted like cardboard with hair in it but then it tasted so much nice with the pasta sauce with beef mince, onion and mushrooms. It was actually not bad and yeahhhhhh hehehe, chef lucy!!!!
Ummmm yeah didn't do much to be honest, this was a boring Saturday.
And all people were posting and tweeting and complaining about was not being at SHM. Like stahp!!!
Andddd my room is a mess, again. Zzzzzzz.
Yeah I'm not going to write anymore for today, goodnight!!! ♡





Is just different than yours.




Falling down has to be one of the most embarrassing things ever. I swearrrrr. I have fallen down so many times or hurt myself in public and I have to laugh and walk it off. When really I want to curse at the sky while fighting the burn in my cheeks.
Also note to myself, stop tripping over everything.




Hello, today was the second day of school and also the last school day of the week. Thank the lord for that huh. Anyways I couldn't wake up as easily as previous days for some reason. I felt like a zombie during my jog. Showered and did maths homework that I didn't finish. My mum made me teriyaki chicken and sesame flavouring noodles and soup and some vegetable, didn't finish it, too much.
Mum sent me to school saying it was going to rain and shiz and I was like you trippin ma, there ain't gun be any rain. (Later you will find out how wrong I was). So got to school to meet a frantic Corinne and gave me peri peri mayo hahah ok that was random but she really did. Anyways the rest of the group came and we talked a bit. And off to classes we went. First period... was........ Science??? Yeah I'm pretty sure. I like Mr Jennings now, he used to annoy the crap out of me in year 8. But he's ok now, doesn't ramble as much as he used to.
Then we had maths and yeah that wasn't too bad. Then had recesss and just talked and I ate my grapes and some of anna's tuna and cracker thing. Had... pdhpe with Miss O'brien and she is such a cute teacher!! And then we had Miss Di Ramio, yeah idk about her. She is like one of those teachers who are able to silence classes just by talking. Anyways after that drowning class, I went to buy lunch and man do I still hate the canteen line.
Had commerce after lunch with Lisa and then FT with her as well hehehe. Omg I feel out of place though. So after food tech, we walked out and it was dark as hellllllll man, I was like "end of the world???" and then we were walking normally then a little droplet hit each of us (lisa, corinne and I) and OH MY GOD. It came down like never before. We full ran. And I found michael tan with an umbrella. And he was like "It's always either you have one or I have one." We have a history of umbrella sharing LOOOL. Anyways at a point I said bye to michael and made the mistake of running through rain. I. Got. Soaked. Head to freaking toe. Our shoes were squishy and we looked like wet dogs.
ANNA WAS PERFECTLY DRY WTH And so many other people. Also our blouses were see through. -_-
And on the train, my eyebrows wouldn't dry. And then I got picked up by my dad. And went home and omg i left my iPhone on my lap and forgot and when I walked out, the iPhone fell into the moving water next the kurb LIKE OMG WTH SO PISSED AT MYSELFFFFFF. I put it in rice, hopefully it doesn't die. :-(((((
Anyways had a hot shower, ate some hot food and talked to people. And then slept, then cooked rice and made salmon avocado sushi and my mum came home and made a better spam musubi than me. A mum will always be a mum, a better cook.
Anyways did maths homework and facebooked.
I need to go sleep now or I will die. So goodnight!!!! ♡





We can experience is the mysterious - Albert Einstein