Hello
I realised today that I really need to get my shit together. Well I've realised this on several occasions but today? It hit me smack bang in the face.
You know, I just have to suffer a few years. A few years for something great or at least be able to take a few weights off my shoulders.
I'm in the wrong mind set. I mean, I get into good mind sets but then I lose it so fast. Something or someone (usually someone) comes along and pushes me right off the right track.
I need to get back on the track and dodge their pushes.
I feel like I'm trying, but I'm not. What I do everyday at school isn't trying. What I do everyday at home isn't trying. Right now, all I am, is lazy and a failure... And people can say I'm not a failure and how bad they are in comparison to me. The truth is, I will never compare myself to people lower than me. I only compare myself to people who are better than me. Who the fuck stands there and think they're amazing just by looking at the people below them? You feel amazing when you pass someone ahead of you.
So never say to me how worse off you are and tell me I'm better... It's fake encouragement.
Anyways sorry for that, I just needed it out of my system.
My Saturday was the usual. City rail buses are annoying, actually no, track work is annoying. I need to catch up on PLL, going to watch it right before I sleep. I'm starting my science assignment nao.
Be happy and goodnight ♡






You scream all the time, hah, touché

I give up on playing the cat and mouse game.

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Today had it's fair share of up and downs. We gave Ms Tang 3 lots of presents from lowest price to highest price. First a gift bag filled with lollies and a jar of macarons. 2nd was the scrapbook/massive card that we made for her with the contribution of everyone's baby photos, personal messages, printed photos and certain people's blood, sweat and tears. And lastly, a white gold + diamond cross necklace.
Ms cried of course and that made other people cry, but I held onto my tears and went downstairs to watch the dance that I thought was happening today but I guess not. And then me and Corinne went to get our reports, had a little conversation with Mr Bird.
Got people's school photos and gave it to them as well.
PDHPE was just us watching people's dances and then getting our results from the phone interview and we clapped and yay'ed everyone and for some reason Miss O'brien found it funny idk lolol
For period 4, we got our names marked off from Di Ramio and then went to eat Pizza and help Ms Tang distribute pizzas. I ate so much, 6 slices!!!! But they were thin crust???
It was nice, but then!!! there were like another column of boxes of pizza for fellowship and today, fellowship swarmed with people... Like woah. People who don't even usuallly come, came. And it's like zzz but then again I guess the more the people the better. But I felt like the whole day I was consumed and thrown about in throngs of people. The whole day I experienced being baked by body heat.
There was a teary speech from Ms Tang which made me tear up and yeah :-(
Commerce was a chill class, all we did was play hang man and celebrity heads.
Food tech was alright, got my report by the end of the class. And omg it's like my worst report... ever.
Anyways I'm tired, sleepy time.
Be happy and goodnight!! ♡






But why do I feel a pause?




I DIED HAHAHAHA




Hello
I caught the train this morning because I had to. Walked to school with Thucai.
Today I played the heads up game a total of 3 times or sessions haha. First was in Commerce, then at recess and lastly on the train back home. I think I'll be sick of it soon.
I feel like I talked to Irene for like the most part of today lolol but it was nice to catch up with her. We never really get to sit next to each other that often but since Beryl was not in class for like 2 periods and Irene's friends were late to class and stuff, she sat next to me and we talked.
I haven't done any of the practice English tasks that I'm meant to complete for Ms Di Ramio by tomorrow. I have too much on my plate. And thank god dance is over or else my head would have exploded already.
Had hotpot for dinner tonight and it was delicious but now I have the worst breath.....
Uhh Mufti Day tmr and the last day of T2. I don't know what I'm going to wear. Decisions, decisions.
It's 10:05PM, oh dear, I better get a move on.
Be happy and goodnight ♡






To watch them sink

Hello
Did commerce test today and it was alright, wasn't too hard I guess? I came on time for once and yeah. I finished the test at 9:15AM. It only took me 25 minutes like wth.
Art was interesting, talked about HSC subjects, ahh the stress of picking part of your future when in Year 10. Spent recess in art room.
History was whatevz. Irene invited me to go to Dennis' birthday party thing? And then after in English Emily said it was a private party and I couldn't go, lololol I felt SO cut but I understand. And on the topic of Dennis, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Even though already said it on facebook.
Lunch was so damn funny. We played Ellen DeGeneres game "Heads Up" and omg lololol. THE BEST GAME I SWEAR. We looked so stupid but omg so glad I ended up spending lunch that way. We took everything so literally. And sometimes we slipped out the word and it ended up so funny. It's so hard to describe but yeah funnest lunch I've had in a while.
Maths was after and I tried explaining to Beryl about the funny game but she didn't really understand lolol. We basically bludged and went on Ms Tang's facebook and we looked at her siblings. ALL SO SUCCESSFUL!!! And she has a nephew or grand nephew? Idk who is like super smart. AND MS TANG IS CAT PERSON YES!!!
And we planned something in the holidays with her, lol omg we're so dedicated to Ms Tang I swear.
PDHPE was boring, we just mucked around with a basketball.
The afternoon was depressing but then ok again.
I'm sleepy so I will sleep lol.
Be happy and goodnight ♡






Razor blade..

You guys should really check yourselves.



Nice way of treating your "friend" (。・_・。)


Hello
Rainy days, yay? I don't know how I feel about the rain anymore. Waking up in the morning yet again proved to be quite difficult. Every time I got out of bed I just wanted to run back and crawl in. Anyways, got to school late... and weirdly the office lady still doesn't recognise me...
Food tech was hella boring. Watched some stupid stream-cast of Jamie Oliver cooking "piri piri chicken"? Isn't it Peri? LOL
Geography was aight, looked at baby photos. Beryl was such a cutie when she was small!!!!
Science was interesting. Had a good conversation with Beryl and Irene. We gossiped like old ladies. I'm pretty sure people overheard us, oh wells.
English was okay. But Ms Di Ramio spoke for so long today that she made me sleepy. My head kept swiveling everywhere and my eyes wouldn't stay open. Ahh, always happens when teachers ramble on about something. It just puts me right to sleep. And after class she pointed at me playfully and said, "You were sleeping while I was talking tsk tsk" and I was just like "ahh sorrry miss, didn't sleep much last night" which was a lie. I slept 7 hours last night which was plently.
Last class was art and had a good conversation with dominic, dennis, michelle, selina and caitlin. It was pretty funny lolol talked about cartoons and our childhoods. Dominic found one of his favourite disney games hahaha it was some Kim Possible game LOLOL
Walked to station alone at first but then Torrey came along and he put his heavy ass arm on my shoulder for like 1/2 the walk to the station zzzz
Ok studying for commerce at the moment.
Be happy and goodnight!! ♡






Will you still love me? ― Lana Del Rey

and they are only one of each series I take ....HAHAH okay lolol











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Today was dance!!! Omg wow, can't believe it's over. It happened so fast. I screamed so much, I probably will have throat problems tmr.
Anyways, got up late today like omg what is my problem, wanted to be at school way earlier.. Anyways my group was 4th and it was so nerve wracking. The floor was so slippery as well. The lights were all up in our eyes and a group of tupacs shouted my name lololol how embarrassing. I feel like we were so out of sync and omg I just don't know, whatever I was glad we finished it. Really wanted a 2nd chance though but eh. The dances this year were so damn good!!! I just can't. I loved every one of them. Applauded so much at everyone. The performance from that group was kind of unnecessary lolol.
AND THE GROUPS THAT WERE THE FINALISTS WERE SO AMAZING omg
And I'm so sad that we weren't allowed to film??? I hope someone uploads.
Corinne's watergun was quite popular today as well lolol. I think I might go buy waterguns now so fun to play with lol omg all small kids at heart.
Anyways, tiring ass day. Studying for commerce nao.
Be happy and goodnight!! ♡







But my aching soul

Hello
Woke up to the sound of vacumning, the usual Sunday morning sounds. My dad needed a blood test today so we went grocery shopping early and stuff. My mum has a problem with her arm and my dad had blood taken from his arm so I was the only person with two functional arms lolol.
Had to write a complaint letter to Telstra today for my parents because they hated the service last week when we were there for my dad's iPhone 4S.
After that we headed to Hurstville again, lol might as well live there. Ate sushi train again and I bet they know us by now. But after today my dad was like "never again or at least not anytime soon" LOL we're sick of it. We always do that to foods or restaurants.
Bought a bow from collette for $4 for dance. Went to Myer and got my dad 2 beanies. After that we went to KMART and got a mini handheld vacuum. We also bought a  juicer because my dad wants to start drinking green juices lol. Oh and he got socks... ok that's uninteresting.
Anyways so as we were holding the boxes and bags of things, standing on the escalator and this guy tries to run up but my dad was in the way and I was like "baba, move out of the way" in Shanghainese and the guy was some italian/latino guy. He was like "move baba, thank you" ==" zzzzz how annoying.
Anyways got home and yeah lolol idk didn't do much.
AND OMG DANCE IS TMR CRAY CRAY OK BYE
Be happy and goodnight!! ♡






Too late, even for a sorry to myself

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Today was a beautiful rainy day and it was so cold which I loved. I went over Shelley's house today!!! Exciting stuff hehe. Her apartment is exactly how I imagined it would be. It's so cute and cosy. Reminds me of my own home. Her family is so cute as well hehe. So awkward dancing there though LOLOL
We didn't even practice that much, instead most of the time we ate, watched some cartoon that made me laugh so hard and went on the computer and that. And Shelley!! Tell your mum that muffin thing was very yummy!! Anyways, I then full got into trouble with my parents, well mostly my dad. I feel bad for him because he was so tired from work and he had to come and retrieve me still in his work clothes... Sorry dad..
Anyways catching up on PLL and Sam and Cat right now whilst drinking mung bean soup lololol ok have a good evening.
Be happy and goodnight!! ♡






Gets me nowhere

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Today was such a cute day, we had Ms Tang's going away party. We did it today because Samantha and Angela are going overseas and we wanted them to be able to say bye to Ms Tang as well. We full went into action right after period 1. Our "party" lasted from period 2 until the end of recess. Took so many polaroids, had group photos, ate so much junk food, had a group hug, drew things on the board. I know that sounds not that exciting but it was nice.
After that we had P.E. and we did dance practice and I was meant to get a needle but after the nurse read my blue book, she saw that I didn't need to. How disappointing, I really wanted one.....
Left my jumper at the vaccination place and I full freaked on my way to english and then I got it back, phew.
In English we re-watched Alice in Wonderland. I see so many hidden meanings in the film now.
I didn't go fellowship today, zzz.
Commerce we had the Yin. She was freaking annoying... Ugh I just can't. She told us to study with no talking and then she ends up talking up a storm about her personal issues with adnan and crew...
Food tech, made caesar salad and yeah.
Ok I'm tired.. going to sleep..
Be happy and goodnight!! ♡






Real smiles

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Thursdays are always so freaking tiring and I chose to sleep at 2AM, geez great choice lucy. Also had a geo test today which by the way, I failed big time. I have never not finished a test before so yeah today was a first.... My mind went blank, I just couldn't.
The checkpoints today that I watched were all so damn good!!! Especially the last b-boy group we watched. And Luke's one was so funny omg lololol.
Had our last ever dance practice at the studios today and we had to go to Studio 3 because people were using Studio 1 (our normal studio) for like some dancing competition or workshop idk, so many parents just waiting there. It was so awkward to go downstairs.
Went home and my dad was being so unfair to me. I don't even know what point he wants to get across other than the fact that his goal is to piss me off.
Anyways, I'm super tired so sleepy time for me most likely and hopefully.
Be happy and goodnight!! ♡






Us humans like to hang onto

Hello
Commerce was a headache, we had Tsounakas? He talked forever. Lisa wasn't in class today :-( idk why but yeah. Tony sat next to me since Majid wasn't there so yeah...
Anyways, art was fun lololol omg Miss Rumble is the best art teacher ever I swear. Corinne and I stayed in the art classroom for the duration of recess. I ate my apple.
History was boring but I finished my work. English was bludge and we of course engaged in conversations.
For lunch, bought grilled chicken pesto salad and went over to the primary school to practice dance. It was so zzz because we had our last big checkpoint in 6th period and the people who didn't have the checkpoint used all the rooms and big spaces. We were full cramped and it was just frustrating so we resorted to practicing outside.
Maths; we started on deductive geometry and it's so easy wtf how is it a Year 10 topic..... We did the questions pretty fast and so it was a chill lesson. I didn't make the top 10 list again :-(
Did our checkpoint in the rain and lol it turned out pretty well, I expected worse. We attracted quite the crowd too... lololol. And Ms Bolton gave us some constructive criticism which was much needed. Irene's group is so amazing, I just want to punch a wall. I just can't. It just flows so beautifully like ermergerd.
It started to rain when it was home time so I walked with Shelley and her umbrella hit my forehead lololol it wasn't painful in any way but it was so funny. Then later on I almost get poked in the forehead with Selina's umbrella lol omg.
Studying for geo at the moment, dying.
Be happy and goodnight ♡






Eventually I bump into you




I love listening to Talking to the Moon - Bruno Mars could listen to it all day errrrr day.

Hello
I'm so frustrated right now because I want to study for geography but my computer keeps giving me trouble. I have windows 7 and it wants me to download an update for windows 7 service pack for x64 based systems and do you have any idea how many times this update has failed??? I checked my update history and it has failed over 50 times. I full did a SFC scan and nothing came up. Now I'm troubleshooting which probably won't work. I am ready to pull out tufts of my hair......
OMg yes!!!!! THE TROUBLESHOOTING WORKED. It just finished, and after like 2 hours the issue is finally resolved and repaired properly. Thank the lord...

Ok back to daily post:

• Had Miss Rumble for food tech demo and we're making Caesar Salad, yeah a week later than the other class, geez.
• Geography was a bludge since it was a "study" period.
• Recess we stayed at the primary school and practiced our dance
• Science was another bludge just talked to Irene, Cynthia and Emily. We kept laughing while telling stories and we stapled a pencil(s)
• Lunch; talked to Nicky, Emily and Shelley about Dominic's laugh while holding a $50 bill lolololol
• English was bludge as well
• Art was some what progress and such happiness with Miss rumble as our teacher for the next 2 weeks hehehe.
• Walked to station with Corinne
• Discussed costumes with Lisa/Corinne/Anna group
• Went home and yeah wjkfbldkgsd

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Hello
Today had it's ups and lows but I'm glad it ended well.
This morning got up and went grocery shopping the usual. I bought Green tea mochi and Green tea matcha (green tea milk tea) and cheap avocados. Which are all green, I just realised but oh-so-delicious. Yep, I'm having a avocado/green tea phase. Ugh I just spelt avocado as "avacado" like 2 times, why isn't it an A???
Anyways, went home and yeah unpacked groceries.
Got ready to go out to hurstville to eat and get my dad a new phone. We ate at Ajisen Ramen and it was pretty good, first time trying it and I had the Tonkatsu Ramen. My dad had the Yakisoba and mum had the Karaage Ramen. All very tasty, but shit service lol.
Telstra was a pain in the butt... they were so rude to us and cold. And we waited for 30 minutes until they properly served us. We were waiting for some asian guy with glasses but he just wouldn't help us and they said "you gotta record your name down and wait your turn" um hello???? This is Telstra, not a bloody bank. And the guy who had the iPad with our name in it, went for a lunch break, like r u srs??????
But then a nice lady helped us and we got my dad a iPhone 4s since the iPhone 5 battery life is shit as.
After bought $3.50 grey shoes, $12 flats, makeup remover pads, birthday cake, Hokkaido cheesecake, tiramasu, napoleon and yeah.
Oh yeah forgot to mention Michael Tan saw me at campsie this morning all zoned out and shit with a box of instant noodles in one hand and bags of seafood in the other and he did the hand in the face thing and walked away.....dude.... scared the shit out of me LOL
Anyways had a nice dinner and yeahhhhh  Oh yeah, just remembered, inferno is getting so intense guys, INTENSE.........
OK guna watch my YouTube nao. Be happy and goodnight!! ♡






As a boring roller-coaster

Hello
Usual Saturday as usual
Made guacamole and I've had onion breath all day, not the best breath to have... lololol but yeah. I watched bridesmaids finally after hearing Greg saying it was funny. Omg every time someone recommends a movie they believe is super funny, I go in with huge expectations. And then when I watch the movie, I hardly laugh because my expectations are way too high. But it was a good movie but so frustrating.....
Made pasta for dinner, it was yum.
And just watched The Dark Knight on TV and holy shit holy shit, it was so good. But so intense...
Ok, going to sleep nao
Be happy and goodnight ♡






So we can learn to pick ourselves up.

Beautiful souls are everything. Appearances have no importance if you have kind heart. .. omg.

Hello
Science was frustrating but today was the first time in science where I felt like I was actually doing work. Maths was fun, I'm still so sad that Ms Tang is leaving. Gouzoulis and Dominic Causely-Todd had a go at each other today and it was so funny. My mood improved by the time maths ended. Sad how that might not be the case next term.... And wow, I'm starting to like maths again. Maybe because I get the content.
Recess, I bought rice and went to practice dance and have come to the realisation, I'm an awful, unskilled, impatient dancer, which is not good. I must practice on the weekends.
Mr tap, was a headache and a half as usual. I'm sick and tired of him. I know he can be funny but like other times, I just can't. He also gave us a rude finger today. Gee thanks.
We got our books back with marks and omg I wish I put more effort in during term 1. And some people were really disappointed, but seriously??? All can be mended. Just be fixated on the idea that you CAN do it. Don't wander off half way through!!! Also I love Ms DiRamio, she marked everything so thoroughly and her comments were so cute especially in Emily's book.
Lunch was fellowship and today it was so cute when a girl in year 8's dad came in to talk. The way he explained things was nice idk. I enjoyed today's fellowship a lot hehe. And man, the year 8's were chomping down them lamingtons like you wouldn't believe; 1sts, 2nds and finally 2 more in their hands and out the door they went. But yeah fellowship was good today lolol, I bet only me; a non-christian, even blogs so thoroughly about fellowship. Every body else doesn't see it as a significant thing, ok maybe cos they've been at bigger things ok i'll shutup.
Commerce was whatevs, had a liquid paper disaster and then in food tech we had a custard mulfunction. I was in charge of the chocolate today and yeah. The profiteroles turned out aight, just ate it then and there.
Train ride was bloody annoying so many people brushed past me and ugh, stop. Don't touch me.
Walked home in my painful shoes. Basically limped home.
YEAH OK I WANT TO SLEEP NAO
Be happy and goodnight!! ♡






Should be the only darkness we allow in our life and even then, we have the moon. — Warsan Shire

My favorite book is you,
I want to read you cover to cover
and yet I’m stuck on chapter one
because I don’t want the story to end.
And like every great book, I read the
same parts over
and over
again

Hello
I stuffed my History test probably, I don't even know what I was on about half the time. I tried to study at lunch but I died. I just hope I pass and don't get lower than a C for my report. Oh and today we were given the news that 19/20 of the top marks of the grade for SRP were in our class... Wow. I probably didn't make the cut but still, wow.
A lot of people did their checkpoint today, I wish I could watch the dances but I ran out because yeah. We got our maths tests back today as well and we did the angry mob thing and went to each teacher who marked it and demanded marks. Well I didn't demand marks (I never seem to find mistakes) but I watched as others did so. It's quite amusing. Also we drew various snails on the board, I don't even know why or who started it. Ahh I love my class, hehe.
Anyways after school went dance practice and we finally finished the dance and of course I won't take credit but thanks to Shelley, Nicky and Beryl who managed to finish the last few beats!!!! SO MUCH RELIEF THANK YOU. Anyways yeah, basically my day. I hope you have a wonderful night.
Be happy and goodnight!! ♡






You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.

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Ok soz about yesterday for not blogging. I don't even know why. I closed my laptop at like 10:00PM last night and I realised when I was brushing my teeth that I forgot to finish writing my post and I was ceebz to turn my laptop on again and I knew also that it was a bad idea. If I had turned it on, I would have ended up watching YouTube until it was 2:00AM.
Ok anyways, my bag for school today was heavy and I didn't even bring my laptop.
Hmm I ceebz blogging in chronological order so here are dot points:

• Finished all my work in History today 
• Had dance practice at recess and lunch
• Ate a BLT roll for lunch today and it was yom
• Rained today, brought my clear umbrella
• Ms Tang gave us sad news today and a lot of us cried omg
• Had our checkpoint for dance and my group got 9/10 which was a huge relief

Hello
Sigh....back to school. Came late of course and had to start making profiteroles immediately when I got into Food Tech class, didn't even wear proper shoes but yeah whatevz.
The profiteroles turned out looking like shit!!! But oh wells. It's going to be left at school for like 2 days.
I ate so much Grilled chicken pesto salad today, I don't even know why I like it so much all of a sudden. I ate one at recess and one at lunch. And considering that it's Tuesday, the two lunch breaks are only a period apart, so it's like... guys, I might have a pesto problem.
(This where I stopped writing yesterday)

Nothing particularly interesting happened, just watched Alice in Wonderland for english and tested materials + colours for Art Visual Diary.
Came home and studied a bit for history then read Inferno and went to sleep.
Be happy and goodnight ♡





consists of all the things I would go to hell for

I didn't blog yesterday lol, okay going to go finish it nao.

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Queens birthday today and day well spent in my opinion. So glad my mum had a day off. In the morning I met up with my dance group and yeah. Kind of have a good idea of what we are wearing now.
Anyways after that my mum and me met in front of Zara.
Went to Lindt cafe in Martin Place and it was so nice in there!!! It was so yummy.
Then bought stuff, I'm ceebs listing it all. Everywhere was sales once again and surprising how everything was open, I thought it would have been all closed.
Ate KFC chips for some reason idk why. And so basically for lunch I ate chocolate platter shared with my mum and half a large packet of chips from KFC and somehow we were full from that??? I didn't even realise I didn't eat a proper lunch... yeah idk
It was a nice day that was ended in Daiso. But prior to going to Daiso some kid tripped me on purpose and I was so angry!!!!!! But I was smiling on the outside but really I wanted to smash him. Get rid of those people who are just burdens of society, scum of the earth. Like just go kill yourselves. Such mean words but you guys should have seen them. It was like some "gang" from redfern or someshit.
Anyways yay other than that happy with my day. Watched the Pilot episode of Sam and Cat and it's so cute hehe. Ok I'm going to sleep nao
Be happy and goodnight!! ♡






When needed






Hello
Today was quite the disaster. Plans were ruined due to me. But everything happens for a reason and thank god the plans didn't fall through or else someone's life might have been in danger. Sounds unrealistic but seriously it was the case. I've learnt a lot in a day..... I will appreciate my parents more and not only think of them as a money source or someone who drives.
Anyways, I ate a lot today again..... I had 2 breadtop breads but they were mini but still CARBSSS and then for lunch I had a McSpicy maccas meal which was shit, they made the burger so hastily. Also had half my mum's chicken Laksa which was so good!! Then my mum halved some toasted sandwich with me. Then shared a magnum with my mum.
And since I ate so much... just had 8 dumplings for dinner which is usually a breakfast portion.
Oh!! I went DFO today and everything is closing in there, I think today was the last day because they're renovating. I really wanted to go to Abercrombie and Fitch!!! But it closed already, grrr. Ralph Lauren was a zoo.... and so was Tommy Hilfiger. My mum and I saw crowds and we both were like "nope, not going in there"
Anyways had quite a worrying afternoon and quite disgusting but mostly worrying. Alcohol is bad!!!! Just a message I want to put out there.
I think I will watch a new episode of simpsons and catch some z's.
Be happy and goodnight!!! ♡






But get back up, always.

That feeling when a person close to you is right next to you but it's no longer them anymore. Their presence is empty.

Hello
You know I'm afraid of sleeping now ever since this dream I had..... I just hope before I sleep that I don't dream because yeah, all my dreams lately have been continuous.
Saturday was yet another busy day for me. I don't want to get into specifics. But I ate really bad food all day. Hungry Jacks stunner deal for lunch which was hella good because haven't had Hungry Jacks in ages. The menu full changed so I was so confused. Made my pasta recipe and adjusted it. It tasted better with a pinch of sugar. Also I had maccas after going to vivid tonight which was nice but guilty.
Vivid was crap. No offence but I've seen better light shows. I thought there was going to be lights everywhere!!! The only major building was the Opera House and that show was nice. Other than that it was like, arriving there I was thinking... "um is the light show over already lolol"
Anyways, it was so so so packed. Every food place at Circular Quay was lines on lines on lines. Even the line to go to the toilet was nuts. Videos and pictures were so hard to take but I kind of managed.
And for me a person who hates to be bumped into by dirty strangers, the city today wasn't the best place to be. It was nice though I must admit. Usually night events I just stay at home and just be a potato but yeah walking around and just being ad mist of it all.. was a missed feeling.
Anyways I want to sleep nao, also want to start on Inferno by Dan Brown
Be happy and goodnight!! ♡






For a joke







Hello
What a catastrophe today was. Maths common test, yep. Every time it crosses my mind I feel dread in the pit of my stomach. Maths and I don't see eye to eye anymore.
I missed out on fellowship today which made me want to stab myself. Basically all was going downhill today.
We had Mr Faucett for Careers and he made me laugh so hard. He gave us a full on lecture about gums negatives and just the way he said things.
I feel like everything is forced. When I'm with people I rather not be with, it's got to be rainbow and sunshine on my face and the clock is suddenly slower. When I'm with people I really want to spend the whole day with, it's suddenly International Interruption Cock-block Day.
The day ended sweetly I guess I don't know.
My mum wasn't too happy that yet again I didn't do well in a maths test, oh the joy of the screaming.
But it's the good kind. I don't know if you get that but it is.
I worked non-stop after dinner, didn't touch my computer for 5 hours.
Tired now of course. I hear wind and billowing trees outside!!! Yes.
Alright, be happy and goodnight ♡






But no-one is at this pond

Hello
I'm really tired right now so I'll be brief.
We had athletics carnival today and I didn't participate because 1. I'm fat and unfit and 2. I had to study for a maths test
It was a bleak, annoying and pointless day. At first I just wanted to quietly study with Corinne but then a million people came to us and ate Corinne's food and talked to us. Then we spent like 1 hour watching races. Someone drank from my bottle and threw my lid away and I got really angry and I just chucked the half full bottle and it splashed year 12 onesie people lol.
Anyways ate pork roll, chips, pasta and sweets..... Not very healthy lolol but whatevz.
The highlight to the day was when the athletics carnival was nearing the end. I laughed at everything and the bus ride was so funny, thucai and me idek what we were talking about half the time but yeah we were surfing lololol.
Went dance after and we got a lot done in my opinion and we saw Michael Tan's group at our studio. It's not a secret anymore!!! Well it was discovered by Michelle and stuff before Michael but yeah just sayin'.

Went home and studied and yeah.
I'm so tired..........
Be happy and goodnight ♡




Copy-dog

You never show interest in others, but you want their attention.

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It was cold today, my teeth were chattering. And I got to school and no-one was there. I'm trying to not come late to school anymore. We had Ms Stinson for commerce today and it was a bludge. I don't remember what happened in art. Corinne's pesto chicken pasta was nice, I think I might go buy pasta sheets to cook pasta now, it tasted so much nicer than normal pasta. Had Science ICAS test today and it was such a bore. I wrote my name to appear on certificate "Lucy Sunshine" HAHA, can't wait to get it back. Initially I wrote "Lucy 'Yolo' Sun" but then I was like lol no wtf.
Maths today was a bludge and Irene and I were speaking with British accents. I spoke with a british accent for 2 periods and on the train.
We didn't have our dance checkpoints today, thank god. Ms Bolton was away and I brought my bloody yellow booklet!!!
We practiced for our dance and when people watch us it's so awkward but I guess we have to get used to it or else stage fright will get the better of us. I get really bad stage fright.
Ah, Athletics carnival tmr, it doesn't even seem like an important event to me anymore. Going to pay $6 to do nothing. How exciting. Anyways I really need to study for maths, well I am currently anyway.
Be happy and goodnight ♡






Without your presence

You see this is the thing. They think whatever they are doing is so right, like the rightest of right but when you get out of line just by a little bit, you get put down. They start seeing you as a bad person because of your little slip up when they've done 87542321 times worse.

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I realised that we all forget how much nature surrounds us. I mean just looking at the stars last night when I was on my balcony, it was just amazing. I mean think about it all those stars are huge balls of gas and are so far away and so visible. They are seemingly possible, in our reach but so impossible, so many light years away..
Today again was not so great. I need to stop letting things get to me. But I get irritated so easily. I don't even want to start on what we as a class had to go through during geography. I wanted to pin her on the ground and smash her face in......a bit extreme I know, but sometimes there are just people in the world you want to kill but you know...... only kill them in your head.
Both recess and lunch was whatevs.
Got a kitkat from Science cos we did some multiple choice question thing and kitkat was the prize.
For English, it was such a tease, we were ordered to go to the library and we were like "yis we gun watch Alice In Wonderland" but yeah no, we got a booklet of work and only went library cos there was computers there for us to use..........
I don't know I'm just going to end it here
Be happy and goodnight ♡






With grownup powers - Lang Leav

One of my favourite YouTube couples announced their break up omg how am I so upset not even my relationship..... Sigh I have no life

*whispers* let's do the fork in the garbage disposal
*shouts* DING DING DINGDINGDING  DA DING DING






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Someone is logging in and out of my blogger. If I find out who...

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I chose to sleep in today rather than go grocery shopping and I made the right decision, it was so comfortable to sleep in. 30 minutes of sleeping in sesh passed and I decided to wake up and do all that morning shiz.
Ate the remaining fail pasta of yesterday for breakfast whilst watching my YouTube subscriptions ^_^
The rain was so heavy this morning, it looked so pretty. I felt relaxed.
Parents came home and helped them put away groceries.
We decided to go to Hurstville yet again because my dad is OBSESSED with sushi train, I swear we eat it every week now, not that I'm complaining. But I don't want to get sick of it... ya know?
We went home after eating, wasn't anything else we wanted to do.
Came home, I did Maths and English homework. Well the homework that I'm supposed to catch up on. My blogger is being weird right now so I'm going to end my post here now.
Be happy and goodnight ♡






And the saddest

We say things we don't mean all the time, don't we?









I do so a little too much.

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You know I hate feeling neglected but really? No-one likes being neglected. It's the worst in my opinion when someone close to you does it to you. And you can't do anything but be silent and weave your way around them. I hate it so much when it happens, to others and to myself.
Anyways today I had a pretty embarrassing moment. I fell in public.... could've died of humiliation but I continued walking ..... and I got a booboo from it :-(
I also failed cooking today, made the most disgusting tasting pasta dish and failed to make a rue properly. I failed making the rue 2 times and then I gave up.
I wanted to go see vivid tonight but yeah it was raining so decided not to. Well my mum decided to not take me, I don't mind the rain, in fact I think it would've made it more fun. I guess next Saturday then??? Idk
I also caught up on modern family, I was 4 episodes behind.
I'm so behind with Awkward, didn't even bother with it after the first two episodes. Usually waiting for series eventually disinterests me. I really want PLL to be back. I miss it.
Anyways, I want to go to sleep now
Be happy and goodnight ♡






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