Hello
Yeah so today I woke up at 8AM, the time I'm meant to leave. Which was annoying......I originally wanted to get up at 6:30AM so I could study for English. Lately things have been rocky at home so like my mum decided of all mornings to teach me a lesson today//// WTF JUST WAKE ME UP, do you think my English exam is a joke/? Ffs. So I didn't get to print anything at all.
Got 3U exam results back yeah lol.
Economics was so freaking irritating - she thinks she is so fucking smart and it's like she gets joy out of our misery. I absolutely loathe teachers who can't take students studying for another subject in their classroom. You do know it is reciprocated when assessments for that class are in play so don't even.
I wish I could say I smashed the English essay out of the park but I really didn't. Everyone after the test felt quite worried/frazzled/unsure, I feel. We all gave in a piece of turd which was all commentary and nowhere near analysis.
Lunch was okay, talked to Lisa, Anna and Michael Ho.
For some reason we didn't have our free period. Lmao my ONE free period in my whole timetable...... We had bio period 5 & 6. In other words we got to go home normal time for once on Wednesday/
Went to Campsie to eat w/ senpai..... well he ate....i watched. Ate pho and then ate yogurberry.
Went home after and chilled + ate ....some more lol.
Going sleep nao
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Silver-tongued





Helllo
Today was just as shit as yesterday. Shitty McShitty morning yet again like leave me alone.
I'm so comfortable being alone (at home) so let me be.
At school today the classes seemed to drag on.
Corinne wasn't here.
Majid wasn't here.
Wtf........ my mains weren't at school!!!!!!! That's the sort of alone I despise.

Extension English - I read Picture of Dorian Gray (need to finish it om g)
Economics today was replaced by Ms Davidson????? She seemed nice enough, i finished all my work.
Recess was a let down like seriously....
Physics was boring.
Lunch was eh... ate chicken noodle soup. Made Hoang buy it for me since I can't push in lines... Had a chat with Michael Ho lolol.
Ancient Hist. - Mr Jackson returned!!1! Didn't even check the work that we did whilst he was away so that left me a bit confused. Copied down stuff from the board the whole lesson basically.
Extension English was alright because once again Greg brought my day up. We watched videos and it was just nice to talk to someone that made me laugh idk.

Walked to station obamaself and it was really discouraging, I mean I wanted to get home but it was so boring not to walk there with anyone or be on the train with anyone. Everyone left//// Cries. SO, I just played Hardest Game Ever 2. Pissed me off because I couldn't do the jigsaw puzzle one.
Walking home once again was so discouraging, didn't want to go on.
Went home showered and relaxed. I felt better.
Nao to do the English essay that I said I wouldn't do last minute. I just keep on lying, don't I?
Be happy and goodnight ♡










It's annoying

I...don't have siblings hah aha yeah only child???
Well that was easy lmao



Helllo
Woke up - shitty mcshitty start to the day
I thought today was going to be a good day when it was Sunday but tbh it turned out terrible
First period was like what why isn't senpai here??? Um
Second period was like idc about this fkn poem
Recess - why did I buy shepherds pie????// wtf lucy
Maths, started calculus. Hurt jeff and now he has a scratch, so sorry :( Got a depressing 2U mark
Physics was a bludge, talked about ATARS
At lunch I ate my feelings which I hate doing but I never seem to be able to stop myself........
Biology was boring af
Sports was nice - talked to emily and then talked to greg which was funny but still I wasn't feeling today.
Dad gave me stupid fucking ultimatum, fuck off.....
Was late for tutor...........
Started integration.........
Never even going to see my tutor again... feel like shit for all this
I haven't even properly prepared for the English Exam on Weds.
FUCKING KILL ME
Shit piled onto shit, piled onto more shit. I just fucking can't.
Can someone just dig a hole for me so I can lie in it?????? pls
9000% done with today
Be happy and goodnight ♡










Because my demise is a consequence of being myself

I'm not religious whatsoever in the facts that I don't practice any religion at the moment. I mean I probably have before but never officially declared myself to any religion. I don't know if that's allowed or if that makes sense... But anyway, despite me not being religious I respect other people's beliefs... most of the time until it gets ridiculous and it no longer shows the ethics of that religion in a pure way any more// It's annoying because I know good people who can get an immediate stereotype or can get away with something purely based on their religion which is not okay.
But yeah back to the original challenge "question", yeah I don't have a religion.... yah.

Hello
Spent my day at home waiting for a certain someone to finish gaming so I could teach them maths. I just lazed around whilst parents + grandparents were at Coogee Beach. I'm such a hikikomori....... anyway, yeah.......
I really didn't do that much today other than eat
What i ate????

• grilled cheese sandwich w/ pickle onion mustard relish
• a pack of chips
• grilled cheese sandwich w/ avocado + pickle onion mustard relish
• 2 mini bars of twix
• Oolong tea

1. If you are intelligent
2. Funny (so typical lol...)
3. Be easy on the eyes (my eyes!!!! meaning they don't have to be extremely good looking even though it doesn't hurt to be LOL)
4. Pay genuine attention to my petty/serious problems and have the capacity to help me deal with it
5. I know this will sound weird but if you have the ability to tell me off to a point where I have no comeback or any reasoning left, then u da one lolol because if you can't match up to me in that sense then wtf 
6. Show that you are comfortable around me 
7. If money isn't an issue, wow this sounds like I'm a gold digger but I'm not!! I mean it in the sense that they aren't stingy or they don't count it to the cent when you split the bill. I like it when it's like "your money is my money" kind of thing where one pays for the other, it alternates by itself but no-one even keeps count. 
8. Play with my hair
9. If you have a sense of style because do u know how much higher you climb on the panty dropper ladder???? ?? You will dropping panties everywhere. Sorry for the use of the word panties, i actually hate it *shivers*
10. If you're deep #tumblr but seriously if you are just one dimension of a human then lmao byeeeee

Went city to do a few entrance exams for a certain tutor and yeah. Spent 1.5hrs in the room and i felt like i was judged by the people who walked in and out of that room. The questions weren't too bad. After I got hot roasted milk tea w/ herbal jelly from Chatime + KFC popcorn chicken snack box and twister.
Track work today so it was a hassle to come back home. Had to go sydenham and then take a cityrail bus back to Lakemba. There was this annoying kid listing things about a certain game he was playing. He's full announces it... for example: "Ok, my top 5 armour" or "Alright, let's list my top 5 swords".....Then he'd go "Number 1: Blah Number 2: Blah ... " etc. Oh my god so fucking annoying.

Got home and finished this week's PLL and I painted my nails.
Basically just did all the leisure stuff I restricted myself from doing due to the maths tests.
Yahhhh felt gud.
I just need to get my shit together and tackle English - getting it done before the exam and NOT the night before pls lucy.
But yeah......
OK Don't know what else to say
Be happy and goodnight ♡










You against me







I can't do this one, I've opened it for like 1.5 hrs and nothing.

I usually almost always think about "what if..." when it comes to things in the past but then again if you trace everything back and if one thing, just one thing changed then everything would be quite different today. I mean you can regret it but seriously? I don't think I would be able to accept another outcome. But another part of me feels like I would've taken this path again even if I had to live this life over even if I was completely aware. I don't know.

I shall catch up on my "daily" challenges that i clearly failed but it was because I had to study for tests ok

Hello
Today was the 2U test and I wasn't worried as much well obviously it would be easier. But yeah once again these types of tests you are prone to getting silly mistakes. The mistake I  made was like wth?? What's wrong with you Lucy???? But it's okay, once again Jeff and Corinne made me feel better.
Corinne bought a meatless "pork" roll which tasted basically the same if not better since it tasted lighter/fresher. I bought meatball sub and yah. \

Economics was painful....for my hands since we had to copy down a shit load. My thumb is developing a hard thing and it really freaking hurts when I write. I wish I had learnt to hold a pencil/pen properly when I was small so I didn't have to suffer nao in high school...I feel like a fucking scribe everyday just copying down heaps and heaps of things.
English once again was a bludge, been away for like the whole week.... and i still haven't sent in a thesis. Maybe tmr....?? Watched an Ancient Egypt documentary on how Egypt fell. I was aware and ok for the first 1/3 and then for majority of the rest I was dead. I couldn't keep my eyes open. I fell asleep basically and then woke up to tri saying the markings of my scarf were on my face lmao.

Physics was just an experiment on refraction which i managed to do surprisingly well. I'm never that neat in Physics but yeah it was really nice. I think I should continue being neat but...my physics book is a complete mess and idk how to fix it.
Walked w/ Anna to the station and then trained with her, thuc and hoang.
So annoyed rn, so sick of my shit but once again can't specify because otherwise i be judged.
ANYWAY That's enough for today
Be happy and goodnight ♡










Incinerate, okay...

Hello
3U test today// only thing that was on my mind. Everyone thought it was period 1 but I thought it was period 4 but i went along with it. Turns out it was period 4.
The rest of that time up until 4th period people were studying or trying not to stress.
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Well everyone fucked up as usual... I fucked up as usual. It just sucks feeling shit after every maths test when I used to step out of the class somewhat confident.. Yeah... but Jeff and Corinne made me feel a bit better at lunch.
Biology was alright but everyone was annoying me. Torrey wouldn't shutup and there were constant commentators which was just unnecessary.
Ancient Hist. was just a practice essay where I just did whatever because I didn't really have any concern for it. Wasn't in the mood for it at all.
Walked to station w/ no-one and was at the end but then i walked fast and beat everyone.
Yahhh went home and ate
Nao studying
Be happy and goodnight ♡









And blankly ahead I stared

[didn't blog yesterday]

Hello
Woke up from a really bad dream that I could not wake up from because I kept waking up but IN THE DREAM so I couldn't get out and it just went on and on and on. I just couldn't.
Majority of the day everyone was just studying and all that for the 3U test.
I did my eco speech w/ Stanley and Ming. After period 2 we stayed in at recess and practised and yeah. Stanley is so good at delivering speeches holy shit...
Double biology wasn't too bad, actually did the work Ms Padilla set me to do.
Walked to station w/ senpai.
He went to get haircut in Lakemba but they were breaking their fast so yeah he had to go back later.
That's all that really happened yesterday.
Be happy and goodnight ♡










Too many facets

Hello
Got yelled at this morning for sleeping in when really it's because my clock is fucked up lol... Someone knocked it down and then the batteries fell out but was too busy to go back and put them in again.
Extension English.... bluuudgggeee and sorry to friends who try, i'm sorry i distract you.
Economics was alright but omg i thought it was double period (mistaking it for weds) and then i was full prepared to leave my book behind and shit hahhaha wth
Recess was just spent in the library doing maths w/ senpai
Physics was alright, did refraction which was relatively do-able.
Lunch was very much the same as recess.

Ancient Hist. w/ Mr Wyper. I'm almost finished all the worksheets!! Yay. I felt like I laughed a lot during that class but at what...? I don't even remember anymore.
Extension English - same as the morning

Got SO MANY SPLINTERS when I got play pushed me against a wooden pole and omfg hurt so bad
Senpai helped me get rid of some of the splinters - so....painful.......
But bought snek pek for me and I bought large chips after because it was a pussy in terms of snack packs like wth so little... ????
Went home and procrastinated the hell out of my time//
Played 3 games...and then watched Daily Lives of Highschool boys which just kills me lmao and then dinner
More waffling around and finally i got around to finishing my speech for eco
Fuck the english thesis, i am not bothered...................and he's not going to be here tmr
Ok practicing speech w/ eco group rn
Be happy and goodnight ♡









Why...

• I have interesting hearing abilities e.g. I can judge who is home by the sound of their engine from their cars or how their wheels sound when they reverse… but I'm often that friend that screams “what?!” like 3-5 times before I actually hear it but it’s their fault for mumbling like an idiot… 
• I for some reason believe that having my OCD tendencies it will keep me safe or I will pass the “levels”. 
• I'm absolutely hopeless in games – like legit I could've started the game 5 months before someone else and they can still smash me in like a week/// WHAT
• I can’t sing in front of anyone but I promise u my voice is like an angels ;) HAHAHA
• Unlike Corinne, I can’t deal with watching people with less than 300,000 subscribers, it’s just not good enough for me…  I like the 500,000-1 MILLION+ range preferably
• I used to be an avid reader, now I can’t even finish a book to save my life. Not good. 
• I learnt how to ride a bike in one afternoon of continuous trial and error 
• I used to be a bully in pre-school and idk why ??? 
• I moved from a 2 bedroom, 1 bathroom unit to a 5 bedroom, 4 bathroom duplex what what and I dwell in the master bedroom……. 
• I have hallux valgus (bunion formation) – dw guys it’s not like how it looks on Google images, but yeah basically I have a weak arch in my foot leading to an inflamed bone thing. 

Hello
Monday. Oh how many more of these dreaded Mondays must I go through????? I wish we could shrink our sports uniform and it would on command transform into full size when we actually need it.
Today in Ancient Hist. we were meant to watch an Egyptian documentary but the computer wouldn't co-operate so it was no go.

English was a combination of two classes and it felt nice to be with everyone//
At recess, found out that The Weeknd released a new song!!!!!! When I heard about it, it had been 54min since it was out and omfg listened to it during assembly and it was so good.  ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ listen!!! ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ 
Maths was slightly torturous not because of the questions really but I can't work properly in a stuffy room.
Physics was just note taking and we got a test notif.

Ate a pink strawberry doughnut and strawberry milk at lunch.. it was niceeee
Biology was next but we didn't have Padilla. She went home because she wasn't feeling well and I feel so sorry for her, she's been away so much recently. I know a lot of people hate on her esp. people in my class but yeah I really think that isn't necessary, she's nice, it's just that people fuck with her. On her good days she gives solid lessons. Majid and I be her only supporters lolol.
Basically had a free, just walked around the school and chilled.

Sport was funny. We just stayed in the hall deciding the fate of our sporting lives for the next 10 weeks. Corinne and I voted for the beep test lol, and someone voted t-ball and softball LOL WHY I HATE THOSE SPORTS and then Sophie asked everyone and saying "wtf" because no-one admitted it HAHA.
Jeff w/ boobs was hilarious and surprisingly very comfy LOL
Walked to station w/ majid and yah.
Train ride was cute hehe, i just remember laughing a lot.
Tutor went from fucking 6PM-9PM so very tire.
Be happy and goodnight ♡









Shout out XO





I really want to specify but I can't put together enough strength to say so. I guess I can't seem to get over the fact that I get to experience this nowadays. I remember maybe 3 years ago I thought that most likely this would be the extent. That whatever it was would end right there and then but somehow it didn't and even through the separation of this particular thing, it still wasn't over. And it amazed me that the periods of time where separated, lessons were learnt apart were somehow very parallel. Even through the isolation from the other subject, it ended up similar in terms of paradigm. And it follows that exact concept of where different things in life may be wrong at the time but somehow right later on. If it felt like unfinished business on both parties then it would be obvious to re-take the path right??
I just can't get over it. And I'm being quite vague and trying not to give it away but this is truly something I can't really get over it. I can't grasp the thought, it's just too surreal.

Hello
I woke up to my parents coming into my room one by one using my toilet because the other toilet was occupied by my grandpa. Phoned and then got up. Parents went grocery shopping and I stayed home.
Then parents + grandparents went city w/o me which was ok since i was doing "work", that turned out to be the complete opposite but I can't specify. But because of that it was a much better day.
I finished my share of the economics asg. which feels like just Stanley and I contributing, Ming is nowhere in sight. I also have the burden of sending in a top notch thesis for english and i don't know if I am up for it///
Many sighs directed at English, after I publish this, I will proceed to the torture that awaits me.
That's all for today!!
Be happy and goodnight ♡









Funny how it reciprocates

Probably w/ senpai lmao
Something petty usually
Kouhai: Grr
Senpai: Grr
*hangs up*
*calls back*
fixed
HAHAHAHA




wow i ain't even trying anymore hahhaha sorry

Hello
Whoops didn't blog on time today, I apologise, I kind of got side-tracked.
Anyway, I fell asleep from 1:00AM to 5:57AM and accidentally woke up and then couldn't sleep so phoned for an hour or so and went back to bed.
Basically just watched YouTube and anime the whole day.
I made this bowl of pasta and it was way too much for me to finish and besides it didn't taste amazing so there was no motivation for me to finish the whole batch.

And also today I am highly grateful to Stanley, like holy shit, he straight out just led our team into a safe zone by just knocking a huge load off Ming and I's backs. I feel bad though, I'm usually never the leech when it comes to group work, i'm usually the bossy captain lolol.
Anyway, I'm tired? I don't know. I don't want to blog any longer.
Be happy and goodnight ♡











You're my home...but you move.

When my favourite people are around me and we are laughing. I think a lot about why I laugh so much at everything but honestly I think it's not because I belong in a mental institute with thucai (inside joke) but because it really does make me feel better. And fuck those posts that say that people who laugh at everything are like 650% depressed or anything like that. It's like dude, laughing makes me feel better. Yeah, ok that sounds like I need something to make me feel better but even happy people continue to look for new ways to enjoy life AND SO SOMETHING THAT NEVER FAILS IS LAUGHING WITH FRIENDS ^__^


Hello
Double period maths wasn't half bad, finally managed to finish a sheet (practice test from another highschool lolol). Recess was eating butter chicken + beef flatbread mmm but i wish i didn't buy the rice, it wasn't as good as i thought it would be.
English was okay kinda fell asleep and then it was economics and felt good since ms siddiqua was ok with my extended response that i had written.
Lunch was just watching multiple trailers for the game Deus ex. I was eating a pringle whilst watching and I missed my mouth - thucai saw me and laughed at me from like 5metres away LOL
Ancient Hist. was alright but also got annoyed/pissed several times lol
Also tried my first breath paper slice thing that freshens breath?????? Wth I have never tried them before today and it was like eating a thin sheet of toothpaste??
We didn't have physics today!!! So we got to leave early ^__^
Senpai and I decided to go eat at Campsie. Ate snackpack, sushi and meetfresh mMmmMm
I took a picture of the snackpack but forgot to take a picture of the sushi and the meetfresh lol fml
Went home and I didn't do anything lol dead
Yahhhhh
Be happy and goodnight ♡










Key attribute



I used to be one of those children who never under any circumstance would disrespect parents. I simply looked up to them and obeyed the majority of any instruction they gave me. And I used to really despise when other children would say "I hate you mum/dad" and anything along those lines and I would not understand because I loved my parents.
But I think now at this age I can say that I have probably disrespected my parents a lot ever since I broke free from that phase in my life. I can't say I'm happy at all with what I have done and said to my parents but parents have their faults too right? My parents have plenty of them. And when I found my voice within the household, I learnt to answer back. I honestly just believe in having your say. If they see it as something rude or whatever, disregard that, keep going. After all they are your parents, they'll love you regardless so I really think that you should say what you want to say to your parents so there is a real communication passage. From this post I feel like you might derive that I used to love my parents but now I don't? Nope, not saying that. I still love them very much, probably the most important pair of people in my world as they are my direct family. Though please do derive that you shouldn't ever say you hate your parents no matter how unreasonable they can be sometimes at the end of the day they're still working everyday for you and after all you are their kin.

Hello
All of my muscles on the right side of my body were dead today. I don't know what exactly I did to maim myself this way?? I think I did this to myself whilst I was sleeping. ..  It's like other people injure themselves from doing sport but I injure myself from simply sleeping lol so hardcore. -_-

Anyway today had an okay maths lesson. I really hate doing maths, it's such an uncomfortable subject to sit through for me anyway. Thought we had physics today but Mr Murphy wasn't here apparently and we didn't have a sub so Majid, Anna and I decided instead of going to the library, we opted for the canteen to eat an early recess. Only problem was... we weren't hungry... so we were just eating for the sake of eating.

Recess was nice kind of? I got to sit against the wall, usually never get to as other people sit there before me or I come from the other end of the school so everyone is already there. So it was nice to have some back support haha ok idk.

English was nice, a bit tortorous in terms of getting down notes. It was like a race against time but then again I don't understand why some people cannot copy things down faster? How will you survive later on in uni or tafe or wherever.... I don't think in those situations you can really tell lecturers to go back 2 slides because you didn't get one or two words down. And besides you're not meant to be copying down each and every word... Taking notes isn't "let's copy down the whole slide" lol.
Also some year 7 pricks decided to join our class, at first they were smug then they fell asleep.
Maths was sort of enjoyable because of the conversations that occurred w/ our two rows + luke/wilson antics
Lunch was just chatting w/senpai about some rpg game i think idk
Biology was bearable as we mainly watched clickviews and took notes
Ancient Hist. was finishing off sheets.
AND I GOT TO GO HOME AT 3:08PM ON A THURSDAY ^__^
No moar period 7 on Thursdays, felt nice.
Went home and ate + watched Angel Beats
God damn that was a sad anime - hit me right in the feeeeels :(
Just finished an eco essay class task, hurt my hand from intense writing
Yah, sleep now?
Be happy and goodnight ♡









Nothing exquisite about being the last one

 22222 pageviews and 22 followers weowowow

Whenever fear is mentioned, I feel like I have many fears. Though when I really think about it I don't find myself very affected by much. At first, this challenge may be just asking of the fears on the surface of myself, the petty ones that are easily overcome such as being scared of spiders (u can kill'em) or for me I have Trypophobia (fear of holes - i can look away) but I feel like this is like something that can genuinely keep me up at night or can scare me so much it leads me to crying.
And I think that fear is probably how I'm treating everyone completely and utterly wrong right now in the present....and in the future I'll regret it because everyone dies eventually right? I should be nice to them whenever I can and I shouldn't take it for granted because I often do. I honestly prefer being alone, now. Nothing satisfies me more than to be alone. But in the future when I no longer like it, the people I want to have access to will no longer be there. No longer there in the physical form. I fear this the most probably. Because I've experienced loss and it's just really hard hitting feeling of knowing that I can no longer speak to that person ever again. The feeling that I didn't speak to them enough when they were here. I had the opportunities yet I decided to leave them alone when they were doing something important. I just wish I had barged in and said hi or annoyed them somehow...anything. Because regardless if they had gotten angry or didn't mind, it would've counted as a memory. But the fact that I never took that chance, because of the stupid fear of not disturbing that person, I had lost a chance to be with them - spend more time with them.
I think probably the bottom line of all of this would be that I'm scared of people leaving. Because they are simply too many stories untold and too many potential memories to be created.
It just sucks that something like death can take so much away.

Yeah.



Hello
2nd day back and already fell right into the groove of things again or so it feels that way kinda.
Trigonometry in maths was painful, jeff was powering through it though.
Economics felt very much the same as yesterday but two times since we had a double period.
Anna bless her soul brought me a binder folder ^__^
Senpai and I tried to "keep warm" which turned into hoang pretending he had a broken arm...he also faked being a cancer patient - wanted to punch him so bad....
More economics and then english which feels like a seminar each and every time now wth haha
But we read this reallly nice poem by Peter Goldsworthy like literally every line was jam packed with metalanguage i just couldn't deal.
And guess what?????? We didn't have double bio today!!!!! ^__^
Made good use of that time hehe actually not really but still!! Naice feeling ^_^
I feel really tired today
I hope tmr is ok
Be happy and goodnight ♡










in bedrooms usually, by
hand, or gun, women kill men,
less often, in kitchens, with knives

1. Passionate
2. Observant
3. Humorous

it's raining hhehehe ~_^

Hello
Slept at 3:15AM? Senpai was so mean wth lol full hang up and shit can u not LOL
But thankfully I had a funny dream that woke me up. I was full on silent laughing and I even managed to "go back" into my dream and watch it again hahahhaha it was hilarious.

Woke up and putting on my school uniform felt so familiar but not at the same time lolll and for fuck's sake my mum kept notifying me of the time, YES I KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS WOMAN, I own a clock. It's like I don't need an update every 5 min... Bought pork buns at campsie for breakfast and ate them on the way to school.

During Ext. English we couldn't remember the 4th member of TMNT LOL and i thought it was Versace HAHAHAH but it was Donatella - I only thought it was Versace because of the designer Donatella Versace lmao forgive me pls.
Also tried to explain this kids cooking show to everyone (which i now know as Planet Cook) and they kept telling me it was a dream. REMEMEBER WHEN THEY HIT THE TABLE AND AN EGG FLEW OUT??? and they got recipe's or ingredients from some robot LOL

Recess was so funny w/ Jeff + Corinne
Physics, funny at first then not very :-|
Lunch consisted of majid swaying a long onion piece whilst telling me something and also Greg coming along showing us his $20 maths splurge + laughing about the boat video HAHAHA
Ancient Hist. was hilarious HAHAHAHAHA laughed at the driest jokes of life and Torrey was like "Koreans like kimchi - fun fact" HAHAHA

Ext. English was me laughing and retweeting Jaden Smith's tweets LMAO I CAN'T
Went home and felt so so productive, started to tidy and get shit together wth.
Also found my eyebrow pencil refills, used powder for 3 days and hated it.
Good first day of school HAHAHA
Be happy and goodnight ♡









of expression through art




Ok well this week is only 2 days in and so far so good in my opinion

• Getting all the practice questions that my tutor gave me correct 
• Finishing the bio report again saving someone else 
• Seeing all my school friends again and laughing a lot - hearty laughs lolol
• Finally feeling productive ^__^

Hello
Can you believe it/// today was the last day of our holidays. Next term is the last term before HSC. I'm not ready even though I told myself to use these 2 weeks to get ready. But isn't that what everyone said to themselves?? I just give props to those people who actually were good boys and girls - who ACTUALLY did study and race through their work piles.
I on the other hand went with the "I'll do it tomorrow" excuse which annoyed me immensely esp. when I didn't "...do it tomorrow".
ANYWAY
Today I finished the rest of my tutor work and finished someone else's bio report which was done when I was in Godmode. Very rare that Godmode ever even works on me but what do you know???
I'm just glad i managed to save my friend's ass.
I don't look forward to tomorrow :(
Be happy and goodnight ♡









It comes along in the end

Well this may make me seem feral/savage but I believe if I eat stuff that falls on the ground like relatively clean ground it's 100% ok and it makes my "dirty food" tolerance higher?? Because I don't want to go to India or Mexico (no hate on those places just common example because yeah) and die from diarrhoea because I couldn't tolerate a little bit of unhygienic food preparation. You know what I mean????? I don't want to be one of those hoity toity people who can only eat extremely clean food and a little bit of contamination would be fatal?

I KNOW YOU'RE LIKE PICTURING ME LIKE A SMEAGOL PICKING UP FOOD AFTER IT'S ON THE FLOOR AND JUST STUFFING MY FACE

#NO

Well now you probably are imagining exactly that
Well wipe your mind clean because this is all a life plan to being more tolerant of germs

LOL

Hello
Didn't go grocery shopping today because I didn't even sleep lol until 8AM so I was dead dead dead. Slept in until 11AM I think and then had to get ready to go out w/ mum + grandparents.
Originally wanted to go to city but then my grandpa didn't seem very up for it so we opted to go Ashfield where we ate New Shanghai which was so good. The pork buns were so crispy on the outside and the meat was heavenly. Also at fried icecream idek why i decided on that and it came first before all the other orders?? Um what// But yeah devoured it anyway. It was a very filling lunch and it sent me right into a food coma whilst on the way home in the car.

Basically just chilled and watched stuff when I got home.
Decided to make salted caramel macarons.... failed horribly. Which is so annoying because I never fail at making macarons!!!! And the one time I was doing so to make them for my grandparents to hopefully impress them???????? I FAILED!!!!!!! And it was really annoying when everyone in my family decided to tell me where I might've gone wrong and how I should have done it/ CAN U NOT I DO SO PERFECTLY EACH TIME YOU JUST CAUGHT ME OUT SJHFKJSHFLSK such unlucky :(

Yeah boring Sunday...
One more day of "freedom" and it's school again :(
Shoutout to the people who did hardly anything over the two weeks, the day before where we all try to get our shit together?? We're all in this together. (High School Musical Dance Moves)
Be happy and goodnight!! ♡










...and of hopelessness




I think I've already blogged about this but I want to get like a Ute and then fill the back with pillows and blankets and then like just hang out, eat, talk and look at the stars. Like isn't that so simple and nice??? Also extremely hipster but idm conforming just this once. It just seems like the perfect date to me.












Hello
Woke up and talked to someone until all day hahhaha i was writing that and thinking when we stopped but we never did ... Anyway, cooked my own version of butter chicken using turkey instead of chicken and also added fried tofu puffs because originally i wanted to make it vegetarian but yah i wanted turkey so it was no longer meat free.
I think the whole day I was on tumblr basically
WHAT AM I DOING W/ LIFE?????
Living it up clearly lmao
OK ask.fm made my day today hehe ^__^
I'm going to try using the wet brush that i bought yesterday and hopefully i have an ok night
Be happy and goodnight ♡










is quite irreversible...


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Not much to say but just,
I never got any real answers from you and of course I never will. I just shouldn't have ever even considered scum like you. Lmao bye.




Helllo
Woke up at 7AM-ish today and was very confused because i wasn't even planning to sleep last night. This 7 hrs will last me another 2 days for sure. Which is gret.
Watched a bit of DBZ: Kai(??) upon wakening then watched senpai play Vindicitus or something on screen share. I played with my contacts again and holy shite it looks terrible without make-up.
Got ready to go out to catch up with the corn and it was very hard to convince my mum to let me since I've been knee deep in shit lately, always in her bad books. It was only allowed kind of because it was punchbowl and not anywhere far like the city.

Almost died crossing the street at punchbowl, I was literally so close to becoming road kill.
Had El Jannah for the first time and hory shitu it was good esp. the garlic sauce. Caught up w/ corn and found out some juicy, juicy secrets hahhahaha kidding not kidding hehe
Bought macaron mix, pastel pink measuring cups and Tresemme heat protectant (WHICH WAS A SCAM OMG) - It said $4.95 and then it turned out to be $11.59 or something wtf.... bought it anyway though (a little bit of ragret)

Then went Bankstown w/ cornz to check out social dresses (found nothing) and instead bought useless things lololol ofc/ Because like?? What kind of damage can a little $3 here and $2 there do???? No damage :)
Bought cat ears .... (lol) and a "wet" hair brush ^__^
Then went home (went on the wrong train omfg kill me)
Yagoona smelt like vomit wth
Went home and baked a cake
My day was gret.
Be happy and goodnight ♡










You're just pathetic



I'm single but it's complicated? HAHAHAH just kidding I'm not one of those people who write shit like that.
Single life is normal life. I mean single life feels worse after you've JUST been involved with someone. But after a prolonged period, it really isn't that bad tbh.
Being single at this age is like a safe mode because you can't really get hurt and you don't have a distraction which is what relationships are really. And if you plan to get married you'll have a distraction for the rest of your life when school is over which is nice. I think so anyway.
I think at this point you shouldn't really rely too much on significant others. We're still young and probably have some commitment issues so yah I don't know what point I'm trying to reach.
JUST DATE SOMEONE YOU'D MARRY LOL OK BYE

"Of course I'm still  mad at you, because being around you drives me nuts, and not being around you drives me nuts."

HAHAHA

Hellllo
Yah slept in the early hours of hell and I don't know
My back hurts and I don't understand why
I managed to put in the contacts today and I didn't really recognise myself
Went to officeworks and bought a hard drive finally!!! Also liquid paper and sleeves.
Spent majority of the day watching KUWTK and YouTube videos.
What is my life lmao
I've also been eating a lot salad lately

And here's a Jenna Marbles video that gets me every time LOLLLLL



Drugs? Just once or twice? Unforgivable
Alcohol? If you're 18 and responsible? It's fine.
Drinking when you're still in high school is just wth. Like why? Why do you need to consume alcohol??? I just I don't like it. Not a fan of it.
I've seen it's damage on families and individuals.

And yeah basically, these things shouldn't be abused.




Hello
I slept before 2AM yesterday because my laptop got confiscated so it was all risky business last night. Tbh i hate sleeping early because unless i'm dead tired, I get very vivid dreams that I don't want....I really hate it.
Today I was supposed to go out to the potting shed w/ Lisa and thuc but wasn't on merry terms with my mum last night so I wasn't allowed out. I did tutor work all day and wrote physics notes.

Watched more Angel beats and started Kotoura-san too which isn't that great despite the amount of hype Torrey put on it. I also am nearing the end of Season 6 of KUWTK. I am like ripping through the episodes, also meaning that I need to start downloading the other episodes. I also downloaded PLL but i haven't watched it yet. Not really that pumped for it that much any more, it's getting really repetitive and their stupidity is getting to me.

Today I realised that my contact solution was going to expire within the month so I was like "shit", I have to get the contacts that Lisa gave me in 2012 and put them in the case. It's been soaking and idk when I want to shove them in my eyeball.... Shove sounds really aggressive but yah idk

I hate these holidays lmao, i want to go back to school
Be happy and goodnight ♡










That's why we work

I don't know what this is even asking me to elaborate on(¿¿)
Am I meant to tell you the setting of my last kiss? Or what o_o
And this is probably excluding kisses from parents right?
So many holes in this challenge question
Um ok so last kiss was on a train¿¿ And it was a swift peck on the lips¿?
LOL HAHAHAHA sounds so stupid

OK EXITING
LMAO BYEEEEE

This question kind of came at a good time. Usually I would have something to write about but right now I guess I have a real worry.
Right now i probably have made it quite clear that I often have issues at home with my parents. And I really find most of the situations I get myself in to be quite miserable and I just think to myself, I will never...do this to my child ever. I don't want to become the type of parent who raises a child who resorts to being sneaky to get around. The precise type of child my parents raised me as is the sneaky kind. The one who has to get around the rules to get by and experience things that other children don't get in trouble for.
I hear about people staying up and parents walking in and instead of throwing their laptop to the ground or banning them from certain things, they merely say "hi" or "what are you doing up so late?"
So why do my parents do the throwing of my electronics and the screaming at 3AM.
And the screaming when I wake up....or when I'm doing homework... or at the dinner table...
It's just screaming on screaming on screaming...
What have I done seriously to get all this?
I worry i might turn into this type of parent since this is all i really know and the fact that I don't really hate the way i've turned out. You know what I mean?
I like the type of person i am and im only this way because my parents were strict.
What if me being not strict makes my children turn into brats?
I don't know and the dilemma is hurting my brain.
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Hello
Today wasn't too different from yesterday. Basically did the same things which means I just watched KUWTK. I also started watching Angel Beats, so far so good.
Did tutor work for a long time and I'm beat.
I keep getting told off for no reason  and it's reallly fucking taking a toll on me. I really rather go back to school. I'm tired. Tired of my parents and their expectations. I'm not tired in the sense of wanting to sleep. I don't want to sleep. So stop telling me to sleep. Go away.
I'm sorry if this is negative but yeah always 100% honesty on my blog
Be happy and goodnight ♡










But oh so genuine, your toxins

Hello
I'm really pissed right now so I'll dot point my day

• Woke up at 1PM
• Watched KUWTK
• Ate curry and rice
• Tutor

Cheating...yeah.
I never really thought it was that bad until someone did so to me? It's just sad and a really selfish act.
You think about it, it's like if you don't want to commit to a certain person then it's simple, just break up with them. Thinking it will hurt less by not telling them and going behind their back to do such things is worse...41254375835 times worse than simply breaking up. It's such a shitty way of showing the person you previously loved that you no longer want to be with them any more. You are essentially disrespecting something you had put an immense high value on. You are not only disrespecting that person but you are disrespecting your own choices. Yes, the choice was made in the past, but nevertheless it was your choice.
Also cheating on someone shows lack of commitment which is a valued attribute in life - and ultimately shows you are lacking.
And not only that but cheating is an obvious sign that you see relationships as merely a game, you can just pick things up when you want and throw it away for something new the next.
Relationships are not a game.
Feelings get hurt...badly and you can negatively change them as a person.
You make it hard for the next potential person to enter their lives because they develop these complex's on how relationships are and you alter their views - how they perceive love as a whole.
THE BOTTOM LINE IS DON'T CHEAT AND FUCK PEOPLE OVER.
IF U DO, GO TO HELLLLLL >:(

Hello
Was meant to go grocery shopping w/ parents but I slept in til 10:30AM I think. But that's because once again I slept at the hour of 6... It used to be 4AM where I'd die but now I can easily last til' 5AM... hah jokes I actually fall asleep in between sometimes but then wake up.
Anyway enough about my sleeping antics. Went Hurstville for lunch and once AGAIN i had sushi train. I think I'll turn into sushi soon. I feel sad sometimes mentioning things I've already tweeted. Ah the struggles of having a twitter and a daily blog simultaneously.

After that my mum drove to Bicentennial Park - Ahh the painful memories there of the biology excursion about Mangroves. Took the standard pictures w/ the fam bam then headed home.
Finished tutor hw and nao idk
Be happy and goodnight ♡










Beyond my control

*blushes* like omg he's so cute and makes me feel like everything is okay. He's so caring and talks to me like every so often, he's so deep and sensitive oh i just can't stay away from him hhehohhehhaheohohhoaha 
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Um yeah nah HAHHHAHAHA I don't like anyone. Because liking people is silly and I've learnt to not pursue seriously unless I'm quite sure I want to and can see myself married to them.

Sorry this was un-juicy and quite boring since I didn't reveal anything - there wasn't anything to reveal
SO yah
;)

Hellllo
I wanted omurice today and instead I had korean snacks and a little bit of sushi train????
Started off today showering, getting ready and all that jazz. Went to senpai's haos - helping get ready?? Not really apparently though lol... Anyways bought korean snacks and they were yummy ^_^
It was so cold at the city and I wore shorts lolol no-one was wearing shorts - weather at lakemba tricked me

Oh this reminds me... At Lakemba I got so many mean mug looks from cars, cars full of muslim families saying like Arabic to me from their cars and giving disapproved faces/hand gestures??? What? I think they were commenting on what I was wearing.... And then a greasy, shady looking man said something to me - it sounded inappropriate... LIKE I'M WEARING SHORTS, NOT A FUCKING BIKINI. Can you lay off? Just because I live in a suburb that dresses from head to toe literally, it doesn't mean that I have to as well...... And what I was wearing wasn't even that freaking bad. What the fuck lol... I felt so victimised. I wasn't showing boobs or butt. Just like 1/2 my legs since I had LONG socks on????? I just cannot deal. I know so many Muslims who I'm 100% okay with because they tolerate other people's choices and they understand that not everyone is on the same path in life.

Anyways just wandered around in city and tried to keep warm. Ate sushi train which was nice but didn't eat as much as I wanted to since I had Korean snacks...
Ate meetfresh and then helped out with buying clothes which was a success.
Trained it home and yah
Watching KUWTK rn and I'm going to shower then sleep though I probably won't lol...
Ok be happy and goodnight ♡










Inner warmth


Girls:


Today went to school today lol
I woke up at 8:30AM and I was meant to catch some train in the morning, yeah I didn't even know which one I was meant to catch. I just checked trip-view as I left the house. I didn't even eat breakfast properly, just grabbed 2 cookies - wrapped it in tissue. Ate it on the way to the station. Near the end I was like half jogging lol... though thank god it was a new train so I was able to cool down.
Walked to school with Bez.
Mr Lyons brought along his doge hehehhee so cute.
Anyway basically we spent 10AM-5:30PM on Shakespeare's King Lear.
We were pretty fried by the end of it.
We went to buy hot chips and pizza for our break so that was nice.
I ate pork roll as well...
But by the end of the day I felt so sick from the raw onion or shallot thing that's in it. It gives me headaches but it's so tasty so much dilemma.

Yah ok nao i'm home and i'm going to watch KUWTK
I want to eat legit omurice, i think i will go tmr
Be happy and goodnight ♡










in the fields wtf