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Hello
Had to wake up earlier than normal bc my tutoring time had been moved to earlier in the day/ Instead of 12:30-2:00PM session, it changed to 10:00AM-11:30AM which is pretty handy for me since it's so inconvenient to have a session that's smack bang in the middle of the day.
Anyway after tutor I had Taste of Cho rice which was hella good.



I had a reallly weird dream last night in which we had to hold a tribute of some sort towards this dead band member and I don't even know the band but in the time of the dream this person was apparently the best ever so I was like ok. Then my school put me in charge (??) why me lmao to organise. And for some reason our school was situated near a beach with a high cliff? How did we even get down there so fast?
I organised for everyone to have soft serves lol what and then it was like dusk and we all dipped our finger into the icecream and raised it to the sky as if that was the tribute???????????? Also I befriended this guy I have never met before that I think in the dream was v in love with me, never stopped meeting my eyes lmao, organised the music? And for some reason after I felt a lot of appreciation and compassion for that person BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHO HE IS AND HE AIN'T EVEN ATTRACTIVE OR ANYTHING BUT I CAN'T FORGET HIM. Like I want to say thank u irl but even if he did exist he'd be like.... "What for? Who are you? Go away???" LMAO WHAT DO I DO PLS

Hello
I haven't eaten breakfast for like 5 days now which is...not good. But I never feel hungry in the mornings any more. Anyway I woke up late today because v tired. Then I just sat in my chair all day.
My life is hella boring but I like doing nothing even if it does make me feel worthless at night time when I re-evaluate life. sdkaslkjfdafk.
I don't know what I am doing. I hear everyone is already getting into year 12 stuff...
Also my teacher....didn't get the head teacher job, ahhh that's terrible and ridiculous bc I don't see who could be better than him. I am going to miss him a lot.
Ahh... I don't know.
Was watching Ao Haru Ride today and it was frustrating and sad.
Anyway going to shower then read and hopefully sleep "early".
Be happy and goodnight ♡











For a certain bliss

Hellllo
I accidentally fell asleep last night with a make-up on and still fully clothed which wasn't good. And I had woken up at 4 AM and got the make-up off my face and got into some pyjamas.
Woke up and showered - made me feel so much better. I always find it so hard to bring myself to shower but I know that I will so amazing after.
I don't even really remember what occupied me in the morning.
I felt really gutted at lunch time and lost my appetite completely...
I really don't know what I want to share any more to be blatantly honest so I will just end it here for today.
Be happy and goodnight ♡










Never let it leave

Hello
Ok so today I was meant to wake at 7AM to awaken a homie so they wouldn't be late but I ended up sleeping until 10:22 or something. Woke up gave myself thumbs up to the mirror and whispered in my raspy morning voice...."good one lucy." HAHAHAHA
No idea what I wanted to eat for breakfast so I just didn't eat it.
No idea either how the day went by but yeah.
Watched YT vids and caught up on stuff.
Also lived majority of day quite alone but that's okay//
Scary stuff happened today but yeah yolo
Be happy and goodnight ♡











On a throne

“I used to think I couldn’t go a day without your smile. Without telling you things and hearing your voice back.
Then, that day arrived and it was so damn hard but the next was harder. And I knew with a sinking feeling it was going to get worse and I wasn’t going to be okay for a very long time.

Because losing someone isn’t an occasaion or an event. It doesn’t just happen once. It happens over and over again. I lose you every time I pick up your favourite coffee mug; whenever that one song plays on the radio, or when I discover your old t-shirt at the bottom of my laundry pile.

I lose you every time I think of kissing you, holding you or wanting you. I go to bed at night and lose you, when I wish I could tell you about my day. And in the morning, when I wake and reach for the empty space across the sheets, I begin to lose you all over again”

— Lang Leav








Lang Leav never fails seriously...
Her poems almost always have the ability to make me cry... .
ZZzzZzz

Teleported into senpai hq and it was gr9





Helllo
Went to "bankstown" in the morning
Shiba went to Senpai's haos tho
Helped organise the mess and yeah....
Went home and did maths tutor homework lmao how lame
Then got ready for social which was slightly rushed but all goods

MY DAD STRESSED ME OUT SO MUCH
MY MUM STRESSED ME OUT SO MUCH
I went off at everything I saw, was v angry
Then it was better when I saw everyone!!!! Everyone looked really nice :^)

Food was at first an exciting prospect then it wasn't so much any more
The bread kept us all stable and the salad was actually one the dishes that got more attention wtf lolol so unexpected
Many photos were taken of course
My sea sickness wasn't as bad as I thought it would be
Balloon was my only frand for a while hahahhaha
I felt kind of deflated halfway through the night and so I went to the top and sat on a chair....and just chilled out. Looked at the view and the cold air was numbing but idk it felt euphoric in a way to be able to be on a boat at night. I felt sad though, it's a given you'd feel sad looking out like that but it was okay. Senpai phoned me and gave me some insight.

Went back downstairs of about an hour and a half of being on the top.
Last 20 minutes I "danced" lmao basically just bobbed knees/swayed/lifted hands into air (white girl danced) but in reality the white people danced better and MORE than the rest of us combined.
Highlight was seeing Majid and Jeff after. It felt really nice idk why.
FEET WERE DEAD.COM

Went home and curled up into bed after a quick shower and watched 2 vlogs and yah.
Phoned for a millenium then slept.
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Yeah... I was so "social" lmao





I FUCKING DIED WATCHING THIS
Love these YouTubers so much

I will post soon ok ceebs 2 da max

Hello
I just stayed at home in the morning when my parents went out to grocery shopping.
They came home and we decided to go out to eat maccas and then to go to officeworks to get my dad a computer so he can watch asian dramas easily.
I spent the majority of the afternoon just setting up the laptop.

Also had some painful hair removal sessions with my mum in preparation for social but it was pretty funny at the same time.
I also helped my mum clear her nose pores. She was so happy after, she's like "I have a new nose!!"

I had an episode with my mum that even prompted my dad to leave the house because he was like "nope." lmao. I fucking lost it. It was pretty funny after though when my mum described her point of view to me LMAO.... for e.g. I had picked up my bed and I didn't know what to do with it so I put it back.... How embarrassing hahahhaha
Dinner was fuss free though and the night went by okay.
Mmmm Social tmr.
Be happy and goodnight ♡










and thread to fix you

Helllo
I slept super early last night, slept at 12:00AM... weow haven't voluntarily slept that early in a while. But my eyes were swollen and stinging so sleeping was the only thing I could really think to do. And waking up my eyes felt just as tired. I also had a dream last night and I was eating a burger but then my mum woke me up so I didn't finish wth man lolol hate it when that happens, even worse when you haven't even had the chance to eat it yet.

Anyway got up and read some of 'Away', our English text.
And then got ready to go to tutor.
SO EMBARRASSING TODAY AT TUTOR...... My stomach would not stop rumbling and it was so fkn loud. And the thing is I have a private tutor!!!!!!! He was right next to me but the cute thing was we both were hungry so our stomachs just alternated lmao HAHAHA
But still OTL (weow i never use OTL)

SAW A SHIBA INU WHEN I WAS WAITING TO BE PICKE D UP OMG IT WAS SO CUTE
HIS/HER HEAD WAS POPPED OUT OF THE CAR WINDOW!!!!! SO BLOODY ADORABLE!!!
I want a shiba so bad...................
Got into the car and ate my taste of cho rice, so good. (^0^)

Yah got home and finished Tokyo Ghoul and god damn that was a good episode and I love kaneki so much in the end. And he becomes so attractive :>
Started Ao Haru Ride and man I know... I JUST KNOW I am going to cry so much because I can relate a lot  >__>
Hmmmm yeah what else
Doing some work now because I realise even now I need to be on top of my work....not rly going to let myself rest anymore than I need to.
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Minus Seven





LOL EMILY you like the 2014 league championships trailer thing?????!!! Me too hehe

Hello
I had walked into school seeing not one year 11 in sight. Of course the year 12s were not present either so the school was basically filled with juniors + year 10s. So I was very confused, was I even meant to be at school? But I guess majority of my year were in the library or in some other nook or cranny. I literally never see anyone I know in the mornings anymore. I remember there used to be a place where everyone would sit and in the morning you could go there and talk to people but yeah nah.

Maths was terrible as usual. 2 periods of it, kill me? Also Mr Gouzoulis came and sat in our class and yeah idk don't want to think about it.
The only class where I can whole-heartedly laugh and enjoy myself is economics. Everyone was just too hilarious.
And English today was pretty cute but I was late to the party which is so sad because I wasn't there for the anticipation part of the surprise .... :(

Though I was basically in a terrible mood the whole day.
And it was further exemplified as the day went on esp. in Physics, I was so close to losing it.
Yeah idk
Horrid night zz...
Don't look forward to these holidays or having interactions with anyone. I hope the social boat sinks lmao.
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Because no matter your effort
I win

Helllo
[Thursday]
It was the day after the continuous back to back exams we had. And I had walked into school in a daze until Sherry or someone had called me. My class was right in front of me and I didn't even know or remember. I don't even remember why I was in such a daze.
Maths was unpleasant.
Physics was pretty fascinating I must say. Mr Murphy really opened my eyes up with how we should be studying. Taught us about information recall and also about short term memory and long term memory.
Biology was disappointing, I got 11/15 I think and I had changed so many answers when I rly should have just left them.
I didn't bring any books with me because i rly didn't expect to do any work and we didn't really other than Ancient History of course. Mr Jackson was on the ball and kept going with the Persia stuff.
Year 12 graduation today and it's sad to see them leave and it's so scary how fast they got to year 12 when I can still rmb them as "year 8s" when we were in year 7. They were a delightful year to have as our seniors and I will miss seeing their faces. We're the eldest in the school now. Holy shit.
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Soul

I'll post tmr, not in the mood today for some reason and didn't want to deliver a shit/moody post.
Have a good night guys.

Today I had 2 exams which were Ancient History in the morning and a bio practical in the afternoon. The Ancient History one wasn't too bad, felt like I wrote a lot. I wrote 4+ pages for the extended response... My pen did not want to stop. Finished and there was still 10 minutes for me to spare.

After that, paid for the english excursion during recess.
Basically just waited around for the bio practical which was super boring but I guess it was good because I got to catch up with various people like Tri, Greg, Sherry etc. It was nice.
Mmmmm then finally after a million years started the bio practical and man it was hella easy, like i expected a rly hard one that would be of slight resemblance to the physics one where i got fked in.
But it was very do-able and Mr Beasely(??) as our supervising teacher was rly relaxing. Also Ms Padilla wasn't even that bad, she even like cracked a joke. She told us about how people freaked out about seeing nothing under the microscopes but it was because they didn't turn it on lmao.
Majid waited in the library like a faithful nigga he is hahhahah idk why he waited but yeah companion to the station and then yeah.

Went home and made a smoothie, made a chicken/avo sandwich for my dad and made guacamole for myself. Watched some much needed vlogs and played mabinogi hehe.
Did a dungeon today!! It was so lengthy, senpai did alllll the work tbh but still tiring somehow for me. Got a hella amount of gold though ^__^

But yeah EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPINESSSSSS AND FREEDOM but idek what to do, freedom has kinda felt like a foreign thing. It's like "So much free time??!?/1/!" "Wtf do i even do????" But yeah yolo. I'm starting the unhealthy habit of saying yolo.

OH and additonally the year 12 mural wall thing looks excellent but I swear with shelley on our hands and michelle and selina and all the super art people, our one will be amazeballs.
YEAH OK wrote too much, blabbered...........somebody staple my lips hahahhaha kidding it's my fingers doing the walking.
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Um...Cue: Coughing fit









Hello
Ext 1. Maths test
Stressed about it immensely in the morning but my mum pep talked me into thinking that it wouldn't be so bad and it helped because mainly i'm scared of disappointing her
The test wasn't even that difficult but nobody had enough time and talking about it after was pretty funny.
Went to senpai's haos and played w/ ming ming hehe cutie
MMmMmm nice afternoon hehe ^____^_^__^__^_^
And just studied for A.H. and I feel a bit fried
Oh wellllllllll sleep late, die in da mornz (teenage policy)
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Joking/intense

Hellllo
Had economics test hahhahha ah haha what a joke
During 5 min reading time I was like laughing to myself because I literally hadn't studied anything that was in that test
I just bullshitted my way through and I hope I get like 60% at the very least
Also I was getting the fuzzies when doing multiple choice so I dabbed some water on my finger tips from my water bottle and then applied it to my eyes to wake them up lmao those measures I had to take lolol pls don't judge

Anyway, walked out of the test to see the assembly, awks and also ppl were applauding? thanks? lolol but yeah.
Went home straight after and I feel like I wasted a lot of time doing practically nothing
I really should be studying my butt off for Ext. 1 Maths tmr but I don't feel the drive
I think maybe I will work on it srsly after I eat dinner????? hahhhaha er who knows
Wish me luck yah
Be happy and goodnight ♡











The spontaneity

Posts will be rolling in, hold onto your seatssss

Hello
[For Sunday]
Woke up at 6:20AM to get ready to send my grandparents to the airport!! :(
We had so many road issues that led to my dad's road rage where he didn't let people cut in by simply stopping the car in the middle of the road and we just applauded mockingly in the backseat whilst also giving a few rude fingers here and there.
Went in and helped grandparents check in, then went to send them off. Sad :(!!! My mum cried then I cried and yeah. After that ordeal, I got a toasted BLT bagel, it was so delicious.


Also found my social dress at Forever New LOL wtf and they had a sale so instead of paying for $100, we payed $80 which is a pretty good deal. It's sun dress so idek if it's appropriate but yolo.
Went grocery shopping, I literally haven't gone for months.
For lunch we had sushi train, it has also been months!!! I missed it so much. Had many foodgasms.

Got home and studied.
Idk... felt like I slept hella late idek
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Stuck, waiting for something non-existent

Sorry for not posting, I've written them but I just haven't posted. I will post all of them after yearlies kk.

Helllo
Once again I felt like sleeping in forever but I got told off. I don't know why the majority of the time the thing I get told off most for is to do with sleeping. If I sleep late, take naps or sleep in, in the morning, I get my ass whooped... Why :(
Then I went to tutor but before that bought some Mr Cho's rice or something idk there was a huge line for it. It was actually pretty delicious, I can see why people go mental over it in Hurstville and really anywhere that sells it.
Um yeah mabinogi when I came home....
I don't know what else I really did
I feel v tired
Be happy and goodnight ♡










Reliant

Hello
Did biology exam, during 5 minute reading time in my head I was like "Fak" because there was a lot that I didn't know. Majority of the things I had concentrated on weren't in the test!1!! Why does that always happen to all of us?? Had a system with Majid so we could communicate the multiple choice and we ended up having each other's answers so we will see who comes out victorious. >_>
Welllll anyway, studied for economics.
Senpai's haos - first watched new episode of Tokyo Ghoul then played bomber-man??? After that, boom boom fireworks and it pissed me off v much bcos i got 3 million whilst senpai got 10 million like are you kidding me? Tried UNO but it wasn't multi-player. Then played halo and man I suck at panning the camera whilst walking and aiming at the same time lmao.
Then went home and started Mabinogi!! It's so cute and I think I will lose myself in this game, it's like SAO. Now it's the doki doki event where you do couple things... and the island is so pretty!!! Has all this Sakura.


Hello
Physics exam today and everyone hardly studied LOL
I studied for 20 minutes in the morning just reading over notes and other people just studied on the train lol. Also I didn't even bother tying up my hair for the test meaning that it isn't even important lol. Only for tests I take seriously do I ever tie my hair up.... yah ....
The teacher that was supervising the test was so bloody annoying and she kept pacing back and forth...
Once again the clock went off with Christmas Music. I didn't mention it in the my previous post but yeah lol yesterday Mr Gouzoulis was like "Christmas in September" LMAO
Anyway the test destroyed me lol...... oh welll...... Dropping anyway right???? I am aiming for 50% and I'm scared I'm not even going to get that.
Went to the faraway lands to get N2 and it was goot.
It was a nice and sunny day. Walked a lot. Yeah idk.
I realised everyone blogs in a particular style. I like that.
Hmmm studying for bio rn and on my breaks I'm watching vlogs. Man.... vlogs complete me.
Be happy and goodnight ♡










So you can watch me fall




Hello
2U Maths analed a few people sorry for the savage use of words but dang. I mean it was do-able but still.... a lot of people after the test were like "Oh what was that question" blah blah.
Yah basically went to compile physics study material. Missed several trains and then ate. Then attempted to study but lmao fail fail fail.
So basically just chilled out and had fun at the park lmao.
Yeah idek why I didn't post yesterday. Exams are fucking up my routine.
Didn't even study properly in the end.
Dead.
Be happy and goodnight ♡










And relaxed




Hello
Stayed home all day and studied for 2U
It was so hot wtf
It was also super boring
And the school marked me away?? Um excuse me... I dropped Ext. English already? ZzzzZz
Yeah that's all I rly have to say, sorry this was super boring.
Be happy and goodnight ♡










Doesn't get you anywhere tbh

Hellllo
Adv. English Yearly today!! Fell asleep pretty late due to stress and then woke at 6:10AM in the morning, I can't believe I managed to get my ass out of bed today.
Got to school, all of year 11 in the quad area... everyone on time. It was interesting to see as usually not one year 11 is to be sighted.
In that 40 minutes with everyone furiously writing, we all came out alive. We don't have to think about writing an English essay for a while now... ^_^
The rest of the day was spent just... studying....  lol....
*Cough*
Saw Annie today in the library hahhhaha and pls don't question what I was doing LOL pretend you saw nothing and if you have no idea what I'm talking about then good!!! HAHA
Anyway I have not spent my night properly in terms of studying. I am so ceebs.
I was going to post the watermelon icecream pictures but I feel like I've posted that everywhere already, maybe another time.
Be happy and goodnight ♡











it's comforting

Hello
I'm getting behind on blog posts!!!! Nooo my worst fear... Yeah idk not really but omg in other news my wish has been granted, Shelley has started to blog again!!!! ^_^ V happy about that. Is that weird that I'm happy about that? Idk. 
Hmmm basically the whole Sunday I WASTED, I mean I tried but not hard enough and twitter was crazy. It was filled with people just panicking their heads off about their english exams.....me included lmao. 
But yeah
ATE SUSHI AGAIN!!!!! ^___^
I wonder when the day will come when I get sick of it because I get sick of every food eventually.
YAhhhahHAhah 
OK
Be happy and goodnight ♡










Engulfed by the horizon

I'll blog tmr maybe or later idk I just need to get my shit together real fast or else the eND IS NEAR

Hello


Helllo
I rly dread Fridays because I know something always goes wrong somehow.

{forgot to finish my blog post from last night}

I'm usually consumed with tutor homework on Fridays so that is why I always miss this day's post in particular. Anyway the day was as mentioned before not that great/ But I don't need to share that aspect because private and also I don't really wish to read back on it.
But yeah.... paid for the year 12 jacket + cardigan. I thought they were $90 each but turns out they were $92 each which meant I was $4 short but bless Beryl's soul, she lent me some money so yah phew.
But yeah seriously nothing even happened.
Started to play sims freeplay on my phone, uh oh LOL
Be happy and goodnight (not even night time) ♡









When will you let it go

Hello
Don't rly want to talk about the classes today bcos they all sucked. Not really but what's the point - it's too boring as content.
You know you're a loner, when it's lunchtime and you don't know where to go hahhaha how sad. So I just turned on my cellular data and went on twitter and smiled to myself. But yeah srsly didn't know where to go. Corinne was at IKEA and Majid was playing handball so yeah lmao.
Also visiting the toilets more than 3 times in a day to pass time HAHAHHAHA ok it's sounding real sad now. But it's better than laughing along to stuff that's not funny right????????
LOL OK not everyday was like today, it was just an awkward day.
Errr yah....
Played league when I went home.... yerrhhh not even going to try to hide it anymore. I only did hide it before because I was realllyyy shitty at it but now I'm average. I won all my games today but I played w/ senpai and his level along with my level averages out the players we verse. So I was playing against silver rank people when I'm not even bronze lolllll so it was difficult in a sense compared to the games I'm used to. A lot of screaming happened. I don't like playing with senpai but idm/enjoy it at the same time. It's odd.
I NEED TO FINISH MY NOTES PLS LORD GIVE ME STRENGTH
Sims 4 is out too, pewds' gameplay is hilarious hhahahha watch it 


Be happy and goodnight ♡









It gives you away

READ THIS ARTICLE:
http://www.trulybuddha.com/8-things-to-remember-when-everything-goes-wrong/

I was in a really down mood in the afternoon
and reading this article and watching Anna Akana's Video
And it helped me a lot



Hello




Hello
Finished watching 'Momento' today and I had already spoiled the ending for myself last week but knowing actually helped me understand the movie better. I put things together faster. It's such a dense movie and so much can be obtained from it and it's not even that bullshit where you put meaning into everything you see in the movie but in actuality, it's just so juicy.
Physics was quite enjoyable today. We started off just being in the science classroom D10 and upon walking in I actually developed an instant headache - I jokingly blamed it on the radiation prac we did yesterday. And Ben was so nice, he was about to offer me Codeine for my headache but I didn't really need it.
Then we all moved to the library and had conversations with Mr Murphy and amongst ourselves, it was pretty funny.
Um yeah that was all I really wanted to say.
I've been in a terrible mood since the afternoon when I woke up from an hour long nap.
And right now I feel even shittier...Gr9
Be happy and goodnight ♡









Fucking basics

Changed my banner, was sick of the Ariana banner LOL
I think...this one is temporary...
I hate how you can't see the tabs
I will find a new one soon.......
If you can't tell already I'm procrastinating, nooooooo!!!!

Hello
So many people seemed to be away today, not sure why but yeah I felt like that was a prominent thing about today. It also was so hot in the afternoon, I'm guessing it was probably only around 23 degrees but in comparison to the 10-18 degree weather all throughout Winter, 23 degrees was so hot in comparison. I managed to even work up a sweat when walking home.

But thank god today was the last sports lesson we will ever have!!!! Yes!1!!!!


Hello
Woke up late like every other Sunday and it felt so good!!! I looked like a mess though. I tied my hair up in a bun to sleep for some reason so I had crazy, unflattering curls that just looked like frizz.
I don't even know why I'm mentioning that lol, so irrelevant. But anyway, woke up and just gamed...lmao because double IP weekend haha so yah. I won 5/6 games I played today hehe. Used both my new skins as well hohoho.
ANYWAY attempted my economics notes once again and there is still a long road ahead of me but a shorter one if I just bothered a little more.
Had Big Mac Meal and it was so good .... The right amount of big mac sauce, cheese and pickles yesss. But I also felt shitty after so I might give up on Maccas for a little while.
Um yeah basically my day was just spent sitting in my chair lol how depressing... I mean did you see the weather we had today?! It was so nice. Spring is technically already here since it's 00:07 right now as I type.
But I will still end on saying that it was the last day of Winter. I am going to miss it ...
But yeah, be happy and goodnight ♡









Only so much you can do