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Hello
I hated today. I didn't want to be at school one little bit.
Subjects were:

• English
• Double bio 
• Ancient Hist.
• Maths

I guess maths wasn't too bad due to emily and chow - my faves ...going to be so sad to leave them behind when I apparently...have to move to the other class :(
Going home was nice though, got to talk to corinne on the train. Also getting home made me feel more at ease.
Played a bot game of league with majid with my new frostfire annie skin hehe I love using it bc the animation is all frost instead of fire - looks so nice.
Catching up on Tokyo Ghoul bc idk why I didn't bother with Root A as much but now I'm getting back into it. Watching 4th ep rn.....
Be happy and goodnight ♡










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Hellllo
I think they started to sell valentines roses today!! Wtf I wanted our group or at least like the artsy people to do it lmao but I guess we weren't in contact with our year advisor so yerrrr.......
Anyway I don't know why I mentioned that first.
I came to school early... when my first class is at 11:00AM... but i didn't want to walk to school so my mum sent me instead - fell asleep in the car btw lol
Had a senior assembly (boring) just talked to Anna and Corinne lolol about irrelevant things.
Felt dead during the breaks and it was just unpleasant bc I had all these issues relating to my sicknesses.
Classes:

• math - inverse functions ( T ^ T )
• biology (wot)
• english (machiavelli and julius caesar) 
• math again (ffs) - OMG bc we have this extra class in period 6, it classes with my ancient hist. class that scheduled for period 6 thursday as well..... so basically I have to move maths classes.... with one other person in my class... wow wtf :( 

Hello
(sorry I didn't blog on the actual day - I was so sick that I just went to bed at 11PM)
Got to school on time, right on the dot at 8:45AM
Had a year meeting sort of thing where we got our diaries, notes, timetables and our year 12 jackets!!
I had P1 and P2 off so I just chilled in the cafeteria.

Then had double ancient with Jackson and he changed the double to it being on Thursday Period 6.
English was the same old (referring to what he taught us in the holidays). Had a class in the food tech room um what why???? I hate it when I have a class in a totally unrelated building to what the subject is. The head teacher took Mr Lyons' room f5 :(
Mr Kokkorogiannis is back to teach us eco!! His intro was interesting HAHAHHA I forgot exactly what he said but it was funny.

Uh yeah.... waited afterschool for majid thinking his class would finish at 4:00PM.... It ended up finishing at 4:27PM.... dude I waited in the cold for an hour when I was already sick. And he was sending text msgs to me that was imessage when my phone doesn't even get imessages anymore since the data i had was all used up..... So I waited in the cold playing flappy bird and it got me so pissed....
I wanted to beat my fucking ugly 44 score but every time I got to 44 I died.... FML MAN Hate flappy bird and why the hell am I still playing it LOL lame

Did economics work but then my head ached, my ear ached, my throat hurt.... and I felt so weak...my eyes stung, so I was like yep, I have to sleep... so I did???? LOL jokes..... ended up having a stupid conversation that made me really emotional ...resulting in me sleeping at 3AM... k den
Be happy and goodnight ♡










the most quintessential pairing

Shut the fuck up

Hello
Sob sob today is the last day of the holidays and I woke up with a sore throat. I feel like that's the worst thing to wake up with (I think Corinne can agree with me on that bc it always happens to us). I slept relatively early for once (by accident) and woke up at 6:00AM. Talked to the nigga for a bit bc I accidentally woke him with my texts, then died again until 8:30AM??? Then fell asleep again and woke up at 10:29AM lol story of my life.

Started to get ready to go out.... I wish I wasn't sick bc I really wanted to enjoy today's weather but instead I had to wear more than I usually would.
Had a really nice afternoon ^___^
Umm yeah I don't really know what else to do, really just need to brace myself for tmr... Ahh it's so daunting to go back esp. since this year it's our last everything.

Yerrr need to pack my bag??????????
Also! My mum and I are now on better terms and the other situation has also been alleviated.
Kkkkk c u all tmr
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Artfully









Hello
Yeah quite a shitty morning, like it was really bad. It was related to the problem I had yesterday morning with my mum. It's always the worst when the morning starts off bad esp. if it's with my mum. I'm pretty close with her so when we have issues..I hate it.

Umm had Laksa noodles for lunch!! So yummy and spicy... Was really full after eating it - was in food coma ~_~

The afternoon was anxious anxious anxious :(
And then it got a bit chaotic; it was just all sorts of angry and frustration.
Ok so basically my whole afternoon wasn't very good, I was pretty distraught after it all.
Though, it sort of picked up....eventually.

Had a pleasant dinner \(` - `)/
Printed some resumes for a friend and then showered (HAIR IS SO WET)
So idk when I'll sleep and my eyeballs r starting to hurt :(
School is a day away, don't know how to feel about that.
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Unlike any other intensity

Helllo
Today wasn't great, not because I didn't do much but because for some reason I managed to upset my mum in the morning and for the whole day she has hardly spoken a word to me. I mean she threw a strawberry kit kat at me when she was shouting at me... I don't know man. OH MY GOD SHE'S ON HER PERIOD, I just realised now. Maybe dis be pms.

Anyway didn't eat breakfast because I felt a bit sad bc she wasn't talking to me so I had no appetite.
Had maccas for lunch and I didn't even want to go downstairs bc it was my dad repeatedly calling me, my mum didn't even try once to call me. I NEED ATTENTION, MUM PLS :(((

Rest of the day was watching vlogs, PLL and anime.
What life is this lol...
Um yeah GOING TO SLEEP SOON (lying again)
AND SCHOOL IS IN LIKE 2 MIN d.e.a.d.
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Stable

1038 views so far this year hmm v naice hi5 lucy

Hello
I really loved today!!! Mainly because it was my last day for holiday tutoring
Also bc I met up with majid after and it was so chill
Like the weather was hot but the places we like went weren't too bad, like there was always some sort of shade. Ate quite a variety of foods because we're fatties....well I am.

We had:

• Signature Herbal Jelly at Meetfresh
• Tamayaki's Unagi Takoyaki MmMmm
• Chanoma Tonkatsu Japa dog and red bean dango
• Sea-salt icecream with fairyfloss and marshmallow
• Winter Melon Tea w/ milk foam and pearls

Hello
Today was just a combination of hot and cold

• Hot walking to station
• Cold on the train
• Hot walking to tutor
• Cold at tutor
• Hot walking to town hall
• Cold on the train
• Hot walking to my mum's workplace
• Cold in her workplace

....Dude

That actually sums up my day pretty accurately which makes my job easier
Funny run in with Hardy today LOL
So I went to the Jap Bakery again and as I walked in I saw Hardy and he was about to leave...
Lucy: Oh! Hey!!
Hardy: *almost out of shop* The pizza is gud
Lucy: Yep!!
HAHAHAHA

At Bondi - was so boring, had to wait for mum to finish work so I could catch a ride home lel
Ate my takoyaki bun and curry potato pan ^_^
Then bought chatime (coconut milk tea w/herbal jelly) and also went to aboutlife to get garlic dip -w-
It's dairy free and also gluten free~

Man...as the days pass I dread school more and more
But what I am excited for is our year 12 jackets!!! And to use my new loose sheet paper things and new diary lol that's it
Be happy and goodnight ♡











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Hellllo
Fell down on my stairs this morning and that made me late to tutor by one train
Basically limped my way to the station. I hate living 22 min away ~_~
Tutor was alright, actually feel like I'm learning a lot of things I actually missed out at school when I wasn't listening and only copying examples + solutions.
I didn't feel so dreadful because yeah had something to look forward to ^_^
Went back to Lakemba and got fed some kind of delicious manoush with "random meatballs and tomatoes" - I couldn't even taste the tomatoesss!!! And I freaking hate tomatoes.
Then had to do something so embarrassing :( but I'm not going to say what but trust, one day it will happen to all of you!!!! Ok not that serious but yeah v embarrass.
Top afternoon/10 tbh ^_^
For my dinner I had 3 slices of Hawaiian pizza MmmmMm so good and then had an almond magnum at home --- sorry fat life (which i need to stop asap)
Anyway showered then finished tutor homework
Feel liberated
Nice day
Be happy and goodnight ♡











It's a pun

Hello
I find my tutor so awkward, like I had to share an elevator with him all the way and like can you not lol, never going to do that again
Anyway to avoid meeting him again I went the long way (town hall) to catch the train since I buy Lakemba to City tickets all the time.
On my way there I stopped at my favourite jap bakery that I haven't been to in so long and bought myself lunch!! I bought Curry Pan and also some chicken thing????? (i dun rmb) encased in this heavenly bread ;w;
So I demolished the breads on the platform waiting and then also whilst on the train
Had to walk home....and there was raw onion in the sauce on the chicken thing and for some reason I can't eat raw onion without dying.......so I had this pounding headache the whole way home, walking like a retard bc if I shook too much the god damn migraine-like headache just got that much worse.

Got home and showered - it fixed me somehow
Nice dinner of rice and tofu fish (my fav!!!) cooked with green capsicum ♡_♡

Had an argument with my mum to end the night...
Wasn't in the mood but senpai made me feel 100% again then I fell asleep
Is it cringe that i call him senpai?? sorry lol
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Without even peripherals

Hello
I was so tired as usual upon waking and as usualllll I got told off haha...joy
Went back to sleep and was almost late to tutor again lel
Tutor was a bore and I swear to god he got so many things wrong and Hardy was clearly like "wtf" the whole time, yeah I don't blame him.

I totally misjudged the weather, when I had woken a bit at around 9, it was full raining outside so when I had woken again at around 11 something, I thought the whole day would be cold yeah...nah...
I wore a freaking sweater, tights and booties....
Got picked up by my dad and yer

Uh didn't do anything special when I got home
I ate a big bowl of ramen and a frozen banana as a "desert"?
Napped after
Woke up feeling crap

My mum got my kikki.K diary exchanged bc I realised that it's too high maintenance and it looks like an old person's diary on the inside. The one I got instead is so cute I can't even.....and also got an extra two pens with the exchange bc there was like $7 extra.
And, oh yeah, last night I watched I Can't Understand What My Husband Is Saying and it was hilarious to me lolol even though it was a bit lame
Yeah idk what else to mention
MY DAYS R SO REPETITIVE.... It's like a school day......
I want to go out and do nothing in particular....not tutor god damn it
My tutor ends this Saturday //// School starts 3 days after that :(
Ok be happy and goodnight ♡











Smooth is boring I guess


Hello
Basically woke
Slept again
Then got ready for tutor in a flurry
Weather was so nice today!!! Made me really look forward to Autumn and Winter

Had different tutor today, kinda looked like a doctor LOL
Did so many questions to do with loan and repayment lel kill me
2 different girls in my class and they were friends... yeah probably I'll sit next to Hardy tmr
They weren't as friendly as Elaine LOL even tho I hardly formed a friendship with her, I still kind of miss that mutual kindness we had to eachother...
I believe one was called Esther and the other May Chen??? I actually know May from last time I went holiday tutor but I think she forgot me LOL so oh well

Bumped into tutor when I got to Lakemba.....Awks
Went home and just chilled, watched vlogs as usual and watched anime.
Idk I think I will go lay in bed now
Be happy and goodnight ♡











but I don't mind

I usually wouldn't write a post like this on my 365 blog spot but I felt like it's been such a prominent thought in my mind that I thought it was probably necessary to express it here.

You know last year I experienced a heart-dropping week or so. Nothing felt right. And don't jump to conclusions, it wasn't a breakup or anything obviously because I didn't have a significant other and I still don't - but anyway the feeling was just horrible. I stood there as someone walked into this situation where I already knew the outcome of. I knew that the person they were to encounter would be poison. In fact the first time I had ever heard their voice, I knew. I don't know how this premonition came along but the gut feeling was so strong I couldn't shake it. Yet you were someone that responded massively to reverse-psychology. The more people try to stop you, the more you'll go for it to prove yourself ...
And so you went into this head on and all I could do was watch. Continue to live with this sick, putrid feeling in my chest. It was heavy to walk around with it, sleep with it and I could hardly eat.

That particular night though was the worst.
I mean the afternoon was queasy... but the night... I don't know how I managed.
To have a horrible mental image of what was occurring and being helpless.
To be this lone wolf ad mist everyone's oblivious thoughts. To be worrying on my own about something that was happening out of my control so far away.
The worst was the call; the call I received once it was over. But it wasn't over because it was a call to re-confirm my fears - it was worse because it's like having your imagination and the reality as a split screen but then for them to merge together as one....
It felt like a boulder on my chest, no longer a simple weight.

I know you guys reading will honestly have no clue. That's a given because I am being extremely vague. I'm more so concentrating on conveying the feelings rather than describing the actual situation as that is honestly no-one's business. And it's been long over but every time I recall it again (recently I've thinking about it a lot) it just kills me and reduces me to a fetus position..
I just want to sleep or zap it out of my brain or something that will help me try to make it not exist.


And really? I wish they didn't exist in the first place.

Hello
Today was a completely dead day in my opinion, I hardly did anything productive. I either felt tired or relieved that I had a day off tutoring.

The only thing that was semi-exciting was the vlogging that I managed to do but I made sure I did it in one go... bc rn editing just can't happen without my laptop exploding and me exploiting adobe for their free trials lmao.

Any way.....
School is starting soon and I don't even want to think about it
but I just did, asfjklnsdjffksdskdk
I just got a mosquito bite as welllllll - not happy
I'm going to kill dat bug
Be happy and goodnight ♡











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Hello
A lot of bad energy today :(

• my dad wouldn't send me to the station this morning so I had to walk in the heat ... 
• friend almost missed the train
• got there late
• someone took our seats at the cinema bc someone took theirs ...
• naruto was good but i had to leave halfway for tutor :(
• tutor didn't come for 1hr lel but got to know my class, we talked for so long and laughed so hard when we all hardly knew eachother!! 
• hardy, wenzel, edward and elaine were their names lolol and we were full discussing our schools and edward comes from trinity and fuar their school is so funded :( 
• after that i went to meetfresh to meet with the crew - ate mango crushed ice thing + sig. herbal jelly ^_^ that majid bought for me but every else ended up sharing LOL obviously
• walked around darling harbour and killed time
• ok more like wasted time 
• went back to town hall bc majid wanted ramen (craving sparked from watching naruto)]
• then we got green tea soft serves at chanoma~ 
• got sick of it real fast
• bumped into adnan lol!!!
• then bumped into daud and this other guy i forgot his name
• talked for a bit then i had to leave
• was on the train with jenny and talked about league
• mum picked me up from the station
• went home and did tutor hw
• eyes stung 
• stayed up watching parasyte and vlogs but my companion had to leave so i fell asleep waiting for them to come back lollll damn it 

Hello
Woke up hella early today because I needed to go breakfast/brunch with Corinne and I had only really had 1.5hrs of sleep which wasn't very good.
Headed out and met Corinne on the train and had a good talk, laughed a lot, the usuallll ^_^
Then we headed for Devon Cafe
So awkward when they don't have vegan options and Corinne had to create her own
I got the dish I've always wanted: Breakfast with the Sakuma's
It was so nice!!!!!!!! But so expensive and the waiter was even suggesting that I add truffle on it which was an additional $14...I really wanted it but then I knew I would've regretted it. I'll try truffle when i'm older lolol, my young tastebuds don't deserve such divine flavours.

Anyway after that we went Daiso ^____^
Bought a lot of shiz well not that much but yeah that was my second Daiso visit in a week
So far I've gotten 8 things man - which is $22.40 :(
I need to control myself

After that I went tutor and ceeeeebs man
Caught a loud, old train back home and that was shit
Tmr I'm watching The Last: Naruto The Movie with some niggas
Anyway.........
Be happy and goodnight ♡











And I will document






Hello
So today I fucked up and I woke up reallly late
I usually wake at around 9 or 10 but today I woke up at 11......and only bc my dad came up to wake me, yep...if he hadn't then I would've still been sleeping :(

Anyway got ready in like record time and then shot out of the door like a comet
Got there on time thank the lord tho something else reallllllyyyyyy embarrassing happened prior to going to tutor but I won't go into that (this is just a reminder to myself so I never forget lol)
Tutor is so boring when it's just revising zz
Um yeah
After I went daiso and got a tripod, clear iPhone case, and two eyebrow pencils!!
Then went home and ate ^__^
It was so fulfilling mmmmm
Yah rest of the night was just fiddling with my camera and watching more itsjudyslife hehe makes me happy
ANYWAYS tmr will be a good day
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Your charisma


Hello
Ok so basically my morning is same everyday and it's going to be the same for the next 2 weeks
So let's get to the interesting part
I was power walking to tutor in the morning and on Sussex St I see Stanley first and I was like wtf and then I SEE LUKE WITH A GIRL HOLDING HIS HAND
Dude... Stanley was 3rd wheeling Luke WHAT IN THE WORLD LOL
So was late twice (Mon, Tues) and then today I was on time and MY TUTOR WAS LATE GUYS I'M TELLING U IT'S A CONSPIRACY

Anyway so did parametrics....kill me....
Yeah it was nothing special

I went home after and ate my sandwich whilst reading The Prince
So annoying though bc there were these girls who were like criticising everyone on the train silently but I freaking heard them. And they were honestly not even that great and what gives them the right to snigger and be so rude on public transport.

It was so hot today as well holy hell, thank god for my dad (been picking me up from the station everyday)

Did tutor work, tidied my desk, watched itsjudyslife's vlogtober and yeah.
Also got my 2015 diary finally!!!! It's so pretty hehe.
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Easily imposed

I just saw a tweet that really pissed me off
It said something along the lines of "girls who think they're gamers just bc they play league"
Hmm I play league right... and I've ever claimed to be a gamer cos like wth I play like one game.
But what I hate about that statement is the amount of hate and criticism that league seems to always carry with everyone. Like dude....... I know so many people who haven't even played League and they hate it. Um.... wot
And people are like omg it's such an easy game, there's no challenge....Uh..yeah why don't you like give it a go then you can say all that shit? I'm sure if you play you'll realise it's hard in it's own way meaning you'll fuck up so hard when you start. If it was so easy, it should be a piece of cake when you are a beginner right?
People then come along with arguments with how the community is "toxic" yerrr i'm pretty fucking sure every online game has it's "toxic" crowd. And y'all Dota elitists need to realise that most people who play LoL also play Dota so like??? Isn't it odd that you say your community is better when it's filled with the people you apparently despise so much??
LOL FUNNY RIGHT
PLs just stop bc you're embarrassing yourself and honestly you just sound like a prick.
I mean if the game isn't for you, it doesn't mean it's not for other people.
And it's so mean to dog on other people's fun...

Hello
Ew okay first things first I hate the number 13 and I've always been super finicky about it so idk how I feel about that
Anyway it was so hard for me to wake up today so I kept going back to sleep and as usual I regret that bc the consequence is me not having enough time to get ready for tutor

Rushed out the door and told majid about how much I hate doing that then he went on about how my meat would be loose and I was like "what the fuck.." and then went on to explain how I was tense when I was rushing out but now in the car when relaxed and on the way to the station, my meat is loose. Continuing on that he went on talking about how loose meat would be tender to eat.... LOOK HE HAS BEEN READING TOO MUCH TOKYO GHOUL LATELY LOL he's going crazy and idk why i just told you such a weird story

So I got there "late" which wasn't even late. I walked in 3 minutes after the actual time and I swear to god I used to always get there on time and EVERY TIME I had to wait and I've waited longer than half an hour for a class to start and for some reason the classes are starting on time when I decide to take my time? Wth man

Did mathematical induction revision lel kill me
After tutor I bought a hashbrown cheeseburger from hungry jacks, it's so good ....
And I forgot I packed a sandwich LOL so I ate both..... fat ass on so many levels and read The Prince whilst on the train

My dad picked me up from the station and yeah. I showered then leagued in place of Majid bc his internet sucks and he wanted first win of the day IP. Then did tutor homework?
Now I'm just texting friends and on twitter.
1Q84 is getting more and more intense, can't wait to read tonight!!
Also might be getting 2015 diary tmr finally ( '_>' ) hehe that face
Be happy and goodnight ♡












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Some of my recent pics on camera roll?




Hello
You have no idea how badly I was dreading today due to the fact that I had tutor. I didn't want to wake up and I didn't want to get ready. I had no motivation whatsoever. Got ready to go though and it was just bleh on the way there and yeah. Got there and it was a class of 5 including me and revised circle geometry again. Boring class tbh...
Finished at around 2:43PM (started at 12:30PM)

Um went home after that and just chilled
Just got told off so bad by mum for not finishing my homework yet and tbh I don't even give a fuck
I would've honestly cared more about it if she didn't tell me off. Now I don't even give a shit.
She really doesn't get it at all. She thinks telling me off is going to make me realise my "faults" (um lel don't really have any) and will somehow spur something within me to do better... uh no...
I think encouragement, support and a non-stressful environment is better...thanks.
Probably going to do my gross tutor homework now
Be happy and goodnight ♡











time perception

Hello
Uneventful :(
I wanted to get my 2015 diary but ceebs...
Also really sad day bc I know that my freedom is getting stripped away from me
I don't want to go tutor pls halp me but what I don't get is that if I get denied tutor, I get so mad. I don't understand bc if I'm bad at something..what's the point of  taking away the thing that can help me as punishment?? Well, that's the argument that ensues every time I get a bad mark in maths which is every time. But either way I still hate tutor. Very conflicted indeed.

Anyway just chillllled today like really chilled lolol
And also made a triple choc pound cake which I thought was going to fail bc lately my baking skills have sucked balls. But thankfully it succeeded. Will post pics below.
Also I did change my banner omg I actually did something I promised lel that's new.
Ummmmm yeah watched the episode of kuroko no basuke that came out, it was alright
I've been laughing at so many things but idk
OK i'm starting to not make sense.
Be happy and goodnight ♡











But you're my home




editing html got me like


Goal for today: change my banner ~_~


Hello\
I realised I'm fast becoming an extremely unreliable person and I get that from the biggest influence in my life... Don't really know how to feel about that.
Also with whatever I try to do, I get really tired. Which is really a result of me continually sleeping late and then not getting enough sleep because I'm usually not allowed to sleep in or take naps. Even in the holidays I only really get a max of 6 hours of sleep.
So whenever I try to do school work, read or even relax (watch YouTube/anime) I get tired? Well actually, my eyes get tired and then I'm just ceebs + I don't want to ruin my eyes bc I know glasses won't suit me.

Anyway I was feeling that laze upon waking 'til midday and then I just went over to Alfred's again lel
Mainly bc his friend was going to be in this tournament and I wanted to watch with him.
Ate his fam's food and it was so delicious but spicy. I really wished my mum cooked more spicy foods :( But my mum always argues back and says she's saving me from having bad skin and bad indigestion. Tru.
Yeahhhh anyway mum picked me up from his house at 10:00PM
Slept at around 4:30AM harharhahr ok which totally just reiterates what I had mentioned before about why my eyes are always tired.
Be happy and goodnight (not even night time as I post as usual) ♡












That time could take on
deformed shapes
as it moved ahead
— Haruki Murakami (1Q84)

Hello
I didn't even bother trying to get there on time today I just took my time because there's no reason to rush myself and feel crappy. Coming late to class isn't even a big deal to be honest.
It was a pretty uneventful and easy going day I think.
Watched another version of Julius Caesar and I was more awake than yesterday at least. I was attentive for 85% of the time. *pats self on back*
Was expecting it to end at 6PM but we finished at 4:30PM which was pretty good I guess.
Walked home in the rain.
Got home to an episode of PLL and Modern Family for me to watch ^__^
ALSO TOKYO GHOULLLLL - watched w/ majid and i really loved it even tho it was a tad confusing but that's only bc it's been a while..can't wait for next week
Going to end it here cos nothing else to say
Be happy and goodnight ♡











It shall remain

Hello
I really did not like today at all and I know for a fact I'm going to absolutely hate tomorrow. I had to go to school today for an English intensive holiday class and it was pretty dry to be blatant.
I also lost my white facial skin to the horrendous 30 degree sun :(

I also really regret what I bought for lunch - I'm definitely going to make my lunch tmr lel
Also ran out of water, like today it was one of those days where I was just in the mood to drink water and a lot of it. And it's annoying when water tastes so crisp and delicious but you finish the majority of it when only half a day has passed.

I wish I was interested in Julius Caesar or was really fascinated with all of William Shakespeare's works but I'm really not. I understand the fascination but I really wouldn't place myself there bc it honestly brings me no happiness. I did fall asleep for real though hah. That hardly ever happens and it happened so... must mean something.

Wanted to relax the rest of the afternoon at senpai's but my mum convinced me not to :(
Watched more k-on and chillllled which was nice.
MY EYEBALLS HURT :(
I want to sleep but not really at the same time. I want winter back. PLS.....
Be happy and goodnight  ♡












Verses ornate

Hellllo
Woke up pretty early but then fell asleep again after helping a friend fall asleep
Got up at like 10AM and then did my morning stuff which is just catching up on social media, skipping, showering and then chilling again.
Except today I went to senpai's to chill bc I didn't want to stay home again
It was also a stand of action bc my original plans fell through and i was mad so I didn't even want to stay home
Ate pizza (peri peri beef, chicken/camembert, oven baked chips and belgian lava cake ^_^ ) and watched anime whilst pigging out ^_^.....
And I got really tired so I napped for a bit then my mum picked me up at 6:30PM
I was so full from the pizza so when the dinner came around it was so hard to eat :(
I usually eat fruit after dinner and my mum had to feed me bc on my own i just would not have the will to be able to :(
Ok now I'm chillin' like a villan bc tmr I have a holiday english class :(
Be happy and goodnight ♡











And ease






Hello
Um I just watched k-on and modern family
I think?
I hate it when I completely forget if I don't blog that day which means I really should stop this day after bullshit
I tidied my desk as well?
Reallllyyyy boring day that ended in a bad way i didn't know how to feel :(
But then I was so tired that I fell asleep
Be happy and goodnight ♡












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SO GOOD I CAN'T EVEN DEAL WITH IT

Helllo
Had a reallly funky dream lel that I recounted to majid hahhahaha he gave me a wtf face when i did
After my morning routine, I had my lunch which was sweet potato ohhh so good ^_^ Rn it's my favourite food mmm.. and whilst eating I watched Modern Family (old episodes)..
Then showered and got ready to meet majid so we could buy RP lel
He took a million years to get ready as usual and I waited around for that but we also watched one of his favourite ADCs lolol so funny
Went 7-eleven and bought $50 worth omg what is our life....
After that we had KFC Mmm it was gud
Rushed back becos he needed to be somewhere so I had to leave, and omagad it was so hot walking back home :(
Anyway my leg realllly is aching right now so I'm going to lay down in bed to stay alive
Be happy and goodnight ♡










I possess it now









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I woke up today not even aware that it was Sunday. I was so confused to why my mum hadn't woken me up to tell me she was off to work. I hate how in the holidays your awareness of time just slowly starts to disregard the days of the week?
So just started my day off by making nanaicecream and wow it's so good
Then read 1Q84 until after noon
And then leagued my way to death
Really regret what happened today, annoyed at myself
Hmmmmm yeah idk
Be happy and goodnight ♡











You lack thereof and I contain too much

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I forgot to blog again
oh well

• woke up late
• ate
• leagued 
• died 
• yay

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It devastates me that you can treat me this way and have such little remorse




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Uh wtf I was meant to blog on the day obviously but then idk just didn't because ceebs and then I slept at 6AM this morning (of Day 3) so now I'm posting really late.
Though there wasn't really much to recount anyway. I just spent the majority of my day watching Modern Family and playing League back to back. Played with this Chinese guy on our team and he kept talking to us in PingYing and lel... kept calling us SB and saying Cao ni ma.... Lel ok right back at you. Why wasn't he on the Chinese server wth... He also kept trying to surrender, piss me off. Also versed this Samoan idiot lolol pretty funny won't go into detail because I forgot the detail.
Anyway yerrrr that was my day.
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but it works?

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