When I'm fucked up, that's the real me"

Helllo
Went tutoring from 10PM-12PM
My mum bought me Hungry jacks yeeee
Got hashbrown cheeseburger and 6 nugs + fries --- s o  t a s t y ~_~

[time slot of secret activity]
- i want to talk about today but i can't!!! it illegal >_> like literally HAHAHA (only joking....) lol ok enough

But yeah that was a huge portion of my day therefore my post is quite small for today...
Be happy and goodnight ♡










You didn't keep your word

helllllo
what a crap Saturday -- :(
> went tutor (-_-) once again i must complain about the dopey bitch in my class ---- aahdlasdhajsdkas it's been like 3 weeks of projectile motion and she's still so confused at the basic concepts AND SHE KEEPS GUESSING THE ANSWER therefore she's not actually learning >_>__>_>_>_>
Ate hot star, it was way too spicy. . . . . . rip in peace lucy's tongue
came home showered then fell asleep for 3 hrs w t f man
had a realllly bad dream - fml
did nothing productive bc i was really distraught
felt sad for majority of day but i knew i needed to complete something for english
and also i hadn't done my 2U maths tutoring hw ajadkdsjasdasl
idk --- but at like 1AM i had a burst of motivation and wrote 6 pages of eco notes within 45 min lol
i really only felt better near 3AM lel
what a shit day HAHA
Be happy and goodnight ♡











Brewing away within me

Hello
God damn it was so cold :(
Injured my knee so life was a tad harder bc walking around hurt alot ...and stairs were death to me ..."Ah, my old enemy … stairs." -- kungfu panda quote hahhaha
Double bio was boring and time went so slow lolll this subject is just no
Lunch was nice - ate grainwaves and wedges heck yea
English -- got our assessment notif >_>
Maths was aight, bless emily for helping me survive my almost fall down the stairs today

Man, the grainwaves and they were so good ~_~
Honestly could eat 1000 packets of grainwaves ....

Realised one of my major past-times is cutting off my split ends lol i should stop doing it >_> it's suchhhh a waste of time and i feel like my hairs getting thinner (paranoid)
hmmm i have a hectic weekend, zz don't want to think about it :(
Be happy and goodnight ♡











No escape. . .

Hello
I was so annoyed at people in study room who were talking about ATARS like it was their life, like relax, it's not everything ok jeezus
Besides, it's the fucking study room, shut the fuck up... why? um maybe bc there is actually people who are trying to complete their homework/study. AkjhASDGWUDSD I want them to like die.

During maths - I just ranted to Jeff which felt nice but i had to talk not very loudly bc of eavesdroppers lolll calling you all out one day :)
Emily wanted to talk to me and i kinda regret talking to jeff instead :(
--- bio is so gross, hours of my life wasted on this stupid subject.

lunch was gr9 .... but majide dropped my nachos zzz
then it was recognition assembly which was cute, but people need to like listen... "hold applause until the end" . . . after like one person, a small group in the far corner claps like r u a retard lmao
> friggin reports killed me :(

sad in ancient hist. bc kept thinking how bad i did
though i'm glad i went to AH bc it was a really good lesson
we got to watch how Pompeii was destroyed -- so scary O_O

Rollercoaster of emotions in the afternoon. I was being a fak for no good reason and then i cried like a baby in IGA whilst majide bought me snacks LOLOL
Went home after, did nothing~~~ ^___^ #hsclife #omg #effort
Be happy and goodnight ♡










You extract darkness

Hello
majide was away --- zz not hapi
> brought my laptop to school to write economics notes
realised i actually dont like people coming to me when i'm studying and when they ask about what i'm studying// lol it's really awkward plus i feel the need to like stop and just not do anything bc i feel under pressure + it's so fucking annoying so like if i'm full on typing, like go away .... pls? :)
---
LMAO eco was hilarious today hahahhaha mr kokko is unstoppable
"George satan investments" LMAO DEAD
*sees harry and otis and they say hi*
turns to us: they're not going to get far
and laughs LOOOL

after eco, bought chips at sydenham cause hungers : (
bad mood in the afternoon (i forgot why tho lol)
edited vlog the whole night :( instead of doing work lel
Be happy and goodnight ♡











You'll be sorry

Hello
Decided to vlog today!!
there was such a pretty sunrise in the morning and it stayed egg yolky for a while ~_~
maths was nice, listened to hardstyle with emily HAHAHA everytime we do it, it's like "will we regret this??"
economics was boring, he went over the phillips' curve like one million times >__> like i wanted to strangle him
in the afternoon i ate indo food with majde ^__^ which was sooo good but killed me bc it was immensely chilli --- like u guys have no idea
and it's scary cos it's kinda addictive O__O

here's the vloge:






I'm really annoyed at myself for not finishing posts... it's not even a hard task
What the hell is wrong with me?



Been writing brief summaries since tuesday . . . and i'm just not bothered to write actual posts.. . sorrrry will post soon

I'm so annoyed at myself
I full tried to write my post on time, and I managed but due to the fact that I didn't have a title, I didn't post it immediately -___- and i forgot about it -_____-
So just now i did -____-
SO ANNOYED AHJSADAKD:DAKDJDL

hello
first things first, who wants 30 capsules of Vitamin D for the low price of $2? It's really good for you if you don't get enough sun or don't eat enough foods containing Vitamin D --- contact me on fb if you want :) [from a legit source don't worry lolol]

anyway today was another start to the week
finally started something diff. in maths!!!! so happy about that, SO SICK of projectile motion :(
want to work on it in my own time ~_~
had a good talk w/ emily hehe
english was aiiight >__>
recess was interesting talking to emily, corinne, dominic nguyen and anthony? hahhaha i know you know, don't play it like you don't -_-
ancient was interesting as usuallll
ahhh i'm starting to just recount stuff hmm whatever i just decided idc

after ancient, i ate the delicious rare lasagne mmmm it was soooooo good like Lisa and I were gushing over the good taste
eco + bio was boring
home timeeee
majide decided that we should get a snackpack and thank god we did cos it was so good ~_~
so much delicious foods today hehe
so yeahhhhhhhh
be happy and goodnight ♡










Stars abundant

Hello
(finally writing on the right day)
ok so i just managed to catch up

went to a private tutoring lesson to revise applications of calculus to try to prepare myself >_>
mum and DAD came to pick me up hehhe missed my dad n gave him a hug
went hurstville for sushi train
saw crystal whilst we were waiting for a table lol ~_~ awkward, don't like seeing people i know in public
so sad though, her brother sat on the high chair and full fell back :( made me feel so sad for the kid, must've been so painful
the sushi was so satisfying as usual hehe and my dad was like, "fkn shanghai's sushi doesn't even live up to this sushi, their jap food is disgusting" lollllll
bought Brave New World bc all the other classes at school took the copies so yah teacher told us to go out and get our own copies
got home and dad showed me all the things he got for me heh heh :^)




Helllllo
Normal tutor and ffs so sick of this girl at tutor not getting anything in her head. It's literally so obvious and she still struggles so hard to get the answer.. . .. . what even goes on in her mind. . o_O
Once again let me mention; this girl does 4U!!!!!!!! pls send help
The rest of the day was really good but sadly I can't detail into it bc obviously i want to keep it private
codeword: [marshmallow] [mochi/kitty] [apron] - just for my own reference if i ever read back on this hehe

Went out for dinner with my mum at van loi at campsie for the last time - it was so freaking good
Then we got popcorn chicken from kfc after LOL wtf - mum and I don't have an anchor, we do what we want LOLOL jokes
Grocery shopped at woolies after dindin :)

Played an hour long league game and lost :(
We were so close so many times in turning the game around but idk what happened, actually I do. . . I just kept getting caught out - 3 -
My dad's coming back from Shanghai tmr!!!!
didn't mention it at all before bc security reasons

anyway be happy and goodnight ♡










Unrestrained

Hello

Had free periods in the morning so i did ancient work meep
basically everyone who walked into the senior study was like "Ahhh so warm" lolol basically the phrase of the day as well as "so cold" lolol
felt like i snacked on a lot of twix >__>
i was angry at something but i don't rmb what? O_O
went ancient instead of maths today bc fuck mindless projectile motion solution copying, rather go to ancient and learn about pompeii and herculaneum
had chips after school mmmm and baked chips from dominoes + belgian lava cake ~__~
walked home and it was sooo freaking cold
made pasta sauce from scratch (didn't use store bought) to cook dinner for my mum
then wrote economics notes
decided on vacc. for biology asg.
and that was my night i think
be happy and goodnight ♡











And cause ruckus





Hello
basically i starved the whole of today just so i could properly enjoy kbbq buffet for dinner with my mum
and it was soooo freaking cold today like you don't even know
i also brought my macbook to school for the first time to write biology notes
only 3 classes today and no maths, thank jesus
ummm idk how to make the school wifi work on my laptop, need halp
i think today we died from hail??? i'm not sure
like it just came out of nowhere and we literally had to run so much just to avoid getting killed from the psycho weather

anyway the buffet was good, haven't heartily eaten like that in a while. . . I was more interested in the other foods they had to offer rather than the meat, hardly even ate that much meat
by the end, my mum and i were like literally going to die from combusting from eating so much
we figured out that burping reallllly helped so on the way back home we were just alternating with our burping to relieve ourselves hahhaha but yeah overall a good night
umm after that i literally just took a shower cos I smelt like kbbq - then. . .. . i was induced into the heaviest food coma ever \ I couldn't even open my eyes for more than 3 seconds wtf
but yeah lol
be happy and goodnight ♡











Stop searching









Been so lousy with blogging lately, it's not even a priority on my mind anymore which is sad bc it's like the one thing that I've committed on for such a long time already so idk......
sorry for anyone who enjoys reading blogposts for leisure and like expects a post or something then they come to my blog and see nothing D:
O_O i just keep forgetting sorry





she's fucking amazing





Omg why haven't i seen this before/?/??

Last night i went kbbq buffet and after my shower  . . .  i was basically induced into the heaviest food coma of life so therefore no blog post :(

hello

Hello
worried/studied for the test p1, p2 n recess w/ anyone i could but mostly w/ myself
did the test therefore it was over and done withhhh + glad it was over though it hurt me that i actually answered 1 of the questions quite poorly but i realised like 2min after i submitted it :V

>_>
i'm v tired + worrying about eng. paragraphs/chunks that r due 9PM tmr :((((
quite an easy day after the test i think
bought ripoff canteen foodz >_>
classes were mostly quite kickback-esque lol wtf @ that term

wtf did i do w/ my time at home????????? don't even ask :<
did eco hw tho


THIS POST IS EVERYWHERE and the abbrev.'s are strong/10
be happy and goodnight ♡











So abundant

Hello


> spent the day at home
> studying for Ancient History
> finished Parks n rec say wat (it was 7 seasons and in 3 weeks)
> essentially had to finish it or it would be never-ending - really sad tho bc i loved it so so so much
> made brownies for mum
> had kfc for lunch which was so gud
> leagued . . . . . getting better at lux lol =_- (or not)
. . . hmmmm stressful night but i got through it lol
be happy and goodnight ♡











No explanation either

Hello
As per usual, i went tutor and finally have some clarity on projectile motion lol
mr wilson just gives us the equations and then does the questions - does not help make anything even the slightest bit clear
his teaching requires you to already have a prerequisite on it (piss me off)
Mum picked me up from burwood and took me to HotStar at campsie lollll why do that when burwood has HotStar??? idk actually lmao now that i think about it wtf
Went home~
Spent most of the time with alfred bear hehe

I think i leagued idk - trying to perfect Lux bc i'm waiting on a really pretty skin to come out, and i don't want to look like a complete doofus playing her when i have a skin. . . always seems so flimsy when someone has a really expensive skin league but like they're terrible at their champion - it's like spending money on a champion means you play them a lot, and having a variation in the style would be a nice touch plus it's an investment in the instance of you committing time + having it look good for the duration of your success with the champion.  {idk if any of that made sense}

idk/forgot what even happened at night
be happy and goodnight ♡











Empty. . . soul

Hello

• stressful day
• woke up with swollen tonsils 
• double bio was surprisingly ok (bc of The Search for Better Health)
• multimedia task?? for asg.
• loud shirt day >_> 
• tired af
• worried af
• finally saw majide - happy
• brought me snackpack
• had intensive for english after school 
• went home with majide and hoang
• got angers over a petty matter (got anger issues forrealz)
• did tutor work
• and leagued

Been neglecting my blog, i apologise, will update it soon properly


Hello
Athletics carnival today and honestly i was so unsure on whether to go or not and i guess i ended up going. . . and yeah idk kinda got forced and also i was pretty late >_> thank god i actually even made it
anyway got there by bus and we had to bloody stand, it was so damned tiring
got to work by helping anna make her sign then assisted her in getting into costume
took pics w/ people
got bored so we ate and then went to buy some weird lolly thing
ummm what else, kinda just had a good talk w/ anna for most of the day which is nice bc i don't really talk to her much anymore
i was kind of forced into doing the relay for Ares bc there was like no-one for it
was kinda proud of my running bc i literally haven't properly run since year 9 so like i felt gud but then hoang mocked me on skype so now i'm just like 'fuck u :('
getting home via the bus was so tiring, the seats weren't high enough to support my head and i didn't want to lean on hoang bc das weird even tho in the end, my head kept bouncing in and out of arm meat??
bought a burger for majide bc he was hungry n sick
then yeah went home
be happy and goodnight ♡











When it deceives you?









Hello
i'm overall really upset right now bc of my stupid situation with the athletics carnival and even though it's not entirely true, i feel like all my friends bailed out on me. But they can do what they want, i'm not trying to obligate them to do anything.

anyways today was another day without majid, but he was sick so i can't blame him. i'm just generally so bored without his presence..
only had 3 classes today thank jesus
ancient, eng (which was subbed) and economics which wasn't too bad

went campsie afterschool w/ anna to accompany her with fabric buying and i got meetfresh for sick bear
met him at lakemba to give him the goods lolol and talked for a bit then i headed home. it was so nice to walk home when it was dusk (or twilight) it's like sky porn or something, it's soooo freaking pretty and it always manages to amaze me
idk what i did with my night lol
be happy and goodnight ♡










no pace

Hello
double maths + double eco
always fall asleep in eco, actually basically any class where a teacher talks longer than 10min, i'll fall right asleep however if you tell me to do work i will without even feeling tired at all
hmm zoomed out of school when i could and went to visit the faggit
hhehehe ^_^ basically seeing him is the only thing that is good about today lel (pls ignore the cheese)
omg the cat finally came and it was sleeping hehehhe cutie
had a nice dinner with mum n yea
be happy and goodnight ♡











But are you eating tho?





Hello
monday again meep ¬_¬
today just felt dry in terms of school stuff and mostly felt restless
honestly nothing really happened
though one piece of news that emily told me today brought up my day hehhe but before she even told me i knew what it was ^_~

i felt bad today though bc we made ms padilla mad when it was clearly our fault. the annoying thing is that most of our class will usually just play it off like she's the bitch . . . but she even compromised with us. . . she's actually really nice to us. we were meant to do a debate but then she settled for us to simply do a written pros/cons list of ethics for transgenic species. yet people in our class argued that they thought it was debate but the stupid thing about that is that if you were so adamant on that fact, where are your prepared arguments? what the hell? so pointless. if you didn't do the work then just shutup, she has a complete right to be mad bc the task was do-able, we were just being lazy as a class. i know a lot of people don't like her but . . . sometimes everyone is just so unfair to her  -__-

ok maybe stuff did happen today
it's all coming back to me right now

tried cherry coke at dinner and god damn people need to stop adding the cherry flavouring that tastes exactly like panadol to foods . . . real cherry doesn't even come close to tasting like that =_-
anyways, gotta do economics stuffs now
be happy and goodnight ♡











Dokubutsu





Hello
slept pretty late and woke up later than usual for a sunday - usually means we won't have an easy time finding parking at campsie for shopping :(
we decided to go to rockdale target bc it's one that has hardly anyone, stress-free shopping
bought:

• knee high socks (4 x black, 2 x navy, 2 x white)
• bra (?)
• stockings (2 x 120 denier, 1 x 80 denier)
• 12 pk target brand tissues

Hello
went tutor in the morning and i'm pretty sure now I know how to do simple harmonic motion questions... or not idk
mum picked me up from tutor and i got home. . . ate then mooched around
got ready, and had so much trouble choosing my outfit
the humidity was like 88% wtf man, the "20 degrees" felt like 26 or something
travelled by train w/ majid and tony
whilst majid and i waited for them to finish off playing pool, we went to eat tamayaki, ordered giant octopus takoyaki and original milk tea . . . . . fkn the best milk tea of my life, it tasted so good imo
and so did the octopus takoyaki mmmm
so story of the day would probs be the fact that 7 people including me got stuck in an elevator, fkn philip jumped and made the whole lift just stop. . . =__- It was so scary and it was so stuffy . . . legit thought i was about to die with 6 other guys and thank fuck these were my friends >____>
here's pics of us lol:


Too tired to blog about my day and night
will do tmr :)

If I don't like them, then they must be full of bad blood. Trust me on that. . . -_=

Hello


[wrote this last night but it didn't publish wtf]

Hello
i think i'm sick which is bad bc it's winter :( and it's bad overall
fkn shared food w/ majid today, i'm such a such a doofus
anyway, i felt like for a lot of the day i laughed with emily but that was mostly the afternoon hence why it's like so fresh in my memory
felt quite lonely in the afternoon lol, everyone left early :( my ancient hist. buddies went home early noooo
ok now that i've realised my throat is sore. . . i don't even feel like typing about my day anymore ==
did a past paper for maths and watched parks n rec
be happy and goodnight ♡











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