Hellllo
I've been having the most stressful nightmares lately and I don't even know why
Like I honestly hate "dreaming", i basically only enjoy sleep that is just blacked out nothingness
Dreaming or whatever just makes me feel like I haven't rested at all... I see sleep as temporarily dying for a few hours and having dreams and nightmares and shit just totally ruin it for me lol

Anyhow today was a really uneventful day, I basically just tried to recover from being out all night yesterday haha, i'm so weak and such a homebody
I LOVE BEING HOME LOL
Though today annoyingly, it wasn't as cold as yesterday? It's like why can't it be cold today and less cold yesterday?? The situation always seems to be switched and inconvenient for my life

Talked to "papi" lmao for the majority of the day on skype which was fun lolol and yeah basically that was my day, just relaxed and yeaahhhhh

Okay, I should really shower asap so I can be in bed before 12AM >_>
Be happy and goodnighhtttt <3

Hellos

• got up and did my makeup and such
• met up with moo and he gave me a pink lighter that he bought for me 
• went to cinemas to watch finding dory and i'm so happy i did, cutest film + finally watching the sequel of finding nemo... 
• went to cafe tiamo after to have some bomb ass food
• IT. WAS. SO. GOOD. 
• after that, decided to walk around
• met up with the group of like a million people lol 
• walked together to the kbbq restaurant
• we were the biggest hoard of people lmao i felt so annoying haha 
• ate the foods and damn it was terrible hahaha omfg 
• full ate raw beef when it was meant to be cooked lol dead 
• and after we just started to cook things that shouldn't have been cooked 
• after it was all done, separated from the group as they went to kae
• headed to MSM for some dessert and then yeah 
• went home
• tired
• dead
• brb 
• be happy and goodnight  

Hello
Drove again and got mad again lol standard times
Went grocery shopping and bought as little as we could haha
Annoying thing that happened was that my mum left a bag of groceries at the store and we had to full drive back to go and retrieve it, thank god it was actually still there
Headed to the city to buy some clothes for relatives overseas
Had Chef's Gallery for the first time and god damn their menu has so many options... too many options to the point where it's like so overwhelming to choose
I made one bad choice in getting fried eggplant... It was SWEET?? Wtf highly don't recommend, just get the signature dishes next time lmao
Anyway after we just hit up a few clothing stores
Had some Passionflower icecream? But it was freezing so simultaneously it was #regrets
But yeah went home and chillllled
Be happy and goodnight



Hello
I woke up quite early because I really wanted to make sure that I could help my mum with some of the Saturday morning house work, even though I slept at around 3AM
I did the upstairs vacuuming and it kind of woke me up which is good because I felt hella groggy
Made breakfast myself but then my mum offered to make a fried egg for me which i wasn't complaining about cos my mum makes the most bomb fried eggs but now she's taught me how so yay hehe
Anywaaaaays talked to a friend on skype most of the day, finally filled out my postal vote ballot, cooked foods, watched House of Cards.... and yeah... easy day but was hellaaaa cold >_< Lowest temp was 3-4 degrees celsius!!! Ahhh D:
But yeah :)
Look forward to sunday w mum, always fun
I felt like it was JUST sunday, wowe the week went by so fast
Be happy and goodnight <3



Hello
Friday today and I didn't sleep until like 6AM in the morning which lead me to sleep in until 12:40PM... which made my day feel really short and it sort of ruined other plans i had
All I did today was watch House Of Cards and play with makeup
And at night, I will just leave it at the fact that I went to bed angry and it was just not ideal but oh well
Be happy and goodnight~







hate lookbooks but literally the only ones i will watch and love each time is rinrindoll's lookbooks
she doesn't do the typical youtuber type of lookbook so yeah that's why i love~~





HELLO
ok finally i'm up to a post where it is the actual day in which i'm posting for
so today started off all good which was nice
phoned w my friend from murica in the morning then the day played off similar to Monday and Tuesday which was nice
After that, phoned w that friend again but honestly i fucked up and got really sick, i won't say how it happened but basically had heart problems and yeah got body shivers, cold sweat, throwin up and generally feeling faint n lifeless
Thank god my mum got home when she did and used her stethoscope + blood pressure measuring thing to see what was wrong, was about to head to the ER but my heart calmed down so it was okay again..
Made me get into bed and fed me dinner
and now after a few hours I feel a lot better but still very much damaged from the ordeal
Needa rest and stuffs cos gotta go to the doctors early next morning and then meet w my frands for lunch date
Be happy and goodnight <3



Helllllo
I would say basically the same thing that happened on Monday, happened today on Tuesday which is funny cos like wow is this my life now? hahaha yes, oh yessss it is
Ya know because of the the kerfuffle nearing the end of the uni semester, i managed to miss the last 3 episodes of GoT and now I don't even feel like watching it anymore
I can't be bothered to catch up... might watch it when the whole season ends but then like that runs the risk of me getting certain parts ruined but I'm going to go and find them
IF I see them on twitter tho, i'll be hella angry bruh - though it will be partially my fault because I haven't kept up but anyhow
Ok sorry that was long winded
Finally found a place to go to eat w friends on Thursday which will be nice ^__^ can't wait
Nothing else really happened today worth mentioning, sorry for the boring post hah as usual
Be happy and goodnight

Helloooo
Monday got me feeling like it's Saturday haha
Uni finishing got me all messed up and not knowing which day is which haha
Was a fun day at home haha that's all I will say, nothing much happened tbh just a chill and relaxing time
Really getting into Drake's album Views properly now and I love it so much omg
Favourite songs are:

1. controlla 
2. one dance 
3. grammys 
4. child's play 
5. too good 
6. views 

Hellos
Finally after probably a month of not driving, i finally drove again!! And man I realised I am such an angry driver, like... I beep and overtake like i'm on my green P's already or something
My mum is like "lucy, you're such an agressive driver" in shang lmao ok
We went to Burwood to shop for some essentials for a later exciting thing that is coming heh :)
Had maccas and soul origin for lunch which was soooo good ^_^
Bought some makeup needs, like a new felt tip eyeliner (went for a smashbox one) and urban decay all nighter setting spray
And at Target, I bought an elf blending brush and a NYX butter gloss :)))
Yeah nice day w mumma bear hehe :)
Be happy and goodnight <3

Hello
Basically the first thing I did when I woke up today was work on my exegesis that I hadn't finished AND was due at 12PM
SO I woke up at 9AM and got right to work and got it done RIIIIGHT on time like w like maybe 6 minutes to spare ha ha ha
Last assignment de-motivated syndrome?
But then w my last-minute-you-have-no-choice-now panic, i pulled through... YAS
Any way the rest of the day I did nothing in particular hahaha it was like me trying to come down from extreme stress which is really hard to do
Just imagine all the stress build up and then trying to release it? not very easy :(
Any how yeah freedom woo
LOL
Be happy and goodnight <3

Hello
Happy birthday mummabear <3
Went to uni today lol my last ever class,2 whilst all my other classes finished last week lel
all bc of good friday when i started my sem, it made me skip class so yeah
anyhow spent some time in the city w moo before my class started and yeah
did a quick visit to vivid and then headed home
bought my mum a cake so it was annoying to carry around but really wanted to get her a cake at least!! not fun when you gotta buy the cake yourself on your bday haha
went dinner at beauty and the beast korean restaurant and it was deliciousss
had a beer lol and i felt nothing as usual, alcohol never affects looch
anyway yeah went home and showered
then!! we candles, hbd song and ate the cake :)
SO TIRED :( Such a jam packed day died
Be happy and goodnight <3

Hello
All I did was try to finish my exegesis - my last assessment
I only did 1/3
:(
Unproductive day and accidentally took a nap
RIP in peace to me
Be happy and goodnight

Halfway point of this year and I can honestly attest that this year, 2016 has really gone to shit from like day 1...
I feel like this year had so much potential but instead of potential it's been a big ol' bad of bad luck and sad happenings ... not only in my personal life but also everywhere in the world
People I thought who were going to be together forever, aren't together anymore...
People who shouldn't have died, died.
Lost so many amazing influential actors and personalities...
Like I personally can't believe Alan Rickman isn't here in this world anymore and Prince... like what the fuck even Muhammad Ali is gone lolll (well he was old but still he died this year specifically)
And also you see the ruckus that's happening in America with their election... what.. how is trump allowed to be in the position he is in?? America let Bernie go to waste?
AND WHY are guns still necessary in that wreck of a nation?
It just seems like the world in the larger sense is in chaos and that huge tornado is spinning into a smaller portion and wrecking my own current life.
I don't know man.



Hello
Just to continue from my previous post, the final poll results finished and here's a picture of what the results were as well as someone's comment lel....

Anyway........................
>_>
My day was pretty lax haha just chilled because honestly yesterday night drained so much out of me...I felt bad for stefano though because we were working til like 1AM and he had work the next day at 7AM
So yeah he definitely had the worst end of the stick, whilst I got to sleep in til like 12PM today :O
Oh btw yesterday I got 3 packages from my ebay orders, they came super early!! Really hope my other orders also come early :)
Had a good makeup day today.... when I didn't need to go out haha ~typical~
Ok anyway nothing else really to report on
Be happy and goodnight <3




helllo
omg it's so late for me to still be in my room with my light on but yeah it's almost 1:30AM
i just hope that my mum doesn't come out of her room
really i am not in the mood to be shouted at
the reason why i am still up is because i last minuted a big assignment just before and so only around 12:50AM did i get around to finally showering!!!
i only have one more assignment left until freedom and i honestly really hope i finish the bulk of it tmrw!!!!! PLS LUCY
anyway my day was just hardcore procrastination until like 8PM which is when the engines kicked in and went into actual panic mode lolol
i'm tired, didn't sleep until 5AM in the morning lel
also let me add just for a memory, my dad bought home some dougie's grill chips + sauce and it was the nicest breakfast hahaha so unhealthy but idc
be happy and goodnight <3



Hello
Sometimes I wish I could read another language other than english, with the equivalent level of capability as I have in the English language. Like I can read some chinese but it's so limited and I'm so annoyed at myself for not pursuing it further when I was younger.

Finished one of my final tasks today now I have like 1.5 tasks left to do...
I'm already at that point where I just want everything to be over already, like I personally am so done!!!! >_>
I want to do everything associated with no responsibility and/or hobbies
I ALSO REALLY WANT TO REDECORATE MY ROOM!!! But I can't do that shit when I have stuff looming over my head like assignments :(
There are certain areas in my room I want to make into really cute areas :'(
As well as doing loner activities such as tidying my room lol, I also really want to see my friends lolol i mean all of them are in lockdown exam mode and it's just sad I MISS THEIR FACES

Rest of my day has been quite boring, hope everyone else had a good long weekend
Be happy and goodnight



hello~
woke up with all sorts of discomforts which wasn't very nice
i feel like i'm just complaining all the time now but seriously i'm doing it because i'm literally just in a really really really shitty situation right now like it's legit layers of discomfort physically and mentally that i won't actually dive into because majority of the issues happening to me right now are personal lol
the only thing that isn't personal is the fact that i'm sick
anyhow, tried to finish my audio essay but it's taking me so long because i keep procrastinating
i wish that friend called me again because without it i feel so agitated and unable to concentrate
had some Tim Ho Wan for lunch, but for some reason my parents forgot to bring the pork bun things from there, they only got me hargow and suimai? i don't even understand what kind of logic goes through my mum's head sometimes but either way it was yum and i devoured it
finished like 1/3 of my assignment which is just tragic lol
tmr will be manic, i have so much to do
but i really can't blame myself, this sickness and all the other things in my life rn are holding me back so much, i'm not doing anything to my full potential which is sad :(
ok anyway probably going to shower now and head to bed
be happy and goodnight

Hello
did not feel good to drag myself out of bed this morning >_>
worked all day on a script for one of my last assignments and didn't get much done really in the start of the day because i wasn't feeling well in every way lol :(
but then i was on the phone with one of my friends and he managed to help me with doing my work which was good because then a huge weight was lifted off me so then i could really just chill out for the rest of the day..which i did and did it through watching YouTube vlogs bc it helped distract me
yeah and also sickness is slowly but surely getting better which i'm very thankful for
slept kind of early and yeah
be happy and goodnight

Hello
today, i woke up sick... fml
and i hadn't finished my debate properly because i wanted to leave it so i could work on it in the morning
but i didn't even wake up at 9am like i expected, i woke up at 11:39am....lol fk
i also was super tired from being sick so i couldn't even get ready fast enough and shit like that
thank god my dad came home from work early so he sent me to the train station
if he hadn't? i don't think i would've had the strength tbh and i would've been hella late to my class with an unfinished speech lol
but thank god it bought me time and i wrote it then i had to make some ghetto ass palm cards where i made it through no use of scissors ..... they looked so bad and flimsy
i stuffed up my presentation too ha ha ... man i don't even want to think about it
got to go home earlier than usual
felt so sick, ate wontons and then went to bed
>__>
be happy and goodnight



Helllo
Had a full day out w moo basically and yeah
Mostly was just shopping for him
Shared a grill'd burger and chip platter which was really satisfying...
Played a game of pool but I lost but sorta win lol he let me which is good or else i would've been really angry and whole day would be ruined (competitive, must-win-always side of me lel)
Lastly, went with him so he could get a Lacoste hat which was nice
Had my 6-9PM class after which was really boring but our tute was so nice, she made us vanilla cupcakes with chocolate frosting ^___^ and I'm not joking that they were probably the best cupcake I've had in my life lmao so good
Finished earlier than expected so then I waited for my parents to pick me up
It was so cold... so windy as well.... had to full protect my skirt from flashing everyone -_-
Got home, ate a lil and then worked on my debate lol rip in peace to me, i'm going to die tmrw
Be happy and goodnight



Hellos
Attended my normal Wednesday classes, my last lecture and tutorial for audio culture!!!!! (at least i think it is?)
it was so boring and got told off for being on my phone lol my tutor totally hates me but whatever lol i'm not fond of him either, legit one of the worst teachers i have ever encountered
had a lil detour before actually getting home...
and then when i got home, showered and then ate
was so tired so took a nap until it was dinner time
now I need to work on my huge pile of uni work rip in peace to me
be happy and goodnight~

Hello
Went to UTS library to help with some filming and did some work w/ stefano
Then I went to individually study which wasn't very successful so then I just went home
Mediocre afternoon at home and yeah dinner was ok
Do not want to go into the details of what happened at night time, it wasn't pleasant
Anyhow be happy and goodnight

Hello
i couldn't get out of bed as easily
somehow managed to watch 3 episodes of House of Cards when I was asleep so i had to locate the last place i actually remembering watching up to lol
House of Cards is the best I swear omg but it's a tad dry if you can't stand listening to any political jargon
bought some frozen onion rings on the weekend and i didn't like it like i thought i would which was a disappointment
the thing that made them not taste that great was the fact that it tasted like it had MSG in it or something, made me really thirsty for water and i hate that feeling cos it's so unnatural
plus no matter how much water you drink, you're still thirsty
umm besides onion rings, ate general potato-y things, watch house of cards... i did nothing lollll
i mean i worked on my assignment but really my day was extremely dull
um yeah nothing else to report on
be happy and goodnight





i thought it would be easier to just sit here blow after blow of bad events in my life
and i often think to myself maybe this is a good time and that worse will come
should i not allow myself a reason to be upset or angry? is my anger or sadness even worth a reaction?
"maybe i shouldn't react at all" is my conclusion most times
essentially, i fight too much with myself over whether i should be grateful for a moment or not
and each time, i blame myself over others
i put them before me
which is typical to say i know but if you're one of my few readers you should know i divert from talking about personal things here for the vast majority of the time, because honestly i rather focus on my actual everyday occurrences when it comes to a daily blog
so if i'm expressing anything here, please understand my genuine intention, i'm not fishing for anyone's pity
i don't even know what any of this means and if i'll ever truly make sense of it all
but something i do admit to myself is that, most of the time i don't believe i deserve anything good in life and i think fundamentally that's just fucked up for anyone to feel, not just me
and to put things in a even worse light, i know exactly how i became this way
so it's daunting that i don't even know how to fix it because it's already something so solid and embedded within myself
it honestly makes life harder to live knowing such a weakness exists within me

Hello
It literally rained all night and all morning and all day
Crazy motherfucking Australian weather >_>
And when I woke I just felt like we were lucky to have shopped yesterday instead of today
Also when it was 9AM, I legit thought it was 6AM bc of how dark my room was
I had work to do but then I was emotionally invested in shit so I couldn't manage to finish anything
Had KFC for lunch and let me tell you, that's going to be the last time for a while til I eat KFC
Rest of the day I watched House of Cards and was an emotional wreck on the inside
Still am but gotta finish my assignments so yeah lol
Be happy and goodnight

Hello
Had to get up this morning relatively early due to needing to take photos for something so yeah I didn't get my normal Saturday sleep in that I usually do
Also we did the grocery shopping in Campsie that we usually reserve for Sundays
The rest of the day honestly felt like a blur to me
I had a headache for the most part of today which I previously accounted to me hitting my head on the door frame of the car as I was trying to enter but then the pain encapsulated my whole head... I started to feel feverish so I just decided to go to bed and sleep
Woke up at 5:20PM and started on a salad for my mum since we were ordering pizza and she preferred a more healthier option
The pizza didn't taste very good today (bought it from Pizza hut), I think I much prefer Dominoes now which is weird cos I used to love Pizza Hut
Anyways spent the rest of my night watching House of Cards
Going to shower and then sleep
Be happy and goodnight

Hellooooo
I didn't sleep very well but it was okay
I intentionally missed my lecture today which I never do but I honestly couldn't be assed so yeah i didn't go
Went into priceline for the purpose of finding myself a setting spray but then i left with 6 lip products..... I hate myself ha ha ha
Saw thucai today!! but we only really got to say hi to eachother lolol
Finally got to eat doughnut time... but the one i wanted (the nutella one) was already sold out!!! wtf man :( So I got this glazed kit kat one which was okay...not the best
Also had a snackpack which was so filling....wish i got a small instead of large.... didn't even finish it
Shopped around for a bit and then yeah headed for my class
4-6pm basically flew past bc it was such a funny tutorial, i s2g my class and cale (my tutor) combined together are literally a comedy show...it's so damn funny all the time
Anyway, finally got home and had dinner
I felt so tireddd
Watched House of Cards!!! and then went to bed
Be happy and goodnight

helllo

- lecture >_<
- had grill'd
- x-men apocalypse - recommend it, v. good ^_^
- jordan and i got so lost trying to find our class lmao
- class from 6-9PM T_T
- was so fun actually didn't even feel the time pass ^___^
- had maccas w/ parents after and it was gr8
- got home and showered and stuffs
- now i'm in the dark blogging....
- should be heading to bed soon bye
be happy and goodnight <3 ^_^



Helllo
i can say for a fact that i absolutely despise wednesday mornings
ohhhh man i hate them
needing to leave the house at 7:40 AT THE LATEST ughhhhhhhhhh
and it's always screaming in the morning like.... pls :( let me wake up feeling zen
class was sooooo boring like omfg almost fell asleep
audio culture will always be the most sleep inducing subject i have
like kill me ha ha
nice afternoon
more pizza hehe
but like as i'm smiling and eating, also dying on the inside lol :(
did werk at night time bc gotta be a good uni studenttttt ya know
also started to watch House of Cards......... so good omfg love it
Be happy and goodnight <3



Hello
so today i went to uts for my groupwork thingy, standard stuffs
after that i just pigged out on pizza bc for some reason it has become my ultimate craving which is so bad
i rly rather go back to having absolutely no appetite bc that kept me slim but now omfg... i'm slowly but surely getting back all the chubs which is just sad haha
but pretty sure that TOM is coming along (hence these cravings)
anyhow
i would regard today as a chill day lolol
the weekends and my monday n tuesdays are my freedom days where i can chill or work on things
and have the luxury to laze about @ home or go out with friends
anyway what i do want to talk about is the bomb ass curry i had for dinner that my mum cooked
it was completely vegan but let me tell you...... it was better than any meat jap curry i've ever had
IT WAS LITERALLY THE BEST!!!!!!
and u know when something is so good you feel like u could even fit in thirds? haha but i didn't but i know if i really didn't care about my weight or judgement from parents, i would just keep eating it
oh my god it was so good
anyway leave you on that note
be happy and goodnight <3

Hellllo
There was only one task (edit a vid for an assignment) that I had to complete today and it took me so long to do which was really annoying but i managed at the end of the day
Just talked w/friends  and edited this video the whole day
I had a reallly delicious lunch of potato everything including these vegetable nuggets!!! Also had it with vegetarian tortellini cos it's my fave
Uhh what else went on today??
not sure not sure, this is typically what happens if i don't actually blog on the day
i lose so much detail and can only ever recall the main events of the day T_T
Be happy and goodnight~