i wish blogger went back to when everyone blogged about their day
now it's just me
and  i don't even post because I'm so behind on my posts...
who even reads this? i don't even know lol


uni almost done, blog posts will commence!!!!!!!!! ! ok

hellllllo
first things first went grocery shopping like any other sunday w/ parents
went to city after and we headed for lunch - took my parents to Yayoi bc I LOVE Yayoi Teishoku - bc their rice alone is lit... it tastes so amazing and it is worth the low key expensive price
bought makeup from sephora and also got some ZARA pants since i wrecked my other jeggings :(
alsooooo had my favourite strawberry milkshake from 85 degrees ^__^
went home and then made vegan food.... and it. was. lit.
i made buffalo taquitos with this amazing sauce........ oh wow i was so happy eating it and the best part was that I felt good bc it had literally no oil in it
anyways today was just a collective foodgasm which i'm not complaining about xD
be happy and goodnight



hellos
today moop brought over some lebanese foods which was honestly so lit and i felt so happy
food deliveries are the best
we watched nightmare before christmas on netflix and it was pretty damn cute hehe and i love the soundtrack to it - i've watched it before but i distinctly rmb being terrified when i was younger lol what a pussy i was LOL kidding
after all that damn food (which was a lot).....
my mum decided that it was a good idea to order pizza for dinner
...
i was so damn full already and i hate when there's food in front of you that you're like "oh yeah i wanna eat it" but then your stomach is like "no, there's no more space fuck you"
...
:(
sad times
but GRATEFUL TIMES - don't want to sound like a self righteous first-world country asshole
we ate it and saved it and didn't waste it xD
be happy and goodnight

hellos
typical me spent the whole day procrastinating when all i had to do was write two 250 word summaries for EMC... i swear to god i have such a big problem....i really need to sort out my priorities lol
but then again that's most, if not all students nowadays in uni
everyone does shit last minute even if they were like star students when they were in high school and i think that goes to show a lot of people who don't have a teacher herding them, they lose that ability to monitor themselves...
though for me, i must say i'm doing a lot better than i used to be... and i think that's all down to motivation
i used to have literally no motivation at all when i was in high school because i honestly just didn't give a fuck about the subjects i was doing
but now, i do music and it's not something i thought i would ever study but! at least it's in the field of being creative and i thrive on being able to be creative or at least i prefer it to "economics" or "english" ... lol yuck
also i have no idea how i managed to go on tangent lmao but yeah
be happy and goodnight

Hellos
headed to uni today to finish my sonology assignment bc i don't have the program on my computer and there was no other way i could go about editing it
moop came along and ate whilst he waited for me to finish lolol
then we went on the journey that we call "do you have mevius?" lololol
it was a success though which is all that matters :)
anyways overall it was a vast improvement of a day in comparison to yesterday so yeah
be happy and goodnight

Hello
well today was a bad day and let me tell you why :(
i woke up pretty damn late and i had no-one to take me to the station so basically i had literally no time at all to properly get ready and such
so as i was in a rush i jaywalked and usually i'm pretty good at it (i'm good at calculating when traffic starts to dissipate which allows me to cross safely even when i'm not supposed to) but today i was too flustered and was extremely careless
i almost crossed the road when cars were heading straight for me
and then a huge truck beeped me to warn me but that scared me because the horn's sound literally went right through me like it was so loud - so then i tripped and fell onto the ground when oncoming cars were almost about to hit me but then i got up JUST in time ......
and i honestly had that moment when i felt like my life flashed before my eyes
and for the rest of the walk i was trembling so hard and almost in tears due to shock :(
ALSO the fabric at my knee was ripped and i was bleeding there... but i was more devo about my pants cos they're my favourite pair of jeggings

EMC was boring af and then i waited for 3hrs for a workshop that was CANCELLED.... are you fucking kidding me fam wtf
but i managed to buy a beauty blender and also got some indian food whilst I waited but it still wasn't worth wasting those 3hrs of my life
Dad took me home in the afternoon bc my knee was obviously busted and I was limping
Applied for jobs in the evening and attempted to clean my scab but it was a bloodbath ~_~
be happy and goodnight

hellos
meet mooj in the morning and then i was pretty damn late for my train and hence late for my lecture which was annoying :-( hate going into lectures later than i should cos you feel...everyones eyes just on you as you scramble to naturally find a seat lol
had an okay lecture which basically meant it was boring but the presenter wasn't a bitch and at least tried to engage us with the content
in the tutorials we were given an exercise where we discussed wechat and the white bitches in my group were like "omg what's that!!?? i've never even heard of that!!!" -_-
i explained it to them and they still didn't really get it but anyway
went home after class and was so ravenous that it gave me a headache :(
be happy and goodnight








hello
had uni which was normal but i felt hella alone and bored so i met up with emily at broadway
had some lunch cos i was soooo hungry :( had some indian curry which was actually bomb af
saw so many people we knew lmao but i won't say who we saw cos then we didn't really say hi to them so it was a bit awks hahah
BUT OMG I SAW LILYMAYMAC BUYING DONUTS LOL
she's so cute irl :( self esteem ded
last class of the day wasn't too bad and ye
headed home after that ... ^_^
be happy and goodnight

30 more posts!!!! til i'm up to date omg
pls pray i manage to do 7 posts tmrw like i did today

helllo!!
Happy Father's Day!!!! ! <3
woke up in the morning to cook my dad a breakfast
it was such frantic times bc i had to make a full big breakfast for 3 people and i've never really done that before
i had to time everything properly so when it was served, it was the perfect temperature... that part was really hard :(
but in the end my dad really enjoyed it which is all that matters ^__^
went to Burwood to have a nice lunch with my dad at Bello (this time we ordered well unlike last time)
after that we bought my dad a kettle and also we got a conventional oven cos our old one was rekt
bought some things from priceline too.... lol shouldnt really be shopping for myself when it's father's day but hehe couldn't help myself xD
be happy and goodnight

helllo
apparently i woke up from a long ass dream of being a spy?? wot
my dad wasn't home and then he came back? which was odd but he apparently told me he was stepping out of the house and i even replied... but i have no recollection of actually doing that :S
i cooked food for him at lunch time bc i feel like i should do it more often cos when he's home he eats the most crappy food cos he really can't be bothered to properly fend for himself
spent most of the day just watching vlogsssss :D
be happy and goodnight

hello
spent the day @ home applying for jobs mainly and ofc you know me.... i was watching youtube
i made a laksa... and it tasted horrible - many regrets :(
but on the brighter side, i had korean food at Strathfield with parents at night time
it was so filling!!! but bc of my stupid laksa at lunch... i didn't feel too well even though the food i did consume was pretty tasty.
also heard some good news from my future family member hehe <3 all the best
be happy and goodnight

helllo
had a visit to the doctors in the morning (my dad drove me there)
after that was done, i got home and slowly just chilled out/ got ready
had a night out w emily to buy some presents for a certain someone :D
and it was a general catch up since we hadn't had a proper chin wag hahaha (so british idk why i used that)
had mexican food - like we always do - and also had some starbucks to finish off the night lolol
be happy and goodnight

hellos
i hate wednesdays for one simple fact that my first class of the day starts at 11AM
11AM is a funny time
it seems like a "late" start so you THINK you have a lot of time to spare but really? you don't
my train from lakemba to get to central departs at 10:22AM.... so i need to be done with everything at home by 9:50AM....
so you can't really sleep in... can't really chill out....
u only get maybe an hour extra in comparison to normal
i hate how 11AM is so deceiving :(

so today i was frantic bc i took my sweet time and fucked myself over
also class was super hard bc i had to learn all the complicated shit in Max 7
also purchased a big ass salad to eat xD almost died xD xDDDD
LOL sorry for that i couldn't help myself
be happy and goodnight

Hellllllo
moop was an actual sick bear and felt quite sorry for him lol :( just cuddled and then headed to uni
class was soooooooo boring that i almost died lol
thank fuck i brought my laptop with me so when he droned on and on, i was just on twitter :)
didn't see Austien this week, he was probably like "don't wanna talk to lucy again this week" lolol dw i get it, no one really has any real interest in associating with not so close old highschool friends/acquaintances
train > car > home > shower > dinner > homework > sleep
be happy and goodnight





Hello
i was for some reason really god damned hungry today so i bought a salad which was bomb af and then for lunch, i got a spicy burrito bowl from guzman y gomez which actually killed me bc my spice tolerance levels are almost all gone
the spiciness also caused me to finish all my water which meant i had to also go buy additional water cos if i didn't i would actual die from a parched tongue
anyway classes were whatever, i hate mondays overall in terms of uni so i don't like to detail on the classes i have

such a tiring day :(
be happy and goodnight

i'm approximately 5 weeks behind.....36 posts to go >_<

Hellosss
grocery shopped in the morning
and then headed to the city after w parents
we had yumcha even tho the original plan was to head to a korean place to have lunch : (
the yumcha was great tho so not complaining cos it worked out
the whole conversation of the day revolved around discussing conspiracy theories lolol and it was really fun to talk about
my dad nicknamed himself Alien Sun.... cos he thinks he's an alien or something LMAO what
but yeah i really liked today ^_^
came home and submitted my asg.
be happy and goodnight



Hellllo
so the movie was going to be playing at 4pm? and ideally we wanted to get there sort of early so we could get our tickets as well as buy some food beforehand but there was some miscommunication and the timing got fucked up
hoang had to come and pick me up from my house bc i couldn't and didn't want to walk from my house to the station
once we did that, we met up w jimmy and moop and then headed to townhall
i was hella craving hungry jacks and so was jimmy but when we got there.... the hungry jacks was closed lol FUCK
but they ended up getting some maccas and moop and i got some popcorn
the movie was lit
lolol that's all i can say
had some cafe tiamo after and then headed home
be happy and goodnight

hellos
spent the whole day home trying my best to finish my other assignment for another subject that is due on sunday
i mainly wanted to get it done bc i was actually going to watch a movie with hoang, moop and jimmy tmr called Kingslaive (Final Fantasy XV) and it's only on that day and it's alllll booked out
so yeah
i actually finished too
which i was really proud of myself for doing bc in my recent years of academia, I've always been that last minute person and I really hate how it feels with that much stress
so yeah, looking forward to tmrw
be happy and goodnight

hellos
so basically today was do or die for my friend and I for one of our assignments
we booked a room and worked all the way until 8:30PM and it was so stressful and I can't believe I managed to finish - my only hope is that i pass lmao
it's due tmr at 11:59PM but i just submitted it right away bc i just wanted it gone
i hate when there's an assignment looming over my head
but yeah so glad i finished
parents picked me up when i was done and yerp
#tiredaf
be happy and goodnight

Hellllos
it was pretty hectic today bc not only did i have my normal Wednesday classes, i also had an additional workshop to learn a new program
so i ended up getting home at 6PM :(
hate getting home and it's so dark already
be happy and goodnight

hello
woke up and got ready and then got picked up by moop bc he wanted to go and visit harvey norman to check out the prices of flatscreen tvs
went back to his and just chilled
had some maccas for lunch and then moop sent me to the station
in the lecture i actually managed to sit next to austien and had a nice chat w him about our Japan trips and he walked w me to my class sort of lol
tutorial was overall pretty enjoyable
after that, went home and yeah :( hate how late i get home on tuesdays tho
be happy and goodnight

Hellos
basically was just a normal monday where i had my sonology and emc classes so there's not much to report on
i basically just worked on oncoming assignments during my break times
sorry i don't remember specifics from this day
be happy and goodnight

Hello

• went grocery shopping 
• had lunch at burwood w/ parents 
• i had a burrito bowl 
• bought an oven and a blender from kmart bc we really needed them
• and whilst my parents were buying appliances, i got an elf stippling brush 
• went home and gardened with my mum bc pulling out weeds is actually hella therapeutic

I feel sick to my stomach when I think about certain things that have occurred this year. I feel absolutely sick. And it's because of the simple fact that I literally cannot trust anybody when I used to be 100% trusting. 
I saw the good in everybody even if sometimes it seemed like I was critical on the surface. I believed everyone had a good heart and just as long as if I treated them kindly, the same would be reverberated back to me. Unfortunately that is so not the case. I never knew that simply being a good person wasn't enough. And yeah I'm not completely with it sometimes, I have a lot of personal turmoils... but I can't fix that. I can't fix that I can't be authentically happy at the current moment. But despite all that, I am still inherently a good person. Yes it may seem I am a wreck most of the time, caught up on issues that I should be getting over easily... but should this cloud me? Can such an out-of-my-hand defect really be a contributing factor for people to lose interest and leave?
I think about it everyday. What went wrong. A lot of the time I think that it may be that I just stopped being the me that I used to be and I didn't notice. But my intentions were never sour. There are so many ways that it could've been resolved. But why did it happen this way? 
I struggle all the time with self love and confidence because of the countless times I'm just tossed aside as rubbish. Cos it happens as dramatic as it does sound...it's happened too often. And i think back to the times I tried and I felt like I did everyday. I try my hardest for the people around me rather than fixing myself. I put so much effort into everyone around me. 
All I know right now when I really think is that I never let go of anyone. People let go of me and maybe I just stopped fitting their agenda and that's probably okay. I'll never honestly truly hate anyone who has so-called "done me wrong" because there were authentically happy times. People say, just get happy, do better and they'll regret it. No... I don't want to do that and mostly bc I can't. I'm weak and they're strong. I can never throw people away because I can't even deal with saying bye. 

I miss everyone. I hope everyone is well.